Emmsys weebling onwards and upwards into summer.

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Here we are a new spruced up greenhouse

Dh is away, im hysterical. I want to get in the car and drive through the central reservation. My baby cant grow up without a mummy oh fuck, what am im going to do????

Barbie You are going to do what you always do and take it one day at a time. There are many unanswered questions but don't start creating answers for yourself. You're here. They've seen it. They're dealing with it. Please breathe.
We're all here for you. I wish I could be there right now. Text me as often as you like and bugger the cost.

Phew 4ever So pleased for you.

Barbie i'm off to text you now as i shouldn't be on here.

I need my dh here. I hate that i can't call him. POor Dolly has seen too many of my tears over the last few weeks. I can't do this

Barbie Oh my love I just want to be able to hug you sit with you and try to calm you down a bit As Neeko said breathe, you will get through this you are a strong person and Dolly won't have a clue why you are upset, she won't remember that you've had some tears. It is awful that you don't have DH there, have you a close friend who can come round? Is there someone that can have Dolly tomorrow too? One positive thing is that this happening whilst you in Dubai means you are gettin everything virtually straight away which can only be a good thing it it is the worst case scenario. Can DH get home to you if you need him to? I just don't know what else to say, but I am praying for you and we're all here for you x x x

4ever Fantastic news

barbie like neeko says take it a day at a time. Wait and see what comes of the biopsy before thinking any further ahead then deal with the results when they arrive. I can see this is a major headfuck but the way to deal with it is one step at a time else you're going to get into a right state. Easy for me to say, I know, I'm not the one going through with it. I am concerned that your dh isn't there though, will he be back today?
You are a strong strong lady, youve dealt with loads and you can get through this too, and I'm going to be here with you xxxxx

Thank you. I have always been a hypercondraic (sp?) but this is insane.

I have finally god hold of dh all be it on a dodgy line, he got the general gist and is trying to get a flight home tonight as opposed to tomorrow.

I want to go and get in bed beside dolly, i need to cuddle her. But my sobbing will wake her.

My mum is in hospital too, found out this morning. She fell over on holiday in the states carrying a glass. The glass severed her hand and she has 14 stitches. She lost all movement so yesterday her gp referred her right to the hospital and she has been kept in over night. She is waiting for the plastic surgeon to operate. Being diabetic is hindering things, she has to wait until her bloods are right before they can do anything. I cant even call her

Oh my lovely I wish I was physically there. Try and take comfort in us all thinking of you xx

4ever im beginning to question how people without faith get through the shit. I dont know what to believe but i do hope that somebody is watching over me and my family and we all get through this grey time.

I'm scared that tomorrow i will have to choose what happens with the baby...I keep thinking of jade goody, i worry ill miss Dolly growing up. All such pointless worries since nothing has been confirmed yet. Its this normal? Or am i going mad?

Oh jesus christ barbie this just cant be.. You poor poor soul you must be going out of your mind, when is DH back? Hold onto what that lady said, and im gonna pray so hard for you that it isnt the worst.. Ditto at least everything moves so fast over there. Just wanna hold you tight.. Stay strong as you can my lovely..

@ 4ever saying Jesus Christ.

I am drowning in tears, this really can't be happening. Clutching phone waiting to see if dh has any luck with flight home. Was going to bed early, but i cant rest. Im here looking for something, answers? company? i just dont know

Oh crap barbie I'm so so sorry you are having to go through this. Very glad DH is hopefully going to get home soon, it's too much to deal with on your own. You know we are all here to virtually hold your hands and listen. One day at a time, hopefully it's just a false alarm.

I'm sorry about your mum too, hope they manage to operate soon. Big {{{{{HUGS}}}}} from me xxxxxx

barbie your thoughts and feelings just now are totally normal you are not going mad, you are trying to make sense of all this xxx

you know i bet in 9 months time i will find a quiet afternoon and re read this thread and be hiding my head in embarrassment at my over reaction!

Well at least i hope so.

Mum is having op tomorrow afternoon, i just text her but played down the concern.

yes you will and I will remind you too

I hope so too, but your reaction is totally understandable.

Thank you for your company. I am going to attempt some sleep.

I will update you all tomorrow. Night night and thanks again x

Night barbie 'see' you tomorrow xx

Ohhh barbie I dont know what to say, life is truly shit sometimes, and why is it that shit always happens to nice people? I was reading with tears in my eyes, desperately hoping you'd come back and say they'd made a mistake. You know that we are all here for any hand holding and hugs we can give, although that doesnt seem enough in the grand scheme of things. Hope your dh gets home soon so he can look after you and dolly. Huge hugs to you, keep talking to us, and as everyone else says, breathe, and take one day at a time. Rant away on here and let us help. Will be thinking of you loads xxx

:( barbie how horrible and scary, especially with no dh.
Hope you manage some sleep and you wake up to news he is coming home. Massive hugs to you xxx
(ps stop thinking about Jade Goody; that is not going to happen to you.)

Barbie I really hope you are managing to get some sleep, just to say I'm off on hols for a few days, will lurk by phone but never have any success posting, but that's not to say that I am not thinking about you every minute of every day x

only managed on just now....

Words are failing me barbie... all I know is whatever lies in store for you, you will handle it and will NOT let this beat you.

Praying and begging to whoever may be listening, please let this have a good outcome, please, please, please xxxxx

4ever will be thinking about you on Fri and so relieved you got the slot xx

I'm away as of tomorrow but will damn sure be lurking from my phone....

We shall overcome.

barbie sending you a massive hug. Was in tears reading your posts Praying so hard that it will all work out fine. Hope you and Dolly are both able to sleep well tonight and wake up to DH coming home.

4ever wishing you the best for Friday

Love to everyone else