Feisty Fabulous Forty somethings - part 2

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woohoo over here

lol shag with intent. and sperm meets egg plan (google it and see if you can keep up)

Thanks for the support lol - when i had a coil in for 6 years i never had periods or all the pain that goes with them - ah well not long until i either get preg or give up!

jolls get back to him quick - there could be a train crash!

HIPPY I am right there behind you ...... am gonna give up I think coz it's just about finished me off now in all areas ....just too much heartache for me.... Im sick of tests and temps and trying to time it just right and then BFNs .....Im not enjoying my life and I think I need to find another quest (tho god knows what as I have ate - slept and drank TTC for 2 and half years now) I also don't feel like my DH has totally supported me of late and he's not as dedicated as I am and it's not much fun feeling like 'Im alone' whilst stuck in my frustrated self..... so here I am just passed OV and he didnt make the grade (too strung out from a busy day at work) whilst a Monitered cycle told me I had just dropped a lovely ripe egg (so bollox to it) how totally frustrating is that !!!!!

I'm not feeling MUCHLOVE at the mo infact Im wiped out sooo prob won't be about much..... only to check on all the BFPers progress reports of course but otherwise I will keeping a low profile xx

Arh...Much sorry about that.Keep in touch!!!! XXX

Hippy its horrible the impending af...I know when its coming i 'd rather it just be here already!!!!
I would have had my smear pre-ovulation but i 'd got the smiley face the day before mine so didn t want to risk it though i don t know of any contraindications.

LOL sperm meets egg plan ; start bd every 2 days from cd 8 then start opk testing cd 10 when you get a + opk swi that night and the next 2 nights.1 night off then swi 1 more night.4 out of the 6 times i ve get pg i ve done this so i can only sing its praises!!!!!

Diege you testing again tomorrow????

LOU I'm thrilled for you, well done

Hippy were you able to sort things out with your friend? You do sound down . I totally understand where you are coming from, it's all so bloody draining, but I genuinely feel that you will get there besser xx
Lol Jolls about hairwash cup. That poor cup gets peed in day in day out, only gets a break during af. They play with it in the bath too which is disgraceful I know muchoove I agree that is a very frustrating scenario . Would it be worth having one final heart to heart with dh?
Lol hope we've cleared up the acronyms with you
Lou, no more testing for me! Line came up quick, so I just know I would start comparing not only the shade/depth/general 'hue' but also the time is would take to come up. THere's nothing in the world I can do now anyway but wait and see!
Thanks again for everyone's kind words, they mean a lot xx

Lou and Deige, such good news. Very excited for both of you!

Hippy and Muchlove, sorry to hear you are feeling down.I can completely relate.Lol, I can understand your feelings too.

I'm not doing so well. Starting to think I must be stupid to continue persuing this dream. But don't know how to let it go.

All things ttc have been such a huge part of my life for the last 4 years or so - it was 3 years of heartache before my DH got the vasectomy reversal, 7 months of ttc before Charlie's bfp, then when he was about 10 months old I started wanting to ttc again, but had to wait for the return of AF.Then it was 6 months ttc before the last pregnancy which ended at 10 weeks. Meanwhile I've turned 44 and feel like my world is spinning out of control.I feel stuck in this void of all things ttc!

But when I think about letting it go I just feel so devestated...F*&k, I think I need a psychotherapist....but really don't want to go there.

I worry because my period isn't very heavy, but it goes for about 4 days, so it's probably fine. I think I'm just trying to find reasons for it not happening.It's so silly when I have got proven fertility over the years, it's just that things are slowing down as I get older.

I realise I need to "let go" and stop being so controlling. I couldn't find my thermometer this a.m. It's usually under my pillow, and I wondered if maybe it's a bit of a message.Perhaps it is time to just let things go and see what happens.

Sorry about my moany post.

I'm really excited about the bfp's.It is wonderful news.

Gum Hippy Much we are all ovulating, all having periods, all producing progesterone, all having ridiculous amounts of sex - we should be really proud of ourselves. We will always know that we gave it our best shot - whatever we decide to do.

