I gave birth yesterday.... traumatised (trigger warning)

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And I had my completely natural child birth (2nd time mum) that I wanted.

But I feel utterly traumatised and I have cried all day today.

I feel so guilty, like I should be on top of the world like I was after #1.

But the pain, the memory of it all, I feel like I have PTSD. I was totally out of control. It was very fast and totally unmedicated.

I just can't stop crying.

Has anyone experienced this, and did it ease with time?

I was like this with my son. I spent 2 weeks crying uncontrollably. Nearly diagnosed with pnd but suddenly it just lifted. Traumatic and non medicated also (not through choice). You have my sympathies.

I felt like this with DD1 - brought back memories 10 years later. My waters broke and I went to hospital (30minute drive), midwife said I wasn't in labour, I was in so much pain but because I didn't have regular contractions I was offered a couple of paracetamol and told to leave the ward. An hour later I was rushed to the labour ward in a wheelchair with a baby's head between my legs. I tore and was stitched without pain relief because I didn't even think to ask. Took me a few weeks to process it all. On the plus side I knew exactly what to expect with Dc2 and Dc3 and for both I was able to do nursery/school pickup, have baby, and be back home for breakfast and do drop off the next day- very convenient!

I didn’t have pain relief for DS (14) after a bad reaction to an epidural with DD.

In all honesty, I haven’t forgotten the pain of DS’s quick birth, but it’s become a distant memory. Give yourself time to create happy memories with your new baby and it’ll fade. Congratulations!

Totally normal. I remember it well. Look after yourself xx

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. And congratulations on your lovely baby

They certainly are. I hope you are feeling a bit better. I was thinking of youxxx

I'd say hormones. I remember having had to go back on the floor where it happened a few days later and almost having a weird panic attack. You'll be fine. Just feel whatever you're feeling and notice the good things.