We're taking the train...some now boarding, some delays, some still standing on the platform! TTC 'Waiters' IIT!

[bebejones]

Old thread here

Welcome aboard, make yourselves comfy I have a feeling it's going to be a bumpy ride!

jbells sounds like a great day out!

js hope you hear about the interview soon, it's bad of them to keep you hanging for so long :(

strawberry I'm thinking mainly yellow (keen to avoid both blue and pink) with some other colour. Maybe green, but that might look a bit wholesome! Red would be good, and is my favourite, but the room isn't too big so i don't want to overdo it. Am going to go to b&q at the weekend and get paint colour swatches!! And it is exciting talking to your doctor - I felt a bit strange when I first mentioned it to the dr, almost as if they'd tell me not to be silly and to wait till I was properly grown up!

I just found out that I have my work annual review next week - it's going to be hard thinking of what to say for next year's plan when I'm hoping to be gone (or at least, on maternity leave)

JS - Can't believe they have left you hanging on all week!

Squirrel - DDs nursery is green, yellow was my second choice but a close friend who was due before me did hers yellow & I didn't want her to think we were copying! I did it a shade of green that would work with either pink or blue accesories. I love decorating, can't wait to be able to re-do it!

100 - How are you feeling this morning?

Have caught DDs lurgy. Feel like death! :( I'm so scared that it might bring on a relapse. (Nasty bugs can make my symptoms flare up) My balance is complete shot & nearly fell in a heap as I rushed to the loo! Can't work out if my foot & fingers are actually going numb or if I'm imagining it Just don't want to tell DH as he'll go all OTT & say it's my own fault for stopping meds! (When in reality they don't always stop relapses anyway) Had so much to do today & feel miserable & very sorry for myself! :(

Morning All

Sorry to hear that you are feeling so rough today bebe. It must be so frustrating to have to keep it quiet too but I am sure that catching your DD's bug isn't because you aren't on your meds. It's Autumn and everybody is getting sick!! Half of my office is off sick today and having sat next to 2 of the team members that are at home throwing up I am thinking that I may end up catching it at some point.

I heard back yesterday that the FD now can't do Monday and they want to do Tuesday instead which is incredibly irritating. I have let the recruiter know that it will be pretty tricky for me and that ideally it would be a post work meeting so that i can just leave London a bit early and not have to take a day off. Not heard anything back from her yet but I think that the company are taking quite a lot of time to get back to her so it's not really her fault.

jbells - it sounds like you had a lovely day yesterday. Great that you managed to find some nice maternity wear too!

DH and I went to watch "The Social Network" last night. Can really reccommend it! The really depressing thing is that Mark Zuckerberg is the same age as me..... and owns the majority of a company worth $65 billion!!!

Hello Ladies :o How are we all?

I'm feeling a little better now, in fact I think today is the first time in a week where I don't feel knackered and unable to do stuff. I'm stuff full of gunk in my nose and head but I feel like doing a little dance. I think I shall be at work tomorrow unless something mad happens between now and then.

I really want to talk to my sister about TTC, she got pg very early on with her two, in fact I think it was second cycle for the first and I'm not sure about the second, but I know it was soon, although I don't really want her to know we are trying iykwim. I think though they adopted the shag like bunnies approach to it and a comment was well I would have been surprised had I not! I think my Mum got pg early on as well. Not saying that I will, but you can hope can't you.

I kind of chatted about temping and stuff with OH last night, he was great, as I am kind of concerned it won't happen, just because I'll only believe it when it actually does, and he said well if it turns out that you have no internal organs and have been bleeding fakely for the last few years and I am shooting nothing then we will still be OK, there will be other options. Not quite worded like that but I think you get the point.

The whole TTC and stuff is a huge rollercoaster of emotions isn't it....

I cried yesterday watching Scrubs when Karla has the baby and it has to go to the NICU for a while, then Turk comes in and shows off the baby while JD and (forgotten her name) decide to keep the baby she has just got upduffed with.

jbells, shopping sounds great, glad you got yourself some new goodies :)

Strawberry, I must admit it was ace saying it at the doctors when I went and my doctor was really excitable too so I was pleased :)

squirrel, just sit there tell them things they would want to hear and go from there, I've had to do the same thing myself recently, but I have a good work face that I can put on.

JS I reckon you must be pulling your hair out, I applied for a new job end of last year so I could move and it took till March to get the final verdict, I hope you get some answers soon.

bebe, sorry you are now unwell, I hope the numbness only lasts as long as the lurgy, and as you say the meds might not have stopped a relapse anyway. GWS

Feeling so low today. Don't know if it's coz I feel rough or because I finances have gone from 'getting better' to 'couldn't be worse' in a matter of days! :( Feeling completely resigned to DH never agreeing to TTC. If he still isn't 'interested' by March I'll got back on my meds. Feel so sorry for DD if she ends up being an only child, I hated it!

Plus coz I feel poorly all I want to do is curl up in bed & I can't. Can't say anything to DH as it's more weight to his 'you can't cope when you get ill' argument!