I must admit, seeing myself as the oldest on the list gave me a bit of a reality check. I'm pretty sure I swi without having to use OPKs as I go by CM, mood swings and water retention. So - no testing or thermometers for me, thank god. I still get pregnant - I just produce duff'ns, which isn't surprising. I'm not going to 'try' but I'm not going to have another Mirena either.

I'm trying to come up with a Plan B. God, this is beginning to sound like an advert for evening classes. I'll be taking up pottery next. I love my job, but I need to fall in love with my 'life' again - and myself, to be honest.

Diege and Lou I am going to cyber-stalk you and have a virtual pregnancy with you. You can have the heartburn and the vericose veins and I'll have the great scan results and the epidural

diege fantastic news! Congratulations.

Still waiting for af to turn up here - I have a few days of cramping now before it arrives, which is a pain as by then I just want it over with. Am taking clomid from day 2.

Still obsessing about house move etc. It's too much for me to think about actually. Especially the schools situation and the stress on the children. But dh has said he wants to move jobs as he hates his so I just can't see how we can both commute. schools are a shocker though. I need to earn another £100k so that I can afford school fees (not much chance of that in my sector!).

muchlove sorry to see you go - please come back. I totally understand how you feel. and lol too - I need to come up with something in my life (apart from moving house!). I need to move on. So options are:
singing (I love to sing, but am crap and would like to learn),
dancing (ditto),
yoga (used to be good at it, but now old fogey), running (my knees aren't good, but it makes me thin)
maybe a course? I am interested in psychology. or could do something connected with my career - an MBA maybe.
Would like to be a magistrate too.

Travelling love that. But we are thinking we need a lean few years to actually get a pension/save up for our old age.

Sorry for stream of consciousness post - have come into work early (bloody ds2 waking up so early) and my boss has seen me which was part of the plan.

congratulations diege!!! so pleased for you, BFP's seem to be catching at the moment, hope I am next too lol

sorry to muchlove I know exactly how you feel, I've promised my hubby I'll calm down and chill out at least for the next 6 months and not take things any further in terms of getting referred for further investigations

I sort of agree with him but my clock is ticking very loudly now and I'm feeling really stressed out and upset with it all :-(

Oh my goodness it's a regular soap opera in here at the moment. Some amazingly positive news and then some really tough times for others :(.

Just to say Diege totally with you on the not POAS again. The only time I've ever repeated a test was just once in my last pg. I figure once you see a positive "for today you are pregnant"... . But lou I totally respect why you do it your way. (BTW also laughed at your DH grumbling at the cat, very funny).

The rest of us are a bit less happy, non? Lots of self analysis and change going on. Big squeezes for everyone who needs one today. But if we can't take heart and hope from our new BFPs what's wrong with us!?

And don't forget Lia is close to delivering her newest bundle and she's blimmin' ancient

Gotta dash but warm squishes for anyone who is in need x

XP Tina - you get an extra squish :)

BB seems like a plan.I m a "planner" my counsellor says that's my default being a planner but i m not 1 of these people who can aimlessly wander through life without plans.I have to have a "focus".Oh to be a magistrate how interesting.

Lol you are totally right as long as you re all ovulating,swi and having regular cycles there is still many chances.But i know it so doesn t feel like that at the time.

Gum i m very like you very controlling.My counsellor said we live with the not knowing and thats totally out of our control.I ve learnt that in the biggest way ever with Georgie but still doesn t mean i ve let "go" completely if thats you then so be it.....Maybe counselling would help????As another outlet for you to talk things over with????? Noot always ttc only i spoke about loads of stuff wih mine not just Georgie.My af is only 3-4 days also and never particularly heavy so i can t forsee a problem there.Sending you ((()))

Thanks Onedge XXXX

Hippy big old ((())) for you ...like Diege i feel strongly you will get your bfp also XXXXX

Hi Jolls ok???

