Morning
Karbea - how was your temp today, still dipping? Thats how I knew AF came for me to, in some ways a few days of preparing I suppose as I had 2 big dips.
HotcrossES- thanks for those hugs
. I dont know how I am going to get out of this mind set though if its negative at 9 DPO then Im not pregnant. Obviously up to now its bee true though 
jaggy - good on you resisting POAS, wish I had your restraint.
bossyboop - thanks, how are things with you?
weimy - any sign of AF yet, hopefully not.
scrummybomb - thanks so much for your message, Im actually feeling a lot more negative and lower than I post here tbh, sometimes I feel as if compared to others I know I have nothing to moan about really, because I have got 3 boys but it doesnt help me feel any better although I try. Dont get me wrong I am eternally gratefull for them and know Im lucky but when you want something else so badly Im scared it never going to happen. So knowing that most people here are ttc No1 makes me feel I cant say anything without sounding selfish if that makes sense, stupid, stupid all these thoughts that go through our heads.
It actually took me approx 18 months with a chemical pregnancy in the middle to conceive DS2 so not as long this time (been trying since August), but I was only 30 then and Im now 40 so time is most def not on my side.
I email my best pal a lot and have arranged for her to come up in a few weeks so wil have a good old girly moan chat then - thank you. 