JS - Really want to see that film, seeing as I'm addicted to fb! :o

100 - It's so good that your DH is so supportive. I was so convinced that conceiving DD was going to take months & it happened the first month! Of course this doesn't help convince DH that the 2nd one could take a while!

Oh bebe, so sorry to hear how you are feeling, it may just be the illness that is making you glum, if so I hope you feel a bit brighter when you perk up. Have no idea what to suggest re telling your DH.

Oh Bebe that sucks. I guess it is probably a combination of things that is making you feel so low. Hopefully when one starts to improve you will start to feel a bit more positive about things and less miserable.

Is your DH an only child?

DH is from a very big family. He has an older brother & sister from his dad's 1st marriage, and 2 older brothers from his mums 1st marriage. Then he has 2 older step-sisters & 2 younger sisters from his dad's 3rd marriage!! Plus massive amounts of cousins!

Just feeling a bit like we are back to square one. Two steps forward one step back sort of thing. You would not believe the run of bad luck we have had in the last couple of years! Sometimes I wish he just had a 9-5 employed job, rather than working for family/being self-employed. I'm sure he will figure something out, he usually does, but I hate feeling so helpless. Have been looking for a part-time job (evenings/weekends) for months now, there is nothing out there that's suitable! Things will pick up again, it's just how things are at the moment for everyone. I'm sure there are people out there far worse off than us! Probably coz I feel rough things are seeming worse than they actually are!

bebe sorry you're feeling down :( maybe take it easy and try and get some rest, there's no point carrying on regardless and making yourself ill just so your DH doesn't worry.

100years I'm definitely planning to put on a 'work face' but I feel slightly dishonest doing it :( and also it's quite hard to answer the question of what I want to achieve in the next year when my first thought is 'baby'!! I am definitely feeling the rollercoaster of emotions too!

js how annoying that they want to do Tues, hope you can work something out :)

Thanks guys! Sorry to put a downer on you all, especially on a Friday!

One of DHs friends has just found out today that she is having a little girl. DH is delight as (in his words) 'this means we can get rid of more of DDs baby crap!' :( This isn't looking good for TTC is it?! Either that or he is convinced we will have a boy next time round!

delighted the keys stuck!

evening all

Bebe- hope u feel a bit better this evening, did write u a message this morning but for some reason isnt on here try and rest if u can, as for DH he may just be convinced that u will be having a boy next, i have given most of DD's stuff away even tho i knew i wanted another one mostly for the fact im hoping for a boy this time, if its a girl i know DP will want to try agen for a boy and i think 2 will be plenty hehe

100years- glad your feeling slightly better :) as for wot your OH said sounds like something my DP would say hehe

JS- wot a pain in the butt that they had changed it to tuesday, i really want to see that film to glad u enjoyed it, it does make u sick with jelousy when someone your own age is a billionaire [henvy]

JBells - sorting through all the pink baby stuff made me realise just how much 'crap' DD had! We had already given loads away, & I still have a lot left upstairs plus a massive box full of newborn/0-3months stuff for DHs friend! Have kept all the neutral stuff though...just in case! [hwink] There is something to be said for having another girl, I'm sure my DH will want to go again for a boy! :o

JS - That is such a pain that they want to make it Tuesday! How annoying when you have to commute between the 2!

100 years sorry to hear about the car, that's a horrible thing to happen. Very good news about you guys starting to ttc though, funny the way it just suddenly got brought forward! Funny and brilliant!

That's just made me think: tomorrow should be the day they put the August bus thread up. Could be the day after that, but no longer than that. Which is kind of interesting, as the bus that comes 30 days after that one is the one a lot of us have been aiming for, including me. Not that I'll be boarding it, but it's quite a thought. I remember the September bus coming last year and me wistfully thinking (while wandering spellbound round the baby section of Boots) "next year I'm getting that bus"!

Sorry I've not been around for a while, and thank you for noticing. Work has been horrible and ttc is not on the agenda, and you have to take a break from time to time, or you go mad!

AC sorry to hear that work is rubbsih :( Seems alot of people are having problems.

I'm lying on sofa (v restless night of feeling poorly) can hear DD upstairs & wondering how long I can sit here waiting for DH to go to her before I cave & go myself. I adore her, but I'd love a day off (just one) from the responsibility!

Interesting about the August bus, can't believe theoretically I could be on the next one!

I hope you are on it Bebe, you've been waiting such a long time. It always strikes me as ironic that there must be loads of people like me up and down the country who'd love nothing more than to babysit for a day, and equally there must be loads of people desperately in need of a babysitter, but they don't know each other.

I'd be happy if just once in a while DH would take the initiative & get up first when DD wakes up! I know he gets up earlier every day for work, but I need some time off! I've been a bit grumpy & shouty with her lately :( Wouldn't change her or being at home for anything, just need to do grown up stuff! Does that make sense? Trust me babysitting DD is no walk in the park, I wouldn't wish her on anyone at the moment! She is argumentitive, stroppy, snotty & screechy! Generally very grumpy & disagreeable! Toddlers eh?! Wouldn't want her to put anyone off!!

Sorry if that sounds whingey! Think it's coz I'm feeling a bit rubbish, stupid bug!

