Emmsys weebling onwards and upwards into summer.

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Here we are a new spruced up greenhouse

Buddha like louey says things are always ten times worse when you're tired. I am terrible when I'm tired, you are not alone xxx

blue weather is still fab up here ajay is walking around with his pot belly hanging over his shorts

More birthday for neeks

blue, you know I love you but I am so at your day today. It sounded just bliss - pictures of the boys are great on FB

Buddhha Babies are sent to try us and some of them are just so good at playing us. BB is so much worse when I'm around - her first response is to cry and if I'm not holding her or playing with her when I'm in the room.....

Your little man is just pushing his boundaries and your buttons and you are beyond tired. It's difficult to know what to do - the ear pulling is probably a bit of a habit now but obviously you don't know and you would have to be a seriously brave lady to try cc with a possibly poorly boy.

I've taken to going to bed early in the evening as I cope better then with the broken nights and early starts. Ideally, I'd like to go to bed with the dc's but DH isn't too keen on the idea, plus I have too much to do to do that!
Look after yourself, grab a rest when you can and repeat very frequently, it's just a phase, this too shall pass.....

4ever lovely lady - that is one very brave face you are putting on. Head in Summers sand pit is the way to go. Looking forward to hearing good news on Wednesday.

Got to go, bed approaches

Oh no, I forgot the for Neeko ! Hope you are drinking lots of the real stuff and congrats on the weight loss . Wish I could see 35 again - my dd1 would be about 20 months and ds would be 3 months . No, scratch that, that year was a nightmare - two really small kids, working full time, baby who wouldn;t sleep and no money!! Now, 37 - that was a much better year... Night all!!

Buddha fraid i dont have any pearls of wisdom, could def just be a case of pushing boundaries as is obligatory practice for our LOs, but do also know how cranky Summer can get when shes in pain, my poor little sausage has eczema on her wrists and sometimes it drives her mad.. Obviously trying to deal with it all when sleep deprived is no fun at all so mostly let me just offer you a huge hug.. X

Blue Im very but gosh you deserve it lady! Relax and enjoy!

Louey the injection sites on my arms are now bright red bumps over a bluey tinged swelling surrounded by a yellowey bruise, very attractive.. The bonus is that they have stopped aching and throbbing and now just itch like crazy!

LBM im not putting on a brave face but my head is truly in the sand. In fact im a bit in denial that im meant to even be pregnant, I wont really believe it til i hopefully see a little bean with a flickering heartbeat at the scan tomorrow.. (its 11am btw for those that asked)

Im sure the panic and palpitations will kick in tomorrow morning, although I think its a different level to the pre scan anxiety with Summer and previously, as that was always doubled with the fear and desperation whether we would ever even have a baby. At least this time around we have our little miracle girl and if we are lucky enough to have another baby then that will just be a blessing.. Today will be a long day I fear but I have Summer to distract me at least, currently walking round wearing one of her dads trainers with her PJs and talking on her phone, with half an eye on her beloved Ben and Holly

4ever ouch - that doesn't sound nice - the things we go through to get pg Hope summer is distracting you nicely today. Not too long to wait.

vjay at Ajay's pot belly. Glad you are getting some nice weather. Sounds like you have lots of fun things planned for the holidays

buddha how are you doing today?

barbie I've lost track - when is your next appt?

Waves to LBM

and if MLS is lurking happy birthday!!!

My mad world tomorrow - drop L at his new primary school at 9 for his induction. Back home, feed O and try and entertain I. Then back to school to pick up L at 10.30. Take both I and L to nursery for their last day party. Then meet nursery mums in local restaurant to sign card for the nursery staff. Back to nursery at 12 to pick boys up at which point I will be an emotional wreck cos nursery staff are fab. Then drop them off at the childminder. 12.30ish collapse in a heap at home. Will be glad when all the school visits etc are done.

This afternoon I've been in form filling hell....

