With angel babies in the sky, some of us expecting rainbow babies, others still ttc and definitely swi!!

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started new thread! we do talk a lot, don't we?

Congratulations on your scan cheese

Hello everyone else, just been reading all your news.
razz you poor thing, you must be feeling awful. Are you on anti sickness meds? I struggled a lot with the nausea and vomiting (nothing like as bad as yours) and remember how miserable it was. So many times I sat crying down the toilet...

too sorry to hear about your DH and the job. I would be livid too, that sounds really badly handled and so disappointing for him.

green I hope your FIL is much better today, and that you've had some sleep.

Sorry to miss loads of people out, but sending love to all xx

Right, dinner over and had my insulin, took me less time to build up the courage this time! They put me ahead a few days so I'm 13+4 now and due on 17th March :o

jane I'm really obsessive about finding things out and use google far too much looking for every little bit of information I can find, isn't good.

ciwi It's a horrible feeling. That must have been hard for you thinking that about your blood pressure medication but you did need it and it definitley wasn't your fault at all. I totally agree about driving yourself mad though, I need to take a step back and think less, I wish I could just turn my mind off at times.

green wow sorry about your fil, how frightening! Hope everything is ok now. How are you and dh?

Angel I'm vowing to try! 11 day, you must have been exhausted :( How exciting! Not long left to go now at all.

razz Sorry you're not feeling so good, hope the sickness passes soon. How many weeks are you now? Hope the get the keytones sorted too.

blue I'm trying to remember how long my cycle was when I conceived, I think it was quite long though, at least 38 days.

Too Sorry dh didn't get the promotion :( That sounds really shitty of the manager, why get his hopes up like that and just turn him down when they could have told him in the first place? Seems wrong.

split thanks :) How you getting on now?

Cheese glad scan wad good
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green Hope FIL is doing ok now.

mel sorry AF has turned up - blue - sorry you're having a crap cycle. FX for you both.

yay cheese :)

too sorry your DH didn't get his promotion. It does sound as though they were crap and should have let him know if there was no point him applying before it got to that stage.

angel How are you doing? You must be knackered by now!

have been away at a work conference where i was freaking out 'cos i started bleeding. Rang doc in a panic earlier so he took me in for a quick scan. Bean still there are looking healthy. i just wish it would stop freaking me out!

We're doing ok thanks cheese. It is tremendously hard work looking after a newborn, but she is so lovely. Just started smiling

I think I'm a bit rubbish at winding though, and it's horrible hearing her scream and struggling to get the wind back out. I have a fairly forceful letdown so it chokes her a bit I think, she gasps, and we get trapped wind and an unhappy baby. Nipples are on the mend though, woohoo!

Dachs glad all is well. These pregnancies are very long and stressful aren t they? X
I am very tired through disrupted sleep and work but it's all good practice I guess. !!!

hey spilt good to hear from you. Have you tried Infacol for her wind? If shes got a bit of colic it will help her bring up her wind and hopefully stop crying. My nephew has terrible colic, they have just tried him on this as he cried himself hoarse last week.

thanks for all the messages for FIL he is doing fine now.
He was out running when it happened it looks like it might be exercised related, the doc said this but FIL is stubborn and said Im running for a reason Im running for Sands this November and then I shall hang up my trainers. Bless him. His first baby died at 36 weeks as well, it was a girl too exactly the same as my Ophelia. Very strange her name was Jennifer, she would have been 32 this year. So strange that me and MIL both had girls first who both died at 36 weeks. FIL took it really hard when he heard about Ophelia, thought it was a family curse. But also he never met Jennifer, he left his wife at the hospital couldnt face the labour she had to do it by herself. He has never forgiven himself. They also lost a little girl at 17 weeks her name was Heidi, so hes running for his girls, Jennifer, Heidi and Ophelia.

Hi all - sorry reading via phone and its acting up!
Happy for all the positive scans - yeh!

green that is so sad, I couldn't comprehend losing another baby, it would finish me off. Your FIL is such an inspiration carrying on with his running, I hope manages it and stays well.

Hi mama hope you are ok.

AF is due tomorrw for me, I can't wait till it comes so I can start ttc again! Although it has been so nice not obsessing about pg symptoms and when to test during the 2ww!
I hope everyone is well x

Have a really busy day ahead today! Will have to catch up with all of you tomorrow possibly!
Just to let you all know, I did test again this morning... BFN again :( CD43 still no sign of AF. Did have cramps yesterday afternoon, like it was on its way, but nothing yet. Normally when I have my period, I only have cramps when bleeding not in advance!

Have a nice day everyone!

Morning everyone,
blue hope the cramps are a good sign, they have been a sign of pg for me in the past. Still day 43 must be very frustrating, fx for you x
green how sad that your fil has 3 babies to run for, but well done him! I have a friend who had an allergic reaction due to exercise, she also ate a banana before exercising and they think it was the combination of the banana and the exercise that caused it even though she is normally not allergic to either! Maybe he ate something last time that he can avoid while exercising in the future?
Good luck for this month jane we took an month off and it did us a lot of good, I was actually a lot more relaxed once we started to ttc again and it was that month I got my bfp!
diffed how stressful but glad all is ok x

Not much to report here, was stressing a bit yesterday, just so scared of something going wrong again but I gave myself a good talking to and decided that as much as possible I am going to think of this baby in the here and now. I am forgetting there is a little bub happy and healthy and with me right now because I am too busy stressing about the future!

