Feisty Fabulous Forty somethings - part 2

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woohoo over here

That should be ended up doing not needed up doing!

That should be TV programme about low fat foods. It is called something like the big fat truth about low fat foods!

Hi all - dh is getting strict about me not using the internet (he has a point)so I've had to sneakily peek but not join in.

But he's gone out for a run...byyeeee...so I can finally say:

Italian go for the smug Rosemary 'no vanilla slice for me' Conley programme, but promise me you'll never look like her!

Gum good luck for next week. I was used to getting loads of symptoms every month, then BFNs. I only got one symptom (af cramps from 3dpo) before my BFP this time. And my friend with twins got no symptoms until 3 weeks preg.

All's well here in the Lolster household. Grumpy teenagers, moulting cat (yuk), fidgety dog - and half-term. Thank god. It's been hard trying to keep it together at school. I've been looking like sh*t and fell asleep in a lesson. And it's only week 4. Must have been all the sex. Was walking like John Wayne for weeks. I must admit, it's nice to dtd with no agenda at the mo. The best thing is bigger boobs. The worst thing is looking like I've eaten all the pies.

In my department there are 3 girls aged 30-32 who are all trying to get pregnant. It's getting a bit competitive - and tearful. I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I may become a mum, or I may be surrounded by women 15 years younger than me all going to term while I feel sorry for myself.

hippy I'm going to look at those threads. You're right. We need to concentrate on those who get past the 12 week post.

Waving to jolls diege panache ttt et al plus papers x

dh? That was a freudian slip. He's dp. Hope you're reading this, Steve! Hmmm...

gum I too was desperate to be pregnant again in time for the due dates but I've now had to go throgh 2 due dates without a bean in me and it was ok really. I think even if you never get pregnant again you'll be ok honest. I am starting to adjust to things and thinking that we might be a complete family after all and it is easier. It's still very early days for you and you're still at the why why why stage. Of course there is every chance you will get another shot at pregnancy - you and your DH are obviously fertile together . Sorry you had to miss the night out.

lolfactor one day at a time (Hippy chants the same thing over and over again). I know if I ever get another BFP then every minute is gonna seem like a day but as lia and many others have shown - even some old birds get to the end of a pregnancy eventually

italian thanks for the info - enjoy your lobster bisque Not long now until you're at the top of the list

nicole Are you ok now???

ps. DS2 is fine now - no more sick - hooray!
Love to everyone.

The last script is marked!!! If it was tough for me getting through, it's not half as bad as the students will feel when they get their results
Anyway, will now try and read through and catch up! Now just the day job until July when the summer exam intake takes place!
LOve to all xxx

Diege Well done!!! God, I know what you've been through. You must be delighted it's over. Large glass of vino on me

Well done Deige, you are amazing!

Nothing new here, so just marking my place.

Good luck to Lia.

Diege well done.

lolfactor sorry to hear about you falling asleep at school. I am assuming you are a teacher and not a student!

Are you trying for your first child? Are the teenagers in your home step-children? Sorry to be dim but with all the new people I am just keeping up!

It is hard when it gets competitive about babies at work. I work with lots of people who seem to have babies and in the time I've been there (the past three years) there have been at least three women who went off to have a baby (not returning), two men whose wives have had babies, a couple (who both worked there and had a baby and the lady did not return), one lady who has had two babies and is returning and another who is now pregnant! Each time I used to hope I'd be the next. Now I am just not so worried.

Hippy wise words for HopefulGum and I agree, I think it does get easier with time.

panashe sorry you are feeling irritable and have back ache, tummy ache etc. Hope it will clear up soon. Hope you will stop feeling in limbo. It is a horrible feeling. I have felt it off and on for a long time and I am now feeling much better.

Lou you have some wise words and you sound good except for rows etc with other half. I really hope it will all work out better for you very soon. He is probably just trying to be helpful. I know it may not help but I expect he wants to be helpful.

Can't believe I am 'confessing' that I am watching Tool Academy on Channel 4, but it is actually very enlightening! My hubby would fit in better with Beauty and the Geek than Tool Academy! I do not fit into either category! I would fit better into the Biggest Looser but like to picture myself in The Apprentice!

