Hi all, Ellan that must have been so lovey, hope you can start to believe in it now and start to relax.
Hi Jumping, we might be on quite a similar schedule then - I'm now cycle day 10 and they reckon transfer will be about day 21. What day are you on?
I saw someone on another thread recommend a Hypnotherapist called Kristen Hayward, and I looked on her website and there is a free 10 min hypnotherapy download for fertility - I've just been doing it and its lovely.
www.kristinhayward.com/hypnofertilityhowitworks.htm
And also, sorry if this is a bit 'woo' but I sign up for updates from Randine Lewis who is a Chinese Medicine specialist, and received her blog update which on such a beautiful sunny spring day like it was today seemed to really resonate with me and filled me with a positive warm glow so just wanted to pass it on:
Emergence. As we move from winter into spring, nature expresses the energy of emergence. The seeds that have been hidden under ground sprout into shoots, which emerge through the soil as the hidden potential is being manifest. This very same energy is behind the reproductive capacity of a human being.
The water element, carried by the kidney system of energies, governs our genetic and reproductive potential, and how it can be either strengthened into a strong push of emergence, or depleted where its potential withers before it has a chance to emerge.
What constitutes that hidden potential? According to Chinese medicine, its basis is a strong sense of ones innate being, that gives rise to the will to live fully and reproduce oneself in the world. Physical means to support these energies are through adequate sleep, rest, quiet, meditation, a warm foot soak in Epson salts, eating seeds, and nourishing foods like eggs with high potential energy, meditation and breathing exercises, and acupuncture that tonifies the kidney essence. The strongest way to nourish the potential of the kidney energies is to know oneself fully, down to the core, without any masks or roles giving us our identity.
These potential energies can also be depleted by too much exercise, excitement, stimulation, not enough restoration and sleep; eating foods with low potential energy like refined carbohydrates. They are also held back by unexamined fears, which can lurk in the depths and drive unconscious behavior. When we move into these fears and acknowledge them, they lose their hold over us.
Can you look at the value of your life without any roles, relationships, or external identities?
From here, the depths of your own inherent worth, there is potential for what can be. What emerges forth as your heart's greatest longing? Sure, it comes in the form of the desire to have a child. But instead of holding onto the picture of a child as a goal oriented pursuit, bring it into an embodied reality. When you feel the desire for a child arise, what does it feel like in your body? What is the direct, felt experience of what you think it will feel like when that desire is fulfilled? Instead of waiting for the goal to be reached (a stressful pursuit which depletes the kidneys and obstructs the liver), bring it out of the mind and into the body. Feel the visceral sensation of its fulfillment. What does it feel like? Unconditional love? Joy? Feel those feelings now.
Turn your vision within. Find the source from which these energies arise. Let your deepest fears be uncovered. Move beyond them, so you can experience the fullness of your heart's desire. Take it out of the mind, which will give it a picture, and instead plant the feeling in your body. Let that feeling guide you.