Seven months ago I was posting in despair.. Or lurking at least. Now DS2 giggles in his sleep as he feeds and I love it!
Thanks to all who gave advice. Not quite sure how it happened, not easy at all! And without wanting to be too prescriptive; anyone finding BF a struggle and not wanting to give up, don't. Get help and take it one day at a time.
Sorry if this is unsolicited cheerleading!