Hi Italian,Curly,Nicole and everyone else XXXXX

We got our cat back from the vets last night.Basically hes in some degree of renal failure which is very common in cats [apparently a lot of the food is very high in protein and phospherous which contributes to this problem] but he s only 11,fit,active eating etc......so we managed to get his bp done testerday and a blood test.He wouldn t let them geet an urine sample so he's back in in a couple of weeks for urinalysis.He s ok but i felt so sorry for him poor bugger,he;s so loving and fussy.He s now on a special diet and hopefully we can give him a long and good quality of life.

Best outcome really as was worried he was diabetic which results in insulin injections twice daily which would have been horrible for him.

I also think Ant s starting to suffer now as he's really snappy and stressed.Told him to take time off work but ,unlike me who doesn t think twice about it,he won t .Said "he ll work through it" i said this is the worse thing you can do.I tried to do after my MMC approaching the due date and ended up having 3 months off work.[I sound like a right "doley" i do work honest!!!],Si, i ve booked him a reflexology session and are going to take him away for a spa break....[though i won t be able to do much hopefully!!!] I ve offered to sort him counselling but thats a no.With Scottie[cat] it all just came to a head with him loosing Georgie,starting a new job,Scottie then me being pg again.

Hope all are well XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

BB you sound like bloody superwoman Arn't the kids and the job enough to knacker you out completely? I get what you're all saying though. I think I might give up TTC when we move (to the IOW jolls keep up!). I would hate to start my new life there with a BFP followed by another MC. I thought about getting another Mirena coil put in just before we leave but, as has been said before, the thought of that is so bloody final.

AF still hasn't arrived. 3 days of very light spotting. I had that last month before AF finally arrived as well. It gives me an LP of about 13 days but is the 3 days of spotting a worry???(literally just when I wipe) anyone know.

Well done on not testing again diege. As you say there is nothing you can do now but sit tight. All the best bezzer. Yes, I think the thing is RL is ok now. I shouldn't have big conversations with people when progesterone is leaving my body - I'm just not up for it. Thanks for your concerns and thanks for all the support from everyone.

much Not sure what to say to you, you know what is best for you I guess. How fucking annoying that you popped an egg and hubbie couldn't do his bit . All I can say is what I constantly repeat to myself. Enjoy the children you have and never ever forget how much they mean to you and how much they have changed your life. XXX

Have just got back from dropping DH at work and boys at school. Feel like I wanna leave the world out there and me in here and never mix the two again. House is a mess but I might just sit and watch a few episodes of come dine with me before I begin clearing up...

lou sorry i took ages to type my message and crossed with a few people. Just wanted to say sorry to hear about your poor cat and also that it's all getting a bit much for ant. Men find it so much harder to admit when stuff is getting on top of them. he must be as stressed as you and as worried about this pregnancy as you, I know he really wants this baby sooooo much. Thinking of you both. I did laugh at your cat refusing a urine test - the same cannot be said for you, Mrs!

Thank you for saying that you think I will get a BFP as diege did too. Sometimes I agree with you as I did get preg twice at the ripe old age of 43 but then those didn't go so well did they

What kind of feeling so you get is it a spooky feeling like a premanition (sp?) or just a hope??

off for some toast and

ahhh thanks jolls I needed that!

sorry to hear about your cat louise mine went missing for 2 days over the weekend (stupid thing got stuck in someones garage for the second time in his short life) luckily they found him, don't suppose he'll be clever enough not to do it again though lol

I think I'm the only person on here without a pet - even italian has a new hamster! DH is very allergic to fur so we would have to get a snake or something. DS2 has seen a completely hairless dog who needs sunscreen in the summer and a coat in the winter -

tina that flippin' ticking clock noise is a pain in the arse isn't it! It's hard to chill out with that noise in your head - take care, honey.

ps. the feckin' daffs are meant to cheer me up - they're not working, sorry I keep swearing!

Ha Ha lmao!!!!!!!!!!!! Hippy yes, you re quite right Scottie is obviously not mine!!!!!

