Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

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“Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy and hope.

Yeah she is, thanks! Although she woke up this morning with her pj's covered in blood! she had been scratching during the night, she's got some eczema and moloscum spots and had scratched them open :( she asked if I could cut her nails :)

and while getting dressed the cheeky monkey had scribbled all over my cheque I had ready to pay for playgroup. She said she'd written her name on it

womanlytales you are more than welcome. My dd1 was stillborn at 36 weeks last april, we thought I was in labour and that we were going to be parents to a healthy baby only to be told they couldbt find a trace and that our ophelia had died. She died from an actual knot in her cord.
I hope you find the support you need from the thread here, I know it has helped me through some pretty bad times.

blue I am getting on with it lol! I would be getting on with it right now if blasted work didn't get in the way!

Yes we did name our boy - Maruti Ananth. Thank you for welcoming me. It's baby steps for me as I try to crawl out of the darkness.

Welcome Womanlytales sorry for your loss. As Spilt said the pain never goes away you just find ways to cope I think. My gorgeous DD was stillborn at 41 weeks in
October 2010. I still grieve , in fact just been having a little cry just remembering my darling Georgie.
Take it 1 day at a time & if you can or want surround yourself with good RL support. I wouldn t have got through without my DH, family & friends.
Take care xxxxx

Welcome womanlytales I'm so sorry for the loss of your little boy. Life can be very cruel. I lost my dd2 Erin in August I was 35 weeks pregnant and she died an hour after she was born. I am very lucky to have fallen pregnant again although it's early days still.

How is everyone this evening? x

womanlytales what a beautiful name, can I ask if it has a meaning? I remember feeling very alone, vunerable and numb the first few months, every now again I can smile with the memory of my ophelia but I still have very dark days. Be gentle with yourself and let the grief take you sometimes its the bodies way of coping.

I'm ov'ing today yay! So must go! Lol

hello womanlytales so sorry to hear your story. What a beautiful name for your son. Does it mean anything special? You sound strong to me, and very aware of your own feelings.

I agree, there are dark days and good days. I lost my beautiful redheaded 13-month-old daughter Mia in October, totally out of the blue. For me, there is still so much confusion, endless love balanced with unrelenting pain. I still cry every day, several times, although I realised that yesterday was the first day I didn't. However, my DH and I very much want a brother or sister for Mia. I like being on this thread because it does give me hope as I see other brave women go forward with their lives, and share their joy, their uncertainty and their love with the rest of us. They make me think that there are still happy possibilities out there somewhere in the future...

Err Fan in the nicest possible way I don't want to see you here again tonight Bonne chance my friend x

fan good luck! I was going to say thinking of you... but that just sounds so wrong

Fan, get out of here!

Hi Womanlytales, so sorry to hear about your little Maruti. That's a lovely name. I've never heard it before and would also like to know what it means and which country it comes from. My daughter Thea was stillborn at 41 weeks last March and I am lucky enough to be 31 weeks pregnant with a new little daughter. I hope your conception journey is a short one and the lovely ladies on this thread will be here to hold your hand throughout. It is so lovely to hear about the rainbow babies, Phoebe and Freya, who have been born so far - I hope it comforts you too.

Blue, your poor DD! Hope she's not so itchy now.

Blizy, booooo to AF. It must have been so hard to hear about your friend's pregnancy on the same day.

Cheese, am starting to worry about you - are you okay? Is miniGherkin still in situ? 33 weeks and a few days, aren't you? Who is due first, Cheese or Ciwi?

I have a growth scan tomorrow. Bean is kicking away (now!) but I can never tell how much she's grown between scans, so I hope she's still on track. If she's been growing at the right rate she should be about 4 lbs 8 oz - I hope so! I was 4lbs at birth, so it will be really good if she's already bigger than that.

Hope everything goes well at the scan tomorrow Too glad she's moving around much more again. Cheese is okay she has posted on fb today. Baby still in situ xx

Too good luck tomorrow. Xxx

too good luck.

I am knackered lol!

too hope the scan goes well today.
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fan

Welcome womanlytales, I am so very sorry to hear about yout little Maruti adn I wish the best of luck with your ttc journey. My daughter Zoe was born asleep in Feb last year at 41 weeks and I have now been ttc for 8 months.

too I hope you've had/are having/will have (!) a good scan today. Come on little TooBean, be nice and big and wriggly for your mummy xx
Glad it cheers you to hear about Phoebe and Freya - like angel I worry about posting too much as I know it's a sensitive one. Some up to date pics on my profile if you're interested.

cheese glad BabyCheese is still safely on the inside, I hope you are getting rest and taking it easy and those iron levels are still on the up.

blizy rubbish I am so sorry it wasn't your month.

fan hope you had a nice evening and it turns out to be productive and all

Love to all xx

AFternoon. Been a busy few days and today so just catching up with all news now!

