Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

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“Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy and hope.

cheese CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy that she is here safe. And what a beautiful name.

Love to you and all the family!

Im so excited for you.

(the only time im not checking the thread every half hour! damn)

Massive congratulations again Cheese

You all must be over the moon. Ella is a beautiful name. Big sister Scarlett will be very proud xxx

Oooh fantastic!!! Congratulations cheese, WELL DONE my love, you got there, sanity and all . I'm sure Scarlett is very proud of her little sister and her very brave mummy xx
Gorgeous name, fab weight for 34 weeks. Can't wait to hear the birth story.

Lots of love to you all xxxxx

Oh I'm so happy, a little rainbow has entered the world it gives me so much hope for the future.

Wonderful news cheese so, so very happy for you and your family. You finally made it.......welcome to the world Ella. What a fantastic weight for 34 weeks, amazing

Wowee!!!!!!
Fab news huge congrats to u all. Scarlett took good care of her little sister. Told you you'd be fine all that worry & stress will ease away now. Lovely fab news. Welcome to the " rainbow snug" Ella xxx
Love to you all. Xxxxx

Congrats cheese, that's great news and a lovely name too xx

Cheese, hope things are going really well for you and Baby Ella today.

I am trying to motivate myself to do something, anything, towards tidying up/preparing for next week. I need to do some washing or I'll run out of clothes mid-week, and Dad, stepmum and my 3 little half-siblings are coming down on Friday so the house needs to be clean and tidy. I really can't be bothered, though. Part of the lethargy may well be caused by having had a breakdown this morning because Bean wasn't moving much - I got the Doppler out and even hearing her heartbeat didn't help matters that much. Cried all over DH and cancelled meeting friends for lunch as a result. She is now moving normally again, and she has turned a bit to be spine to spine, which might have something to do with not feeling so many kicks. Do you think I can just spend the next 4 weeks and 5 days in hospital being monitored? I suppose this is normal as I get to the last few weeks - I know that Angel went in fairly often in those last weeks, and Cheese too (although for other reasons like low sugar levels as well). I just feel like I've lost my nerve and I can't stand the responsibility - what if I fck up and she dies? Ciwi and Razz*, how are you coping?

Oh too, the same as you to be honest. It is not good. I feel positive on the one hand that I have managed to get this far but then I have my melt down, 7.5 weeks to go, what if something happens?? That thought and reasoning is never going to leave us Im afraid because something awful already happened less than a year ago for most of us. The 4d scan has helped me for the moment as my little man looked perfect. The mention of a lot of fluid keeps nipping into the back of my mind even though the lovely lady scanning said it was not a lets worry level.......wish she had said nothing!! Poor cheese has had a dreadful time but there is a part of me that would so welcome a 34 week delivery. I guess we just dont trust our bodies as much as technology. Hold my hand whenever you need.
I will say without a doubt that I can never go through a pregnancy again, just couldnt face living with this constant knot and worry inside. I will be 100% satisfied with my lot I promise, so please God, listen.

too did you get in touch with your midwife? Maybe making a weekly appointment with her and see if you could have another scan in the next couple of weeks. Tell her how scared and stressed you are and that you need more reassurance that everything is fine, Im sure they will understand. But if you are ever really scared that something is wrong just take yourself to the hospital, they are not going to turn you away and get a scan. My MIL who has two angel babies one died at 36 weeks and the other at 20, when she was pregnant with her last baby 8 years ago she tells me she was at the hospital alot getting traced and what not in the final weeks, she said that she didnt care, it was her body and she knew if somethign was a little not right, but also to put her own mind at rest.
I will be trying my hardest to do this when I am pg, your nearly there just a few more weeks, and I know that this is the scary time now, but it was also scary in the first 12, 20 and 30 weeks you are well over half way you have managed to get this far with a degree of sanity () you can do it hun, you are strong you would be here if you wasnt. Keep saying the angel mantra 'today I am pregnant'.