Ciwi great outlook on it. Try and always remember that throughout.
I need to stop posting from my iPod as I never remember how everyone is and get mixed up way too easily! Apologies for the lack of individual replies due to my forgetfulness!
Blue fx'd you get one or the other soon. I was crampy a couple of days before af arrived and then no cramps which I thought was unusual. I don't know if it's because we pay so much attention to our bodies when we're doing this.
Jane let's see what this month brings with it. Hopefully a BFP but lots of fun prior to that!!!
I'm off out with my SIL and nephew for lunch and shopping. My idea of heaven!
Hi everyone else x

Hello! I thought I had posted last night, but on second thoughts I seem to have started a message and then got up and walked away from the laptop and never gone back. [ditz emoticon]

Dachs, sorry to hear of your scare, so pleased to hear all is well!

Cheese, yay for the scan and getting moved forward! Is 17 March your due date or the date you'll be delivered? My due date must be around 5 April but I'll be delivered around 22 March, which doesn't sound so far away! Is your arm better now - ouch!

Hi Spilt, good to hear from you! Glad to hear your nipples are recovering Hope the winding sorts itself out soon. As Freya grows do you think she'll be better able to deal with the let-down and stop gasping?

Green, that's such a sweet story! What a shame for your PIL to have lost two babies. I got a big lump in my throat reading it.

Is anyone else super-emotional? I cried when DH didn't get the job, and then I cried yesterday because DH criticised my driving on the way home. In fact, I pouted, yelled at him and then cried and said I didn't want to drive any more! We were only about a mile from home so I did carry on and then came within about an inch of bashing the car off the wall turning into the drive.

Jane and Mel, FX for this month!

Blue, how frustrating! I hope you get an answer soon.

Ciwi, no stressing, it's not allowed! That sounds like a good way of dealing with it. I am sort of ignoring the pregnancy because I can't feel anything (I mean, I am taking folic acid and aspirin and eating the right things anmd not drinking) but I am trying not to think too much yet because it still feels so unreal. Hopefully when I can feel kicks it will be easier in some ways.

Mel, enjoy your lunch - sounds great!

Hi Mama!

Phew! Have I missed anyone? Apologies if I have!

Woo hop!! Yeh too u missed me only joking!!! I m fine tired but fine and moaning how it's too hot to work!!! Xx

Sorry Angel! Not surprised you're tired with 11 hour shifts! Is it hot where you work, or is it just pregnancy heat?

Yes in our clinic s it is very hot doesn t help with my internal radiator!!!

Girls I need some advice and well someone to listen

DH and I are swi as you know. I got a positive ov test yeaterday. Last night after we spent the evening watching football at his parents we headed home he'd had three beers so he was a bit happy, but not to much which is good. We got home and it was late so I asked shall we sleep? He said yeah. So got into bed then I said shall we swi or not? I meant it in the way of your tired if you dont thats fine just say. But he didnt speak. So I asked the question again thinking hes deffinitly too tired. Then he told me I wasnt romantic. Which made me upset. We laid there a while and then he was sleeping, I was still upset. I need to speak to him about this, this all happened before when we were first ttc, he said I was stressing all the time which put him off, but Im not stressing untill that happened last night. I need to tell him that making me ask that question, beacuse it was a making me ask that question situation (as we had talked about my fertile time the day previous) puts more pressure on me. I feel like Im the only one who wants to get pg or even cares and I know thats not the case but thats the way I feel. I dont like asking for sex it should just happen but when you are trying and you ov you need to say you are. It doestn help that I dont feel attractive and havnt done since Ophelia, which in turn puts pressure on me.

Im still a bit upset this morning, I feel that last night was a wasted opertunity and that it was my fault. I hate this I was so chilled this cycle and then this happened.

Can we be honest here do any of you have stress situations like this? Please tell me Im not the only one.

cant beleive this I wrote out a really long post and its not here.

and now it is! Stupid!

Sorry for the above post, I think what has upset me is that I was trying to be sensitive and not put pressure on him and it looks like I have done the opposite. Why is it so complicated.

green Exactly the reason we took a break this month, although it was the other way about with me. DF always asks to dtd, to be honest it is such a turn off. It makes feel like I should be ready because he is. I don't tell him when I have ovulated, I just jump on him at the first oppoptunity .

Don't be upset with yourself, have a chat with dh tell him you feel. Hope you get things sorted. x

cheers jane
DH has just text me appologising about last night and that he wasnt in a very good mood. So we are going to talk tonight. When we ttc before I was the one jumping on him all the time and he got fed up with that too, saying I wanted it too much, so that was why we started using ov tests and we decided that I would tell him when I ov and we would get on with it. I knew he was in a strange mood last night thats why I asked, and it back fired on me. Hopefully we shall sort it out tonight.

Green hopefully you'll get it all talked through. I sat down with my DH and told him that I was bored with it all. All we seem to do falls into the same routine and I'm bored and not enjoying it. This month we're just going to try and get that "honeymoon" thing happening again!
And as for not feeling good about yourself, I'm giving you a row. You've had a beautiful baby and your body is meant to show this. Your DH will look at you and see you, he won't see any of the wee lumps or bumps that you see (speaking personally for the lumps part). Be proud of your body as it shows what you have done in your life. Hope you feel better soon. Lots of hugs xx

mel thanks I know he feels that way he tells me, but sometimes it doesnt get home you know.

green just wanted to say that I think what you are going through is very common. We had a similar blip, I hated myself and thought DH thought I was ugly/fat etc, when we got talking he was actually too scared to get me pg as I had then lost Ciaran and had a mc, he didnt want me to go through anymore pain. We also took a month off and I accepted that it will happen when it happens and somehow managed to take a massive chill pill, as long as you swi once round ov you will have a chance, we ended up just deciding to swi when we feel like it but to make sure at least once round ov. It worked for us, I know your situation may be different but just wanted to let you know that you are certainly not alone in feeling like that x

ciwi thanks that really has taken a weight off my shoulders.

I really do owe a lot to you all, we are so lucky to have found each other.