We've all been ill with a virus over the weekend and still today but dh got worse as he's immune supressed, ended up at gp yesterday and on anti biotics. Started coughing up blood this morning and having chest pains so we went to a&e. Thankfully not another blood clot but they said he has bronchitis and that all the coughing has broken some vessels as his platelet count is also low again so he's back on the transamic (sp) acid for the time being. Nightmare!

I had a ctg done while we were waiting for his bloods and x-ray and that was all good, baby is still happy in there but my blood sugars have been really quite low and dropping fast after meals (with some highs after meals too) so I'm waiting for the diabetic nurse to contact me about it. I've had 2 hypos since yesterday and the worrying thing is that I can no longer feel them, I went down to 3.1 earlier on and had no idea so I think I'm going to have to test more often. I'm already testing first thing in the morning, before and after every meal and in the evening before bed.

Have another scan on Friday when I'll be 33+6 and also clinic so I'm wondering if they're move the delivery earlier in light of my sugars. I'm not controlling them well at all, whereas I had really good control for ages, and I'm still not even requiring insulin so it's not that making me low either. Keeping a close eye on her movements and if anything changes I'm going straight back in.

The plan from Friday was to deliver by 36 weeks at the latest, I wasn't sure if I could wait that long so we didn't book a date just yet but she's keen to try inducement first also and as baby is head down this could work. Depends how favourable I am and how baby is doing too. I'm getting worried that something will happen to her during labour so I'm tempted to ask about sections too.

Too that sounds so scary! I hope things are ok now and I hope your scan was good today. Sorry for worrying you, just not had a chance to get my netbook out, I post quick updates to Facebook on my phone but it's really hard doing the same onto here. I think ciwi is a day ahead of me by dates but not sure when she's delivering.

spilt Still inside for now! I'm working on my iron, they might test me again on Friday but didn't seem to want to take blood today so I didn't push it as I hate blood tests anyway! Glad to hear your dd is getting better :)

blizy crap for AF arriving :(

womanlytales welcome to the thread but sorry you have to be here. I'm sorry for your loss. Our daughter was stillborn a year and almost 2 months ago at 37 weeks, her name is Scarlett Niamh.

Blue Poor dd :( my ds2 has ezcema and goes through phases of scratching so much he bleeds. We use steroid cream to control the flares and he responds really well to aveeno cream, I use the oil in the bath and an aveeno bath wash too as well as cream for afterwards.

whatever I hope your boss will be sensitive and pleased for you

fanjo glad you had a good weekend. Dh wants another tattoo but can't get one just yet because of all his bleeding issues. I'm going to get one myself for Scarlett once I can too. Hope you caught ov and fingers crossed!

razz they love to scare us don't they. Must have been an awful time when you went in. So glad that all was well though and I hope bean behaves!

ciwi hope you're getting lots of rest now mat leave has started and that baby is being good :)

angel (hugs) hope you're feeling a bit better today xx

Miasmummy how are you doing?

Forgot to say about ds1, finally got him an appointment at the hospital for next Tuesday afternoon, spent ages on the phone to both the gp and the hospital yesterday chasing up referrals. Turned out the dr didn't fax the referral through on Friday after all but just left it...it got done yesterday afternoon after I spoke to him and complained to receptionists half the day! At least it's all sorted now though. One of the blood tests they wanted the results of wasn't done though so I think the hospital may want to take more blood from him next week but we shall see.

too hope everything went well today and you got to see a happy bean!

cheese what a nightmare, I hope your DH feels better soon, and you and ds1. I think about little gerkin and you every morning. FX hun. What tattoo are you thinking of having? I have one on my arm below my little finger it is Ophelias name which I designed and it has a tulip in the centre of the O, I saw a lone golden tulip the day she was born and I will always associate golden tulips with her. I see they are already in the shops, means its her season coming soon. I will buy some very soon and have some all the time till her birthday. Dh has her hand print on his wrist, I must admit Im jealous of his tat as its beautiful, I give it high fives sometimes, might sound odd, but it makes her a constant in our lives.