Wow louey could of done with swapping roles today as i could of really done with the distraction

Soooo quiet on here Iv lurked about 20 10 times, as Iv slowly quietly been going a bit out of my mind with a million thoughts going through my head.. Iv a very heavy heart and then feel guilty for not having faith in my bean, yet too scared to believe there is a bean in case there isnt.. Im a bit of a wreck to say the least.. Its been the longest day ever, DH got home and told me to have a long soak in the bath but that just gave me even more time to think irrational thoughts I need it to be tomorrow and to just know one way or the other

Hello ladies, sorry for going a bit awol...been a madly busy week in the cupcake household! But now dh is out, I have a cuppa and oreos left from our American-themed book group last night (yum)...time to catch up.

4ever lovely lady sorry you're in turmoil don't feel guilty though, you can't help being worried after everything you've been through. Hang in there, tomorrow is nearly here xxx

Neeko and MLS birthday girls!! Many happy returns :) Neeko to be honest I wasn't that gutted about Murray... I think he has a real attitude problem and isn't a deserving winner... YET. Maybe in a few years if he sorts himself out...for now I am a Federer and Tsonga girl all the way

louey wow I need a sit down just reading your post hope you're not feeling too torn in all directions at the mo. Are you finding it weird just having one tiny baby to look after not 2? (Obviously I know you still have the other 2 but you know what I mean...)

lbm lol ds is just like that too- crying if I'm in the room and wanting me to pick him up, even if he's been having loads of fun just before I walked in! Quite sweet really but can be annoying! He also wakes at 5.30- yaaaawn.

buddha real sadness eminated from your post :( I'm so sorry things are so tough right now. At the weekend Jude was having hideous teething pain and really screaming his heart out just wanting to sleep on my chest all night- when they're in pain like that you just can't leave them to it can you? Glad you're getting support from your parents though, are they local to you? Massive hugs to you, really can't be easy. Here's hoping they can get him in at the hosp v soon!

blue enjoy that sunshine! And those lovely boys of yours pottering around the pool :)

vjay woohoo for hols! Wild camping sounds ace! And of course Harry Potter. We're not gonna get to see it til early August, but at least dh has actually agreed to go see it at all! I can't wait (even though I didn't like part I all that much, or the book for that matter )

Would also love to hear about our little bakingprince if you have a moment bq- hope you're ok.

Loads of love to all...I'm off to watch some more Downton Abbey. Just borrowed it from my sis and oooooh it is as good as everyone said!

Good luck for tomorrow 4ever I will have everything crossed for you. Wish I'd been around to help distract you but I've been building Walls! I've been hammering measuring sawing and screwing! Just call be Bobitta the builder

cupcake I so wish I could come to your book groups they sound such good fun
I enjoyed the last hp book more the second time I read it. I was in too much of a hurry first time round and missed bits.

louey I'm having a lie down now after reading your post

Right play time over, back to building x

Just a quicky to wish you good luck for tomorrow 4ever. Will be thinking of you and will have everything crossed at 11am your time.

Will try to post more when school finishes on Friday - I then have 8 weeks off, woohoo!!

PS Curly I think it was you who asked, but yes I am deffo still on for the meet up! I have booked both the Eurostar and the evening train oop north, so have 6 hours with which to play with Can't wait!

sorry for lack of personals, I just wanted to come on and give 4ever a massive hug, and offer my hand for tomorrow xxx

Sounds like a few more people need a hug too (especially lovely buddha). I'll be back tomorrow for a catchup. lots of love to you all :)

xposted with ya monkey. I can't wait to meet up!! Are you doing okay lovely lady?

4ever another hand for tomorrow. You know you can't change what the scan shows tomorow, get some sleep and it will soon be here xxx

Agh major wobbling here.. Summer has woken at 5.30am the last 2 days as opposed to her usual 8am.. 3extra hrs to panic and be an anxiety ridden mess. Cant help but think the worst, dreamt i was bleeding last night but still did a positive preg test... Just feel sick with sadness, dont want to do this a 5th time hard to be positive when this is my 6th preg and just my little miracle girl to show for it, hard to believe when the odds have previously been stacked against me.. Feel like im taking the p by even trying for another baby as we begged god for Summer for so long and our prayers were answered, and we should just be grateful for being blessed with her, which obviously we are, ridiculously eternally thankful beyond words, she is the most precious miracle dream come true, and Im just gonna be holding her tightly and counting my blessings today.. Anything else would just be another miracle.. Probably too much to ask for..

