Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

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“Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy and hope.

Hi everyone,
fan a bfp would be the best valentines gift for both of you, fx you get it x
blue your symptoms sound very promising, fx for you too. I could never wait to test, am too impatient!
cheese glad your little one is managing to stay in a bit longer, I know how you feel about being torn between wanting her here and wanting her to cook a bit longer. The fear of history repeating itself is so intense but as my midwife said yesterday, this is a different pregnancy and what happened last time is so rare.
august hope the scan went ok and things are looking up with your dh. We have all been through the worst thing a couple ever has to go through and there will be times you just can't hold each other up x
angel hope ant gets the compensation he deserves x
whatever good luck telling your boss, mine was lovely and said she was hoping to hear that I was pg, hope yours is the same x
razz enjoy your 4d scan, we were going to get one but this little man always has his hands in front of his face so we thought it would probably be a waste.

I have had a bit of a stress myself lately, my blood pressure is creeping up and they found a trace of protein, sent me to day ward and did a bp profile which was not great but ok and the protein was gone in a repeat sample. I am going back in a week but they have said I can go in anytime I am worried and get checked. Am just worried that the pre eclampsia is starting, getting my hospital bag packed today just in case!
When we were waiting for a lift home from the hospital we saw a couple leave with a memory box :( it really brought it all back and I really felt for them, I have come a long way since that was me but knowing the pain they still have to go through made me really sad for them. Dh said he just wanted to tell them it will get better, so sad.

razz hope you have a good scan today.

fan and blue fingers are firmly crossed for you both!

whatever Good luck with your boss, I am sure she will fine. Like someone said it would take a really horrid person not to be happy for you.

ciwi I hope you are ok? Im glasd you are being well looked after though.

fan I think I will get some stars added to my Zoe tattoo on her birthday. I will be bakiing a cake, dh and I will go to the crematorium with some balloons, I have bought a memorial/birthday card and I am going to buy a birthday candle which we will light every year on her birthday.

cheese I hope you get some answers today, thinking of you.x

blizy that's a lovely idea a birthday candle. I thinking of getting a tree of life tattoo, when I have the money.

Blizy what lovely ideas to mark Zoe's birthday. What date in Feb is it?

Hope you're rested now Fan

Ciwi hope your bp stabilises itself xx It must have been hard seeing someone else come out with a memory box knowing how they must be feeling. I find it so hard to comprehend that 17 families a day are thrust in to this nightmare

Well I'm off to work in 20 mins I'm shaking and feel sick. Really need to get a grip! Don't actually know what I'm scared of. Stupid really.

ciwi that's so sad, I would want to go and give them a hug and ask them about their baby. I remember all to well sitting in the hospital waiting for the car, holding on to my memory box watching everyone go by and thinking they all have know idea how much in pain I am in. How many weeks are you now. I packed my bag at 32 weeks.

wtw I was the same when I went back to work, I think its because we don't expect it, its like life going back to normal like we were never pregnant but also that we were, the last we were there we were full of joy and now well we are numb and not the same. I broke down on my way into work the first day, I always thought the first time I would go back would be to introduce ophelia to everyone, but instead I have nothing. Don't try to hard, just let it happen naturally. You will be fine.

Off to hospital now, the consultant wanted me to go in. Will see what happens.

cheese good luck.

fan I am 34 weeks tomorrow, off to pack my bag in a bit. I really wanted to tell that couple that I knew how bad they felt but couldn't. I wanted to make myself invisible, was very conscious that I am obviously pg.
cheese good luck, hope the consultant is just being thorough x
blizy I made a cake for ciaran's birthday and we released a balloon, it was nice, me and dh just spent the day together and family came round in the evening to cut his cake and blow out his candle. We plan to celebrate his birthday every year that way x
Good luck with work whatever, don't expect too much of yourself, just going in is a big step x

Phew phew phew! My boss was super lovely and understanding. She's in a bit of a quandry what to do with me now though as usually I manage a portfolio of clients and doesn't know whether just to leave my mat cover in place rather than muck the clients around for the sake of 5-6 months. I don't care what they do I'm just so relieved she was understanding Thank you lovely ladies for all your support.