You have been waiting a long time too, you deserve to be boarding a bus soon! Do I take it your DH is still resisting? It's hard isn't it, just hanging on not knowing when they'll give you a green light?! :(

Oh DH seems quite blasé about the whole thing to be honest, I think I could sneak on board the September bus if I wanted to. At the moment though I'm worried about becoming even more trapped in this awful job. If I had a baby to think about I could never just walk out and the thought that if it ever gets really bad I can just get up from my desk and go is sometimes all that gets me through the day.

Oh dear, that sounds miserable for you :( Is there nothing around for you to apply for? At least if you did get PG you could use mat leave to search for something else, maybe?!

I won't have much leave unfortunately, because I've still got the £400/month repayments to meet from my professional studies loan and I only get statutory maternity pay. That's another thing that's putting me off, particularly cause several secretaries have said to me about a fee earner who's just joined us part time after seven months maternity leave "how disgusting, greedy, etc coming back to work and leaving her baby she shouldn't have had a baby etc."

How ignornat are they?! Poor woman was probably really conflicted about leaving her LO. Just coz you are a working mother doesn't make you a bad one!! I always thought I'd be working again by now, but then I didn't factor in my MS diagnosis!

SMP sucks, but it is better than nothing at all. Tricky if you have that £400/month to repay though. Can you get payment holidays from it at all? Is it linked to salary like student loans are? (Sorry to be a bit clueless )

Been out all afternoon at DHs nephew's 2nd birthday party! Was an activity type thing for the kids so DD is knackered! :o We were so hungry though (there was only food for the kids) so had to stop for a burger king That won't have done the diet any good!

Hello all!
Im back, I tried to wave good bye on Saturday at Gatwick airport but this thread was so long it kept crashing OH's phone so i had to give up!
We have just had the most wonderful week together in crete (27C fantastic hotel etc) and have both been offline for a whole entire week, but i thought about you and have read all the posts!

Hope all the poorly people / children get better soon [xxx] (hate seeing poorly toddlers too, its just not fun for anyone )

100 years congrats on being about to TTC and SWI

JS good luck with your job 2nd int... all sounds promising, will keep my fingers crossed

LOVE the lion

I am down south now with OH and my family
am very very proud of OH who despite Jet lag, < 5 hours sleep in the previous 24, no dinner for over 24 hours and no training managed to come 118th / 23,000 in the great south run this morninh 10 miles in 62 mins... ( i slept on the plane for a tiny bit and was knackered just watching!!!)

We talked alot about TTC on holiday and have decided that we MUST have 1 last holiday alone before baby, so thinking June-ish.

If anyone has any ideas of where to go, hot but not too hot, and clean enough where food is safe to eat even if pregnant id love to know!
We also watched a few families on the beach, discussing our potential children and age gaps and where will go away together etc. All very lovely.

OH here now but will catch up again soon,

its half term so ill be around a bit more

evening all DP is going to go the gym tonite so i will be enjoying a nite of xfactor in peace with some chocolate cake and icecream i think, cant be bothered cooking

nannyl- sounds like a lovely holiday very jelous my nxt child free holiday i hope will be my 30th which seems like forever away :( i think reccomendations wud be maybe the south of france or maybe malta (but thats a biased choice haha) or the amalfi coast is beautiful and not to hot

AC- welcome back nice to hear from u again :) i agree with bebe how ignorant of the people in your work that poor woman is probably riddled with the guilt of leaving her baby and may have no choice but to work, also was going to ask same questions as bebe bout your loan, some places will give u holiday off payments

BEBE- sounds like your DD had a lovely day think i wud have just ate the kids food :o
know exactly eot u mean bout loving them to death but really needing a break sometimes, when DD was at nursery on weds all i did was clean the house while listening to music really loudly but i had a lovely day very rarely get a chance to listen to music anymore dreading going back to work bin enjoying having 2 days to myself but obviously cant afford to pay nursery if im not working, i do feel guilty when i know shes in nursery and i know she doesnt have to be. also know wot u mean about wishing DH wud get up i cant tell u how many arguements me and DP had about this issue finally after months of disputes we now take turns if i get up sat morning with her he will on sunday and vice versa

Good evening everyone.

Hope you are all OK.

Managed to get through 2 shifts without falling asleep/feeling too knackered at the end :) Whoop, that's always a bonus.

Had a shitty kind of day at work today and feel a bit meh and want to give lots of nice people hugs and tell them to take care.

Think AF is coming, if not tonight then tomorrow for def, think I got the pre spotting that I get the day or two before. Then it'll be wham bam and thank you mam or something like that. I am kind of undecided as to how to play it this month, I'm not really sure whether to do OPK although for meds it would be better, and whether to chart, I've started doing my BBT in the morning, but I don't know whether it's all a bit much just yet. OH I think is fairl easy whatever I decide I think he just wants me to tell him if it's the right time and we haven't done it much, other than that I think he's going for the as much as poss!

Nannyl, welcome back, HUGE massive congrats to your OH, that's amazing. :)

I've started the August Bus!!! [hshock]

Right on time as well! Well done for starting the next bus. I hope it's lucky for you.

You've got a point there, ladies, I'll ask about a payment holiday, they can only say no.