So if you were in a TV reality show, which one would it be?? (OOOhhhh I dare someone to say the Model Agency - Wednesday at 10.00!) I know we all really want to be 'One born every minute'! Good luck girls.

hi beattie no signs no, af not due for another 7 days though but stupidly I succumbed and did a test - bfn though as I expected was too early to test anyway don't know why I do it to myself I'm an eejit lol

feeling really low this morning as I keep thinking I'm not good enough in bed for my husband (this goes back to the affair he had)and it makes me feel quite tense worrying I'm comparing badly to some of his previous girlfriends, he keeps reassuring and telling me there's no comparison and I'm his wife and he loves me but it doesn't stop me from worrying, compared to him I don't have much of a 'history' (just my previous husband who was my first boyfriend)

anyway will pick myself up no doubt by the end of the day, I always find mondays a bit depressing lol

Hi all. Am working on a Monday for the first time in ages - it's pretty depressing! I am full time now due to staff shortages in my team at the moment, but I hope that when I've recruited a few people I can reduce my hours again. Not good. (although I do think that if I get pg now I would get more maternity pay!).

anyway still doing the smep here. Not sure whether I have 1 or 2 more days to go - as already dtd on Saturday when the smiley face surprised me, and then had a peak on cbfm yesterday and today. but dh still game so far on we go!

last night while we were in full throes so to speak I did suddenly have a moment of doubt as to whether I wanted to get pg at all. eek. but left it to chance in the end (figured it's a pretty small chance after all). I am finding it easier most of the time to accept that I might not have another one, but then I meet a pg woman, or see a little baby and it all goes to pot.

tina I think some lack of confidence is inevitable, especially after such a breach of trust. Have you and your dh had any counselling?

gum lou any signs yet?? come on we need some good news!

hi beattie yes we had marriage guidance counselling up until the point he admitted an affair! to be honest we've sorted things out ourselves, it's been very hard work but we're almost there, but I inevitably have some worries still!

I had a spell cast for me by a local coven last week - just a bit of fun but the spell was imbued into a charm i wear every day so even if it's a psychological thing I figured it can't hurt and lots of ladies have had good results lol!

Morning! A very wet one here. Older girls back after half-term, but dd3 at home as they don't go back til tomorrow. Working from home thankfully, with dd3 on dd2's Bratz doll computer and me on here!
Fertlity friend has been messing with my ovualtion date, putting me back a day which I'm sure is wrong...anyway,no point obsessing. A good result this month for me would be a LP longer than 10 days. I will have to take next month off as have to have smear done, and daren't ttc in case I get abnornmal cells and need surgery (have past history). 6dpo, and only symptom is very vivid dreams, oh and the usual sore boobs...
Tina I don't blame you for having insecurities I suppose there's nothing really you can do other than accept the reassurances and hope that with time you will be able to get your confidence back. Pretty horrid for you though
Italian oh yes, the model show, absolutely . I was on Body Heat years ago (anyone remember that? before Gladiators?) when I was young and fit!
BB hope work's bearable. I know what you mean about feeling ok about no more dcs and then seeing a very pregnant tummy/newborn!
THank for good wishes about marking . Marks electroncially 'sent' so just have gigantic parcel to take to post office now.
Thanks for the Lol. How goes it?
Hi to Hippy (any symptoms to compare yet?), Gum, Muchlove, Panashe, curly, jolls, Nicole, Louise

thanks diege :-)

No signs yet...the odd twinge of back ache i think but i never know wheter i m imagining these signs or not!!!!!

Hi Italian Yes you re right about dh...i know that sometimes he cant do right for doing wrong!!!! I know its displaced anger as mad at the situation and shite we are going through.You sound in a "composed" place now although your office sounds very fertile!!!! Maybe you should sit on the up duffed lady's seats!!!!!!

Tina Hugs (()) XXX Don t worry i m the looser who did a pg test yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!on cd 18 wtf????I m officially a mentalist now.

Hi Diege You re only a couple of days behind me.I m 8 dpo now.

BB you need to swi 3 nights on the trot after seeing a smiley face.

Whats "tool acamedy"????

Had a so so morning.Went to get next sick note for 3 weeks dr cocked it up!!!! Filled it in as i m returning on phased return now for the next 3 weeks!!!! So i ve to return tomorrow for another sick note!!!!!Went to Occ health and saw a lovely nurse.She has agreed for a phased return [not sure wheter 2-3 months yet]she came up with a load of strategies for when i return to work.Said she ll e mail me every week to see how i managing then as soon as i m pg again to see her about helping me again.I m setting up myself for clinical supervision weekly and having a "buddy" to talk to also.She is extending my appt times i get for my patients when i start my lists again from 20 mins to 40 so if i need to take time out and reflect i can.She said , 20 odd years ago,her neighbour had a stillborn child at the same time Liz[the nurse] was pg and this neighbour went on to have 2 children not long afer.

