Got my gynaecologist appointment today

[thelittlefriend]

and my instinct is to throw it in the bin and not go. What is wrong with me? I desperately want to be pregnant, why does this feel like such a terrible thing?

Do you think it's because you wish you could do it independently? I hated it when I suddenly realised they'd dropped the ? From our infertility label. But with us we've now found out it's potentially reversible and actually flagged up chronic health problems with DH so it's good we found it.

Because it's scary to find out that there actually is something wrong with you instead of pretending that it's all OK really? I found diagnosis really hard, even though we had pretty much sussed out exactly what was wrong through instinct and medical history.

Having gone through it, it was well worth all the heartache. If we'd had stuck our heads in the sand we wouldn't have either of our DDs. But the process of testing and decisions was awful, no use pretending otherwise.

I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you. :)

Yes I do wish I could do it independently have. The funny thing is, my gp has done lots of blood tests and I've had examinations and a pelvic us, which I was happy to go ahead with. I just feel like things will get out of control now I've been referred. That sounds stupid now I've written it down. The thing is, I've got my first acupuncture appointment four days before the gynae one, and I really want to give the acupuncture a proper go before any medical intervention. I will just be strong and tell them I want to wait a few months before they do anything to me! ( I know on the nhs it will probably take months anyway. Why am I even worrying)

If it's anything like use they'll only talk to you at your first appt. I reckon you can.do the acupuncture and NHS stuff side by side. With us they identified a health problem with DH which causes low sperm count. He needs to be seen by a different specialist, he's got to wait three months to be seen!
Don't tell them to wait to do anything, just assume it'll be a while. Do you know what the fanny cam and bloods came back with?

I'm sure you're right and nothing would happen for a while anyway. Fanny cam results were normal, as were day 3 bloods. Struggling to get a progesterone test that means anything at the moment because as my cycle is about 12 days long at the moment. GP is pretty sure I can't be ovulating normally every 12 days (!) However the fanny cam did show a big follicle about to release an egg so my body is ovulating sometimes, we just don't know how often. I'm hoping the acupuncture will regulate my cycle and, providing no other problems, should mean I can just carry on trying normally. I don't even feel like we're trying at the moment, despite lots of swi between periods, as I know there would be no time for implantation anyway. Sorry to ramble on.

That's why MN is here! Poor you having 12 day cycles, that's clearly not right. I've heard promising things about acupuncture for irregular cycles.