Cheese I hope your meeting with the consultant gave you the outcome you wanted

Cheese take care xx
Ciwi how horrible. I don t remember much about any of that time. Horrible times xxx 34 weeks wow...
Whatever glad all is well.
Blizy nice plans for Zoes birthday.
Hi all. No change here no Job & Ant's work are pissing around re: settlement offers. It's like ground hog day & none of it good. Phebs is adorable though xxx

wtw so happy she responded well!
cheese thinking of you!

Fantastic wtw, so pleased!

ciwi I hope you are ok too after seeing those people, the flashbacks can be very shocking. So sorry for them . I know what you mean about wanting to be invisible. I often feel self conscious out and about with Freya, worrying that just the sight of her (esp as a newborn) would be distressing for someone else. Is that daft? Befpre Freya, I used to look at people who were heavily pg/had babies and feel stabbed and so angry with them for being blithely unaware of the alternative. Conveniently forgetting I suppose that some at least have been in similar shoes to us, just sooner. Some of those babies it broke my heart to see will have been other people's rainbows or miracles. Waffling now, but it took me a long time to realise that.

cheese thinking of you xx

spilt I can relate to that, in fact, one thing that has helped me around pregnant women and babies is that you just don't know what those people have gone through to get there, we assume that everyone else has it so easy but it's not always the case. Its not daft that you were self conscious when out with Freya, it's normal for people in our shoes and shows that you are considerate x
whatever glad your boss was understanding, I bet it's one less thing for you to worry about x

spilt I have never thought of it in that way, and its so right. And I agree with ciwi it shows you are a really lovely person who thinks of others.

wtw Im so glad you boss was so understanding, I bet its a weight of your mind. I am rested now thanks, but now it starts doesnt it the tww, the constant is that a symptom or is it just my mind, I am off work tomorrow as its our wedding anniversary on saturday we have the day off together tomorrow, so Im hoping to get busy doing stuff and having fun so it keeps my mind off the symptom spotting, if Im successful this weekend I will have to think of ways to continue it during the next week and a bit.

cheese thinking of you and little gerkin.

I was thinking of baby names today, torturing myself really, but I do love names and putting them together (to be honest did this before we ttc Ophelia) I cant wait to hear what you all call your little ones when they are born.

Looks like I'm being induced tonight, god I'm scared!

cheese good luck hun, I will be sending you so much positive energy, I will not sleep much tonight knwoing what your going through. Much love

cheese thinking of you! we are all here thinking of you and praying it all goes smoothly!
I will keep an eye out on FB and on here to see updates

Oh Cheese you are so close to holding her now. Lots and lots of luck. Will be thinking of you and can't wait to hear your birth announcement xxx

Thank you so much everybody. I really didn't realise how wound up about work I was, the relief is awesome. It's hard as I'm the main earner and without my income we're screwed so the thought of losing my job is terrifying. I feel better tonight than I have in a long time.

Oooh cheese I've gone all jittery! Sending you lots of love and may it be swift, safe and straightforward xxx

cheese we will be thinking of you and baby cheese tonight. Xx

Cheese u ll be fine.I can feel it in my waters. Xxxxxx
No changes here Ant been advised to accept offer of settlement which is annoying as we really wanted to fight it to annoy them. Just rung my dad to tell him the situation expecting some sympathy what a joke!!! Told to " get on with it, Ants lucky they ve given him a settlement offer blah, blah, blah oh & for him not to sit on his laurels for the next 3 months but to get another job" urh... Doh what do u think he's being doing? Proper pissed me off. Wr re suppose to be going to theirs next weekend think I might be I'll!!!
Tw*t

angel why are Dads like that! Mines the same.

Grh... Fan xx

must be something about parents cause mine are the same!

I keep checking fb for any cheese updates, god I'm so nervous for her.