Rushes in to hold 4ever up right!

Was waiting to text, thought you would still be in bed. I am right here, talk to me if you need too. I hope today you are pleasantly surprised The only time you will be leaving this journey is 2 weeks behind me in the delivery room!

Happy Anniversary to Neeko today as well!

It is our 4th anniversary tomorrow too, really hope we are celebrating.. Our 1st one was spent in this same panic mode when we were waiting to see the outcome of our 3rd preg that was 13wks and all going fine til they discovered edwards syndrome, incompatible with life, is the term they used, and it died a wk later.. We were literally a few days away from having to go through what poor monkey went through, in some ways, after watching it grow in the scans every wk, i almost wish we had the opportunity to lay it to rest, didnt even get told the sex, though think it was a girl, and dont even know where it ended up.. Do think of it every anniversary obviously, this one more poignantly.. If theres one place i can remember and mark it, its on here.. Never forget our lost angels x x x x

Sorry to bring the thread down so much

Oh x post lovely barbie and just got your tx too thank you so much.. I feel so guilty for not being more positive and having faith and believing in this bean, logically all my pregnancies, apart from the 3rd, have been ok til about wk 9, grown fine and seen heartbeats, so there is no reason why it should of gone wrong already, its just the fact there was no sign of a bean last week.. Also, im feeling very symptomless, and unlike prev pregs have been obsessed with testing, and even spent a small fortune on clearblue digitals so i can check my hcg is going up Im scared i subconciously know somethings not right

Sorry i cant write too much, Dolly is very clingy and keeps crying

I had the most symptoms in the pregnancy that ended in mc, so pls dont read too much into lack of symptoms. I reckon you are just earlier on in the pregnancy than you think, the symptoms will soon start! What time is your scan?

My mum has her op today, she is so scared bless her. They can not put her to sleep due to her heart problems so she will be wide awake with a numb hand.

My other friend, bff here is also waiting for a scan. She is about 5 weeks and has blood and cramping on the flight home the uk for her summer hols.

Good news comes in three's so all three of you will be coming out of today smiling, im sure of it!

Thank you hon im really hoping so..

Your poor mum, sure the op will go just fine, horrid as it may seem, and she will be right as rain in no time.. Everything xd for your friend too...
Right im gonna attempt some distractions by emptying the dishwasher, pottering in the kitchen, and getting some brekkie into Summer, all after a big snuggle with her, in fact, she is on her 2nd lot of milk and looking sleepy, an early doze would be handy so i can jump in the shower..

The scan is at 11am (ish, always wait a bit even with apt) will be leaving at 10.30am, will try and lurk/post again.. Will let you know the outcome asap..

Hi. Just wanted to send barbie 4ever and buddha a huge hug today .

Having probs with my mob number but will try to get on later.

4ever will be sat waiting now.....i have everything crossed for her

Sat here refreshing and answering random threads on chat

fab news 4ever!!!

Hooray for a heartbeat!! So so pleased 4ever

barbie hope your poor mums op goes ok and your BFF gets good news too.

Back later, feeding time again.

Hello ladies!

As you can gather, it was good news! We didnt wait at all and had totally geared up for bad news, and told the sonographer so, and was just so shocked when she said it all looks good and its little heart is beating away, then she turned the screen round and sure enough there it was flickering away! Cue DH and I in tears, Summer slept through it all! She has dated me 6w4d instead of 7wk 1d which works out exactly to when i ovulated, so I am now incredibly happy and fantastically relieved! Im gonna try and brave it and hold on for 3wks before another scan, the day of my booking in apt.. I shall just look at my little pic and keep positive.. I do now feel awful and guilty for not having more faith and believing in it

Also sorry for my self indulgent weebling and hijacking the thread, and as always thank you from the bottom of my heart for the support and positive thoughts cos it helps beyond belief, you are all so lovely, kind and beautiful x x x x x x

Well done 4ever, wonderful news You must feel so relieved that all is well. Well done for being so brave too xxx