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Morning girls, fretful night sleep.

Went to bed and found that i had started to bleed. I couldnt react, just curled up and cried myself to sleep.
Dh wasn't able to get off the ship despite thousands of calls from his boss and other higher ranking members of his office. Saudi officials had to do all the paper work before they could sign him off. He will be with us this afternoon, after all the hospital stuff but at the time i will surely need a cuddle and strong shoulder to cry on.

My hair dresser text and asked when i wanted my next appointment, i couldnt call her back....i just kept thinking that i might lose my hair strange the things that go through your mind in the small hours.

Thankyou for all your messages. I have all your hands held very tightly x

Went to sleep thinking of you barbie and woke up thinking of you too.. How long til you get your result from the biopsy? Cant believe this and pray the bleeding was your cyst bursting or something and going away taking your worries with it, are you still bleeding now? Is it brown or red? Will you get a scan at the same time as the biopsy to let you know whats going on? I cant imagine whats going through your mind and you are bound to have gone through a million and one scenarios but you really do have to take it one minute, one hour and one day at a time, just process the information and facts you have in the here and now, dont think ahead too much, impossible as that may seem.. So glad DH will be back this afternoon but not for the hospital, could anyone else go with you? Do you have someone to look after Dolly? Wish i was there.. I will be lurking and only a tx away.. X

I didnt want to say this yesterday but we have decided to go for a scan today.. Iv been wobbling I feel symptom free, and thought it best before we go for the treatment on friday, just in case its not looking good its really hard to get out of the fearful mindset that something is wrong, specially after the anxiety tryin to sort our treatment.. Im wobbling all over the place, will get back on and let you know asap.. Please cross any spare body parts..

Have just read this now Oh barbie you poor thing. You must be just terrfied I really wish I lived closer so I could come with you to look after you before dh arrives. I can't even begin to get my head round the situation, so goodness knows how you must be feeling. Good luck today, just concentrate on getting through the biopsy, and try not to think about what tomorrow might bring. I hope with all the strength I can that it is good news you will receive, not bad. ps, I hope 4ever is right, the bleeding could be the cyst bursting. Gosh, that would be good news. Lots of love and I will be thinking of you constantly xxx

4ever good luck today, will come back on later for news. What time is your scan? xxx

Thanks monkey its at 11am but always wait a bit..

Holding out for news from barbie thinking she must already be at hospital as they are about 5hrs ahead..

Lots of praying going on, we have always gone in our hospital chapel before, and after every scan we ever have, and pray with all our might, will be doing double prayers for barbie and her bean, as well as our bean....

Good luck girls for today, I can post until about 11.30 am this morning so will be watching and waiting. Love and prayers x

Good luck today Barbie and 4ever Sending all the positive thoughts I can.

MLS also sends her love from France.

barbie thinking of you lots and lots, I really hope everything goes well today x

4ever thinking of you too x

Oh Barbie just quickly caught up and can only echo what everyone else says and pray that all this is just a horrible chain of events that ends up being nothing to worry about. I too was in tears reading your posts and it just feels so awful that you are alone and going through this Two positives I thought was that, like 4ever the bleeding could be the cyst bursting and secondly, you went through lots of tests only a few months back, if anything major had been wrong then, then surely it would have been picked up. I just hope that your DH is home soon to help you through this and that you get some answers soon. Lots of love to you xx

4ever Good luck with your scan today, I think it was a great idea to get one booked to ease your worries and to move towards your treatment on Friday on a positive note. x

Hi girls

Im back, i wont make you read a long post before i say all is ok, so ill say it now. all is ok!

Baby still there, cyst looks benign, and she said it looks like its going to burst.

We are currently writing a letter of complaint to other doctors. My new doctor is furious and has also lodged complaint.

I still need more test and scans etc but will fill you in this evening once D is asleep.

4ever good luck for your scan xxx

Oh Barbie sooooooo pleased and relieved for you! Woohoo!

Now we need news from 4ever

Woooooohoooooooo!!!!! I'm so so pleased and relieved barbie. I'm sorry you have been put through the mill by the other Drs.

