Oh KC it sounds like you've had a bit of a tough time of late. I'm glad your Psychotherapy session has made you feel a bit better and I hope that your doc can continue to help you through.
Thanks for the bit about the jealousy issue - I feel very sad at the mo for all kinds of reasons but one of them is people round me in RL are falling preg at the drop of a hat. I find it really tough to deal with some days but most of the time I manage to get through. When I do feel sad about it though I also feel terrible that I feel that way - I hope I can remember what you said about not always feeling that way cos maybe this will help me to ride the announcements out.
Not only has the fact that AF arrived made me feel very sad this time (which for me I feel is unusual cos I can normally see the bright side) but I should have been going on maternity leave tomorrow. To be honest I thought I'd cope better than I am doing,it seems that every now and then my grief and disbelief at what happened rears its ugly head and slaps me in the face. I expect that as my expected due date approaches and as much as I desperately want to cope, I'll find it harder - much harder than I thought I would.
Well anyway, I'll snap out of it eventually 
I haven't a clue what I was thinking this morning reposting the stats cos my cycle number was wrong - I haven't been trying for 5 months at all, its been just 4. So they must have been wrong in the first place. I'll post them again otherwise it will bug me (a bit OCD like that I'm afraid)
Well I'm off out with the girls tomorrow night - I think I definately NEED it.
Has anyone got any plans for the weekend.
xxx
Today's stats:
FlyingCat TTC#1, cycle #26, CBFM cycle 2, age 30, UCL 28-29, CD108
Rach879 TTC#1 cycle #7, CBFM cycle 1, age 30, UCL 30-34, CD75
Jenni4 TTC#2, cycle #5, CBFM Cycle 2, age 36, UCL 26, CD55
Hairytriangle TTC#1, cycle #10, CBFM cycle 1, age 42, UCL 28/29, CD41
Missyraines TTC#1, Cycle #11, CBFM cycle 6, age 33, UCL 32, CD39
TangoTime TTC #1, Cycle #6, CBFM Cycle 2, age 32, UCL 28, CD32
Boba82 TTC#1 cycle #16, CBFM cycle 3, age 28, UCL ?, CD32
Ses TTC#2, cycle #3, CBFM cycle 5, age 37, UCL 30, CD24
Emmylou30 TTC#1, Cycle #3, CBFM cycle 2, age 30, UCL 35, CD23
chocciechip TTC#1, cycle #8, CBFM cycle 8, age 39, UCL29, CD20
Lychees TTC#2, Cycle #12, CBFM cycle 8, Aged 36, UCL 30-35, CD19
Starlet22 TTC#1, cycle #14, CBFM cycle 8, age 34, ucl 25, CD18
ljg TTC#3, Cycle 5, CBFM cycle 4 age 38 UCL 28-30 CD15
wantbaby TTC#1, cycle 9, CBFM cycle 4, age 38, UCL 30, CD12
Keziah TTC#1, cycle26, CBFM cycle 14, age 35, ucl 28-31, CD9
KnackeredCow TTC#1, Cycle 13, CBFM cycle 2, age 31, UCL 28, CD9
PinkCustard TTC#2, Cycle #10, CBFM Cycle 5, age 33, UCL 30-35, CD9
Rosieposey TTC#5, Cycle #10, CBFM cycle 3 aged38, UCL30, CD9
IzzyWizzyletsgetbusy TTC #3 Cycle #3, CBFM cycle 3, age 34, UCL 26-28, CD2
Stormbird TTC#1, Cycle #4, CBFM Cycle 4, age 28, UCL 28-32 CD1
EmmaC29 TTC#1, Cycle #11, CBFM 0 (starting on 8th Dec!), aged 29
Headbanger TTC#1, Cycle #9, CBFM cycle 2, Aged 30
Graduates
Paula123gym BFP 5/10/10