I have some seducing to do tonight, as I want to cover all bases with DH, hes out tomorrow and I know the ov test said yesterday positive but I feel really good today and I always think that is a sign.

Waves to all, see you later.

Cheese good to hear from you lovely. Sorry you and dh are having such a torrid time. Perhaps they will bring things forward if your sugar levels are being pesky. I think the decision between induction and elcs is hard. I'm quite pleased in a way my consultant told me categorically I would have an elcs this time. Erin was 34+5 and 5lbs. She looked just perfect. If all had been well I don't think I would have been thinking 'oh goodness what a teeny baby' iyswim. You are a good gestation now. Listen to what your instincts tell you xx

Too hope your scan went well today.

Fan have a nice evening

August How are you doing?

Got my booking in appt through today - it's on Saturday and it's with the midwife who looked after me with Erin. Honestly its a bit like deja vu and I don't know if that's a good thing at all. But it is nice to know she already knows what has happened so I won't have to go in and explain it.

Hello all!

Bean has grown beautifully and is now an estimated 4lbs 7, yay! She's had a little growth spurt and moved up the centiles a bit. Her kidney is looking much the same - nothing has changed there, and her good kidney is still good. She was breech today. It is weird to think that even without my history to date, I might still be looking at a CS because of the breech position. I see the consultant on Thurs morning and can start planning things like the steroid injections then.

Spilt, Freya is so beautiful! She's really cute. You must be so proud of her.

Cheese, sounds like you had a really rough weekend. Hope DH is feeling better now. Your sugars sound worrying - could they have been caused by the virus? I hope your scan on Friday goes well and the consultant gives you a specific date.

Fan, have fun! Your tattoo sounds beautiful and so does your DH's.

Wtw, I am being seen by the MW who looked after me with Thea, and she was very clear from the beginning that if I wasn't comfortable with being cared for by her then I could ask for another MW. I liked her, though, so I stuck with her and she's been really good. See how you feel and you can always ask for another MW if you aren't happy.

Wow Too excellant xxx so pleased for you.
Cheese glad alls ok with your bean. You re so nearly there ... Oh, I can t wait for you. Sorry, about your chest infection & nasty cough. At least you ve got your son's appt sorted now.
Whatever I had the same midwife who looked after me with Georgie & Phoebe . I found that lovely as she understood all my concerns & worries. She was so pleased when Phoebe was born & bought me some lovely flowers. She now runs the baby massage class we go to it's lovely to see her & she loves Phoebe.
Fan happy seducing!!!
Hi all hope everyone is ok? Xxxx
Ant saw his ex- employers today he's defiantly being made reduendent & they ve offered him £3800 to settle today!!! Bingo they know they ve cocked the whole process up. He has consulted a solicitor who's informed him to reject this offer as should be offered at least 3 months wages & has 4 AL days owing. So the offer has been rejected. We ve nothing to loose as if they don t play ball we ll drag them through a tribunal.
No news on new jobs yet , still applying & at interviews.
So, may get my holiday after all!!!
Xxxx

Too yay 4lbs 7oz is a fabulous weight. So pleased all is looking good.

Split I just sneaked a peak at your pictures of gorgeous Freya It really does give me hope. She is just so beautiful and smiley. What date in August was she born? It gives me a jolt to realise that what Erin would have looked like now - in my head she is still newborn.

Angel that's a heck of a first offer. I think you're right they know they haven't followed procedure. Bit silly when they're dealing with a HR person! Definitely hold out. My friend started to sue her ex employer on the grounds of sex discrimination as she was made redundant 2 weeks after telling them she was pregnant. They initially offered about 3k and settled on about 12k out of court which was 6 months salary.

I can definitely see the positives in having the same midwife. She was really lovely last time and ever so nice when she came round after Erin died. I'm just scared I'll get freaked out by the parallels as the dates are all so close.

Understand exactly Whatever my dates were about 2-3 weeks different that's all & that was hard.xx

yay for the TooBean! Sounds like she's doing really well in there.

cheese that sounds like an overwhelming amount of things going on just now. Hope your DH is doing ok.

Thanks too and wtw. wtw she was 22nd of August so very close to Erin's birth date. What you say about Erin being still a newborn to you makes a lot of sense. There's a poster on the bereaved mum threads who calls herself peterpansmummy. It took me a while to cotton on - the boy who never grows up

Too glad everything is ok! :)

wtw if I fall pregnant this month, dates will be almost the same too!

spilt day before my birthday :)