With regards to YOU i just have a "feeling" ooohhhh spooky XXX LOVE come dine with me...what the hell get it on and have a marathon session!!!!! Sod the world.

As my post took so long i x posts with everyone!!!!

Tina hope your cat is ok? They are a worry animals aren t they? We all know every time we go the vets its going to be a £200 jobbie.But, i love them we ve got 2 : Scottie 11 and Cleo 10 they are so loving..

Feckin Hell i keep X posting with everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right off to get dressed now ...moi????? "doley type!!!!" Only 2 weeks of freedom left.Let me try these: They re for you Hippy XXXX

hippy I have the same. and my progesterone is apparently ok. But I do worry. I had spotting on 8dpo this time and cramping since. Just waiting for af to turn up. I think it is worrying actually, but have been told there is nothing wrong with me.

I'm not a super woman! I don't actually do any of those things - just think about them! I just wonder whether I should have something else to focus on in my life that isn't work or children or ttc. having said that, i don't really have the time or am too tired anyway. I just fill my time otherwise with having more children or moving house/job/town and maybe being fulfilled in other areas would be enough. I have always been like this though - need change or a project to keep me happy.

oh lou my cat is on her last legs. it is very sad. she is 17 this year though so v old, but is going senile. The vet says we just have to wait.

She has a sister the same age who seems fine, but I think she will pine dreadfully when her sister dies.

hello everyone :)

Was sat on the loo last night on phone trying to catch up on this thread and was so thrilled to see your news diege It was like wanting to read last page of a book but I read through all posts first. Congratulations xx

And to you too lou, glad you got good blood test results. Just wanted to say that it gives me great pleasure to read the good news and doesn't ever never ever offend. I remember joining this thread and felt insensitive for wanting a baby when I already had 4 dc, but right here, right now we all want same end result, a baby in our arms and am just so delighted that the ball has started rolling.

Italian your posts are lovely, maybe you can be my wedding planner ??

Still having up and down days, af lasted full week but last night we dtd so gearing ourselves up for more swi

beattie I nearly moved to London when I split with ex dh as I have family down there and the logistics of schools, colleges was a nightmare and the fact my 2 dd were point blank refusing and were planning which friends house they would go and live with !! Just decided to see stay put and glad I did or I would never have met my lovely dp

Hope you ok hippy Just to let you know we have ten year old black lab, oh and two goldfish !!

Diege another rubbish grey day improved no end with more fantastic news congratulations. I am with you on the no more test thing I hate them anyway ...one too many BFN I suppose I get sweaty palms just getting the bloody thing out of the packet ...in fact I managed to waste a ovulation thingy this morning by being in such a fluster that I hadn't realised I didn't need to pee enough which is a joke at my age.
Hippy I have always in the past got a bit of spotting on and off 2 or 3 days before my AF ( I always saw it as a nice friendly warning of what was coming so I didn't get caught out...but those were the days before I was suspicious of every move made by my reproductive organs ) and I got preg virtually every time in the first month now after the MC I'm not getting it so much and nothings happening so for me it wasn't sinister
Lou sorry about your cat ..if its any help my Mums cat had renal problems and is still going strong at 15 years old ...
Still no temp rise for me so maybe no chance this month ...well at least I will save time not scouring the internet for every single imagined symptom or maybe I am so crackers now I still will anyway just need to work out how persuade DH to have another crack at it ......
for everybody who feels they need to give it up I can really understand that i need to stop and get off the bus too and resume normal life ..think I will have to be pushed off though.

must go now dog needs picking up from the hairdressers

thanks hippy lou yes he is none the worse for wear and our other cat Lola was very pleased to see him, she even stopped trying to beat him up (temporarily)

Hello! Just off to teach but wanted to pop in and say hi . Thanks again for all your good wishes. I managed not to test again this morning but I am getting a teeny bit concerned about fading breast tenderness Nothing I can do, will just have to wait and get throguh it if the worst happens! Oh to be 30 and fearless again!