had enough

[domeafavour]

don't think i can do it anymore, had a bit of a meltdown with DH last night. Saw tiny tiny bit of blood and just cried and cried. AF 2 days late, but BFN's. Feels like AF on the way, but I was just hoping.
Given up hoping now, really had enough of all the testing waiting and hoping. It's just too much.
Been trying for nearly 2 years, 2 early m/c. Got pregnant with DS on the first try!!!
why is it so hard?
I am running out of time

Hi didnt want your post to go unanswered.

All i can say is please dont give up hope, you will get there. I know how hard it is, i tried for 5yrs,5 mc and with DD i fell the first month too, i am now sat here looking at my 20 month DD2 and i cannot believe she is here, all that time and heartache feel like a distant memory now.

Good luck i hope it happens for you soon

thank you x

sorry that was meant to say 20 week old DD2.

domeafavour, you are not alone. I got pg with DS in second month of trying and have now been trying for #2 for over a year and I am already losing hope. We just cannot get pregnant this time at all.

However, [sadly] there are lots of us in a similar position and it is helping me to think that I'm not alone. We can all be found here:

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1040439-Having-difficulties-ttc-2?pg=10

Please feel free to join in. No need to be constantly positive etc ... we're "keeping it real" there so you can rant, moan, share ...... whatever you want.

Hope you get your PMA back soon.

thank you Lychees, will check out that thread.
don't know what PMA is?? guessing positive something?!!
strangely feel better today, AF is here. I think its the constant hoping and thinking about it that I can't deal with.
Anyway DH will be able for next ovulation, so I guess the pressure is off a bit. I am going to concentrate on my health and weight for the next 2 months.

Positive Mental Attitude? [acronym hell this website]

I had a day like this myself yesterday. Icecream helped. [a lot of icecream] I know what you mean about the constant hope and thinking about it. It is wearing isn't it? The bubbling excitement rising every bloody month, and the crushing disappointment when your period arrives.

Hi lychees beat me to it - come and join our thread, there are many women feeling the same way about the difficulties of TTC 2.