Am lurking on phone. Currently in hospital with O for his jaundice screen - have no idea how long we will be here Hope we hear good news from 4ever soon.

Fantastic news barbie!! you must be so relieved, and thank goodness evil doc will get her comeuppance!!

4ever hope you're ok
I have text her but no reply so hoping she's just still in there having a good old natter after a healthy scan.

Oh thank goodness for that barbie Phew!!! You must be so relieved! I'm so glad there are complaints being made, that doctor does not deserve to be practising (and that's me being restrained ) Have a lovely afternoon - now you can breathe again! Lots of love xxx

4ever thinking of you and hoping all is well xxx

In car lurking, fantastic news barbie, just knew there was something wrong with that other shitty doc

lurking for news on 4ever..

Barbie that is such fantastic news im so pleased someone up there must of been listening..

Im just sitting in the car feeling a bit floored, scan showed sac and yolk sac but no fetal pole the sonographer reckons thats about 5w 5d and said if i ovulated late then it could be just fine still, by a 28day cycle im 6w 1d i know we conceived early hrs fri morn, which is 4wks ago on fri so am really holding out that my dates are a bit out but cant help feeling sick tearful and despondent... I get a rescan next weds, and we are still going ahead with the treatment, i just pray its all worth it.. cupcake thank you for a good way of looking at it that if it is ok and i am earlier, then thats better treatment wise. DH keeps saying to be positive and our sonographer said she was hopeful and wouldnt say it if she wasnt, just have normally had scans just after 6wks and seen beans and beating hearts so now just feel so

Barbie Fantastic news, what a relief! Hope you are taking this afternoon to just sit and breathe a big sigh of relief. I am so pleased for you x

4ever It is more than likely just your dates out a bit, the body is a strange thing. i know exactly when i ovulated (from OPK's) , have a slightly shorter cycle and yet was still moved forward a week at my 1st scan Would practically have conceived during my AF, sometimes it's just quicker or slower to implant and grow! The sonographer must have felt pretty confident to say she was hopeful, they usually err on the side of caution. Will keep everything crossed x

4ever my scan is out by 4 or 5 days too. I wont say dont worry because i know you will. The good news is that the important parts are there and in place. I bet on wednesday you will see a little flickering heart beat

Oh barbie I am sooooo releived for you

4ever scans are so tricky to date this early on, hang in there lovely lady

4ever stay positive, what is your gut telling you? I know you are always spot on with your dates... How are your symptoms today?

I did see hb with both viable pg's at 5+ but there are equally many who don't see one til 7 weeks, it's such a head f* early pg..

Iv always seen the actual little bean fetus at just over 6wks, and with heartbeats like you blue.. I dont know what to think. Am pretty symptomless tbh.. Thank you everyone for your lovely tx and tryin to give me some hope..

4ever there's often a huge difference in what you can see at 5w5d, compared to over 6w. I know with our last pregnancy, I went at what I thought was 6 weeks, and saw nothing! They said they could make out something, but there was definately no heartbeat. Then I went again the following week, and they dated me so I would've conceived 2 days after I know I ovulated/the last day we had sex. I reckoned that maybe the egg takes a little time to travel down the tube, and even then it'll take a while until conception.
I really hope there is a nice strong little heartbeat to meet you when you go back next week. Until then, try to have faith that all will be well, difficult I know. I'm thinking of you...

Hello to everyone else xxx

barbie phew I am soooo soooo relieved for you, I am grinning from ear to ear, that stupid doctor she ought to be sacked for wrecking lives like that.

4ever I dont have any experience of this so I cant offer you anything but my hand to squeeze and positive thoughts, I will cross everything for you that your little bean is alive and kicking and just camera shy for a week.

hugs to everyone

barbie I'm so relieved for you lovely. Just logged on and saw the top of the page, had a mini heart attack and then finally read that your bean is okay

Massive hugs for 4ever oh my poor love. Here's my hand to hold till next week. I'm sure Bean is just a couple of days behind where you think, remember barbie's dollybean a couple of years, she was a very shy bean at first :)

Waves to moon. Hello everyone else. Anyone watching the apprentice?

Yes I'm watching curly but im now hungry for a

I just did the online shop and ordered lots of he he