Cocaine use whilst breastfeeding

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I'm in a major panic. My son (22 months) has been exclusively breastfed from birth, and then from 6 months obviously solid food as well. I love our feeding relationship, even though I am still up several times every single night with him because he loves the boob.
He's never been an easy boy, and last night was my first ever night out since he was born - he stayed with Nanny and Grandad.
I went a bit crazy at all the freedom and ended up having a few lines of coke. The boy is due home in an hour and now I'm panicking. The first thing he'll want is boob but I can't give it to him as I know it's unsafe. I'll have to pump and dump for a while I guess, but the question is, how long for?
I feel like the worst mum ever, as I'll have to deny him the thing that gives him most comfort. Can't believe I was so stupid and selfish.

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You're not the worst mum ever. But you're certainly not going to winning any awards. A few lines of Coke? That's not celebrating your freedom, that's being a fucking idiot. What would have happened if it was fishy and you ended up in hospital, or worse?

Whether or not you do it regularly (and I see you've said you did it a few times a year, which isn't exactly nightly but also isn't just tried it once to experiment), if you seriously think it's an acceptable way to celebrate your 'freedom' and you're incapable of saying no despite being responsible for a still breastfeeding toddler then I think you need to be looking at some kind of help, even if it's only a referral to a coucillor to explore why you're incapable of having a night out without the need for class A drugs.

Seems like most people have been getting their information about drugs from the media rather than anything based in actual reality (talking about generally taking them here rather than when breastfeeding which I agree makes it a lot worse)

Taking cocaine is actually less dangerous than horseriding, but I bet no-one one here would criticise a mother for doing that.

Try reading David Nutt's excellent 'Drugs: Without the hot air' rather than basing your world view on the Daily Mail telling you one sniff of cocaine will most likely kill you.

Avon thanks for your concern. But I'm not a daily mail reader. I'm actually getting my information on the effects of drugs from the experience of a close family member ending up dead.

Well done for breastfeeding for so long, and also for being responsible enough to seek advice/help about the cocaine use rather than just pretending everything was fine (or just weaning when you/DC weren't ready to).

If you need a little extra help maintaining your milk supply while pumping and dumping, try eating porridge oats (stimulates milk production), keeping well hydrated, and taking fenugreek supplements if they are available.

Well done OP for being brave and making the best out of a bad situation.

Avon another one here who does not read the daily mail. My experience of cocaine is professional as well as witnessing friends and family who 'just take a few lines'.

I'm surprised at the people who have said the OP's milk will be fine after x number of hours, without knowing for sure that's terrible advice for any drug, illegal or prescribed if you don't actually know.

I have read Nutt's book.

I must have missed the paragraph where he recommended that mothers do a few lines and breastfeed their babies in the morning.

The comparison to horseriding was for MDMA.

Your life changes when you have kids. Experimenting with drugs might be normal for teenagers but when a small human depends on you, and your milk, you should have your shit together.

Such a shame that OP came on here for advice on how to avoid harming her child and is just getting attacked. She knows it's wrong and won't do it again, so what are you trying to achieve? Just to make a woman hate herself? Shameful.

You have a baby and you're snorting coke for fun on a night off? I'm speechless.

'She knows it's wrong and won't do it again.'

I'm not sure where you're getting your information from user, but I'm fairly sure she was aware it was wrong before she did it this time. Didn't stop her though!

Puts a new spin on the term 'breast is best' doesn't it?

Making the best out of a bad situation! How exactly?

I don't know what the pilers-on want from this thread? I think she's probably got the message now.

Not one person has advocted what happened or tried to minimise it, but it's happened, no amount of judgement is going to change that, it's good that you can register your disapproval though.

Rest assured, it's been noted!

Was it not actually the alcohol (you know, that 'friendly' substance we have an emoticon for on MN because it's completely socially acceptable) that led to her to make the decision to do coke in the first place?

Mixing alcohol and caffeine also has the potential to cause damage to a baby, it's not about being 'falling down drunk' for those making that comparison. But we're all fine to justify that.

There's no magic that happens when you give birth that gives you the power to never make a terrible decision ever again. One minute we have posters telling someone their husband who when out and came home trashed, broke the door in front of his child and then vomited is fine because it was 'once in a blue moon' and the next this OP - whose baby isn't reliant her milk - is getting castigated for once night out in 20 months where she did a couple of lines.

She didn't come here to show off, she's clearly really upset with herself. Pointless to keep telling her how wrong you think she is really.

Why on earth would you 1) snort cocaine when you have a child? and 2) do it knowing fine well you have to Bf????

ILikeyourHairyHands, Not everyone reads the full thread!!!!, just like I have and as for the poster that says Mumsnet finds it socailly acceptable to do that shit? well I dont.

Don't be ashamed. No harm done. Most posters have no knowledge of coke, but probably think nothing of sinking a bottle of pinot.

No-one thinks drugs are a 'good idea', but all this 'you could harm your baby' stuff is just scaremongering. You sound a good mum. Don't worry.

Because people sometimes make choices the are neither rational nor sensible, especially if there's alcohol involved?

Muckypup - drinking alcohol is far more dangerous. Are you incredulous that any parent ever drinks alcohol?

OP taking class A drugs on your first baby free night off seems a bit extreme. Are you coping ok in general at the moment? Do you need to seek a bit more day to day support?

Even if you don't give a shit about your own health and your baby's health, that coke has been smuggled into the country in the stomach of a drug mule from a country where drug gangs behead people in the street. Fucking grim. Is the high worth it?