trustissues75 Sun 03-Mar-13 07:00:46
I hope this doesn't sound too harsh - which means it's likely to...but if you're so afraid of giving birth why have you decided to get pregnant? And why didn't you save up for the cost of having a C-section if you knew that would be what you wanted?
Yes that is too harsh. I was in denial about wanting children for many years. I married my DH making that very clear. I spent years wishing that I was infertile so that the decision would be taken away from me, and so that I didn't have to face up to how I felt deep down under everything.
Then my body clock went off and everyone around me started having babies and I utterly can not bare it. My fear does not stop me wanting to have a child despite every fibre of my being trying to do that. It does not go away and isn't a switch that you can turn on or off. I find comments like your incredibly naive and ignorant.
Its ruining my life tbh. I can not stand to be in the same room as pregnant women. Everyone anyone asks 'when' are you going to have kids I am at a lost to know what to say and usually end up saying 'its a long story' or 'its complicated' and leave it at that and people tend to back off. I can't be around women who've just had kids as I can't cope with it. It makes me angry, upset, jealous, frustrated, weak, and feel less of a woman and a freak.
But I know I'm not. I know there are women like me and this a lot more common than people realise. I know this because women are starting to talk about this and break the taboo. I know this because there is a limited amount of research that is starting to come out which shows patterns in women who have birth fear or ask for an ELCS. I am not a freak - I am not unique. I share common characteristics with other women which have been identified by scientists. This means that people can be trained to identify these and to be trained to recognise what causes the most distress and ways can be found to assist me and to over come these problems.
As for paying for this. Apart from NICE doing a cost analysis over this which said that cost was not a reasonable grounds for denying a CS because of costs of complications and costs of dealing with mental health, theres also a couple of other very crucial problems to 'saving for an ELCS'.
Firstly, not every pregnancy is planned. If you end up pregnant and without enough money in the bank, what do you do?
Secondly, there's logistics. The only private maternity units in the UK are ALL located in London/SE. That means for someone like me who lives 4hrs drive or 2 and a half hours by train away from the nearest place that this simply isn't an option. You can not have a CS in a standard private hospital.
I am lead to believe that it may be possible to have a private CS in an NHS hospital, however the process is even more difficult and even people in the profession don't know anything about it. It has been asked about it on here numerous times, and I've tried to do some research into it, but there is absolutely nothing out there about how to do it. And it still means you will be in an NHS hospital being given ante-natal care by midwives who may be 'in need of retraining' shall we say.
Thirdly there's the cost and planning and time it takes to raise the funds. It costs £10k - £20k in general to have a private birth from what I gather. It would take us years to raise that kind of cash. Years I haven't got as I'm 34, close on 35 now. Its taken me years to get to the point I'm at. Others, won't have that long.
In all honesty, if there was somewhere close enough to me, that would allow me to give birth in the way I wanted, I'd probably beg, steal or borrow the money in whatever way I could. But the truth is, there just isn't.
Which leaves me with just two options. Getting support from the NHS or having no children. Why shouldn't I get help from the NHS? Because its not to your taste or because its politically unacceptable and frowned on by society despite all the evidence says "actually there's nothing wrong with this". Not when even NICE have made a point of saying that cost isn't an issue for this particular health care problem.
I'd rather say to you - if you are so ignorant, why don't you educate yourself and find out what the real story is, rather than being judgmental?