Hi everyone,only just got up....have been absolutly exsausted for the past three days.....oh god,what do i say!!??....well firstly i'm ok 'health' wise,but mentally i'm falling apart
I went back to work for the first time on tuesday,and had been sick with nerves all weekend,all the girls were nice enough,asking how i am,checking if i'm ok etc etc,but the management are something else!!I've never really got on with the director/owner of the company,hes very 'money' orinentated,and if he can get the workers cheaper and for longer,he will.
He came into the nursery on tues and the first thing he said to me is,'ah,michelle,are you attending our christmas do,i need numbers'!!!!...i was like,'oh,um i don't know really',..I was gobsmacked!!!no 'how are you' etc,nothing!!
So i basically got hassle on the first day about stuff happening at christmas,and how i really should go,i don't even think we're doing alot of celebrating this year anyway because of all thats happened.!!!
Wednesday,i wanted to discuss my contract with a lady who works under the director,as she deals with all that....because i'm trying to settle back into work i'm only doing tues-thurs part-time for awhile,then i was going to see if i wanted to carry on doing part-time or go back to full-time later on.
She basically said i'm being put on a part-time contract,that i wouldn't be entitled to holiday until i'd been part-time for atleast a year!!(i've worked for them for nearly 4 years!),and that this month i'd only be paid 2 weeks money because the payroll cut off period for part-time contractors is the 14th of every month!
I was gutted.........in uncontrolable tears
Thursday,i heard from several collegues i work with,trust and have known for a long time,that there had been alot of back stabbing chat going on behind my back,and the new manager who has only really been there a couple of months,hasn't got a clue about people skills,and REALLY can't do her job,i have instantly taken a dislike to,as she shows no sympathy to me atall,she just expects me to be as i was before,and i just can't!!!!I haven't got it in me anymore!!
I couldn't wait to get out of there last night,and again,i was in uncontrollable tears!!!!I feel like there treating me like s**t!!.I'm good at what i do!!I just need abit of time to settle back into it,is that so much to ask!!?
I feel betrayed,heartbroken,and on the verge of a break down,all over a bloody job!!!
I'm going to hand a letter of resignation in on monday,and look else where,i just didn't think they would make it so hard for me to try and return to work!!
What do you all make of it?(sorry i've written an essay!!).x