Too & Razz you ve both done so well. Can you arrange to see your MW more regularly? In the last month I saw my consultant every 2 weeks & my MW every 2 weeks. For me being at work was my saviour and that's why I worked right up to 10 days before my section. I would have worked that last week had it not been Georgie's birthday.
Why don t you ask your consultant or MW if you can go in to Ante- natal unit once a week for a trace??? My last week was full of scans ( well 1 ) & consultant appt but as I was so worried I did attend 2 other days for a trace. They also admitted me the weekend before for my peace of mind ... As crap as it was being in hospital it did reassure me ... What about discussing that?
It's crap , the whole process from the BFP to the arrival but as I say not long before it's all just a distant memory & you ce got your gorgeous babies. Just look: you ve come this far you ve dine the vast majority of the stressing..... Nearly there xxxx

Congratulations cheese, hope Ella and you are still doing well, you have coped amazingly well with the stresses of the last couple of weeks x
too like you and razz I am not coping brilliantly, I am obsessed with movements and terrified it will all go wrong again. The midwife has already agreed to see me every week but I broke down on her last week and told her I was so frightened of losing him. She gave me several numbers and said they would see me more often than weekly if that would help, I can go to the day ward and get a trace whenever I am worried but the thing is, I am wary of doing that because I know once I start I will be there all the time. Deep down I know he is moving enough but I worry anyway. I really hope the consultant agrees to 37 weeks, I can't wait any longer. Got a scan on wed so counting down to that at the moment. Hang in there, it will all be worth it in the end x
blue any news?
Hi to everyone else x

hello all! sorry been away at conference in Eastbourne! back now... been having achy breasts, feeling queasy and bloated all weekend. Did a cheapo test this afternoon, which was negative, but my pee was probably not strong enough...
now debating whether to do a test with FMU in the morning with my expired CBD or my new shiny FRER or another internet cheapy... or shall I wait a bit longer... pffft
I'm on CD29, 12DPO...
With Sterre I tested positive 12DPO with CBD... but that was a longer cycle...
I just don't want to get my hopes up...

blue thats does sound promising, when is AF due? I would be inclined to say to you to wait till then, but I know how hard it is. Do another test tomorrow guess. fx I really hope its a positive.

Too Ciwi and Razz I haven't been where you ladies are so just wanted to offer hugs and a hand to squeeze. I can imagine how scary it must be. All I can say is trust yourselves, your instincts will guide you. Go in for monitoring whenever you feel the need. Most of all 'eyes on the prize' you are all so close, you can count the days down now. Lots of understanding from here, I'm nearly 10 weeks and have already worried more this time round than in the whole of my previous 2 pregnancies combined!! xxx

Blue I agree with Fan try and leave it til day AF is due. When is that? Mine was due around 31st Dec. Got a neg on 30th Dec, then positive on 1st Jan! Everything crossed for you my friend. Fan when are you due to test?

Waves to all hope everyone had a good weekend.

First day back at work tomorrow, eek to being a proper worker bee again!

wtw good luck tomorrow!

when is AF due? good question... sometime between CD32, which is Wednesday and CD44, which is 20 February.

Ah tricky then Blue think you could hold out til Wednesday? I know it must be so hard xx

I wish I could...

I have a CBD that expired end of January... which I would like to use as soon as possible before it doesn't work anymore...

Ah well in that case not wanting to waste it would be very sensible. FMU?

think so too It says you can test up to 4 days early with it... so there is a chance... if I have a 32 day cycle... I ov'd CD17... so +2 weeks is 31 days...

wtw I'm due on sunday, but might see if I can hold out till monday as that is shop day and I don't have any poas's in the house so will have to buy some then.

But yesterday I was convincing myself that I wasn't pg as I don't have sore boobs. I am very hot though. But trying not to think about it.

Well that was a waste of a CBD... BFN but will test again in few days

blue hoping its just too early for you.

I feel dog rough this morning, have a head ache and a bit of a head cold. Wish I was still in bed.

It probably is too early, I had the same with the other 2 girls, with DD1 when living in Belgium, never had a positive HPT, went to docs and blood test confirmed pregnancy. With Sterre, had 3 negatives spread over 2 weeks and then a positive...
I was hoping it would be different this time around as I ov'd quite in the middle of my cycle, but we will just have to wait... I hate waiting!

hope you feel better soon fan x

Oh Blue fx it's just to early. As I said I didn't get a positive until after AF was due and that was with a super sensitive one. The waiting is so hard.

Fan hope you feel better soon xx