Are you getting excited by any chance Mama?
I need to have a rant so I apologise now.
I'm trying to do this access course and it's hard. Really hard. I feel as though I don't belong there but I'm going to stick at it anyway..
Today, I've had fuck all sleep, the lesson was beyond impossible (although at home I'm slowly, very slowly working through it but have had to go back to basics), I've got an exam tomorrow, driving test next week, 2 halloween parties I need to find costumes for and I don't want to go to either, DS knows his planets but has to make up a stupid, pointless sentence to help hm remember them, even though he already knows them 
so trying to think of a sentence where each word starts with M,V,E,M,J,S,U,N and P but what's tipped me over the edge is this...
During the impossible maths lessons he decided to show us a "funny" clip from south park. The cure for ADHD.
The clip showed 3 kids with ADHD in a classroom, and the teacher smacks them round the face to make them pay attention and be quiet. he smacks the second one twice as he started crying. By this miracle cure, the third kid was quiet.
I know it's south park but it struck a raw nerve (so much so I've been holding back the tears for the last 5 hours) and as a tutor I'd have though he's had known better than to show something like that, let alone find it "hillarious", but to be fair, he doesn't know he hit a nerve.
DS has ADHD and his dads way of controlling him was to hit him. I've still got scars from having to get between him and ds when he went for him with a belt one time.
I'm not sure if it's a combination of everything which is giving me a sense of humour failure and I'm out of touch or if this really wasn't appropriate. Either way I've lost all respect for him because of it.
Every single lesson I've had with him, I've ended up having to do again at home as I don't get his way of teaching. SO far google and the math books have explained things so much more and shown alternative ways of getting to the same result which is so much easier than the one he's tried to explain. So I'm already fustrated with him, even though it's not his fault.
Even looking through the M&S christmas brochure hasn't cheered me up so I know it's bad.