I had a mastectomy after a failed lumpectomy and was actually really positive about it pre-op, just wanted it gone by that point!
But, boy oh boy, afterward it was a different story for a few weeks.
I think I grieved for what I had lost.
after all , as my DH said, it’s been a part of you all of your life.
it’s quite normal to feel like you do.
but it does get better.
I’m 3 months on and I’m fine about it, sometimes I forget about it and suddenly realise it’s not there.
im sure I have phantom limb syndrome at times, convinced my nipple is itchy, then go to scratch it and remember it’s gone 😝
its so early days for you. Be kind to yourself and let others support you.
ive just finished radiotherapy and am missing being able to say ‘but i have cancer so you’ll have to change the bed yourself’.
its the one time in your life you are entitled to be waited on hand and foot.
good luck with your recovery