So all in all a productive visit....time for a siesta tired now........

Hi to all Gum,HippY,Lol ,Much and anyone i ve missed!!!!

so I saw the smiley face at around 5 pm on Saturday (did it late because I forgot!) but didn't have one on the clear blue monitor in the morning.

I had a "peak" on the monitor on Sunday and Monday mornings. Do I dtd Sat, Sun, Mon

or Sun, Mon, Tues?

(I don't know why I'm obsessing - I know I'm in action tonight!).

When are you returning to work lou? My boss's partner died last year (they were both early 40s v sad) and she was off for over 3 months. but you shouldn't feel pressured into going back.

Yes, CD18 - mad to do a test then! I have ordered some from amazon which should be here in the next few days - I'm either 0 or 1dpo! will start obsessing at 7dpo I expect.

Am v bored at work today. But on the plus side, I won't come in tomorrow to a million unread emails and stress.

Was reading that other thread about salaries. I am thinking I am in the wrong job.

louise i did one on day 18 then yesterday on day 19 lol so we're both mental

Just wanted to say Hello to everyone and thanks for your messages.

Still feeling but watching my 15,13 and 12 year olds playing twister is making me smile ! They found it in the garage, am sure I will be at A&E before the day is out.

Well, sorry everyone. Looks like it was a chemical pregnancy. I woke up this morning and felt absolutely flat stomached and beautiful - ie, totally unlike the last 3 weeks. Did a clearblue digital and got bfn. Sobbed uncontrollably, spent the day in IKEA looking at everyone elses bbs and tried again - bfn.

So, that's a 'no' then. Absolutely gutted. My poor dp. He's being really comforting but I know he's totally gutted. Why am I worrying about apostrophes?

At least I had one last chance to see a positive test. Will try again when I get my sense of perspective back, but I think I'm stuffed. 45 in 3 weeks. Just gutting

BB yes swi on Sat,Sun and Mon night according to the ems plan,then Tues off 1 last go on Wed night.

I started my al on Sept 4th then went on mat leave on Sept 20th.Started on sick leave at the end of October.So i ve been off just over 6 months altogether.With Georgie i was supposed to return from mat leave on March 7th .i ll be going back on or around 14th March so roughly the same time.Do you not normally work full time?

Oh Tina we re going to run up the national debt buying pg tests!!!!!! I ve got a load of free tests from work but will be purchasing some first response tests on Fri, payday!!!!!

Hi Panashe,Jolls and Curly XXXXX

Realised i d omitted you all earlier!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry lolfacter they are shit.I had one 2 months after Georgie at xmas.Much love and hugs to you ((()))

lolfactor that must be devastating. Hope you get well looked after and be kind to yourself xx

Thanks guys. Felt I was pushing my luck, thinking I'd beaten the odds. Wish my body would Get It. Boobs still throbbing away but no af.

lou after all you'd been through, a chem must have been a real kick. Pan it's a large glass of Shiraz, a 4 yr old step d plus Thumbelina DVD. Life goes on.

Diege I've got 3 kids (23; 18; 14) plus 4 yr old stepdaughter. So, frankly, we're being greedy. Dp really wanted a second child. We parted last year because he couldn't drop the dream, but came back after a few months. Then a couple of 'maybe, oh, not) months and now this. He's trying to be brave but he's desperately sad. He's only 38 (I'm 44) and there's a beautiful bloody Joleen character aged 30 at work who's desperate to settle down and have kids. Both are on the school trip to SA this summer. Makes me v nervous - now even more so.

One day at a time ;-) I know. thanks all x

On god no Lol I'm so sorry for you. Have you had any cramping/spotting at all or was it just a sixth sense you had to test? You must stop torturing yourself too over the woman at dp's work - don't you dare imagine soemthing that just won't happen! Please take care and keep talking - I think pretty much everyone has been through a cp/mc here, sadly xxx

lol am so sorry. You must be devastated :(

Look after yourself. And keep posting so we know how you're doing x