ROFL. Yes, HV is getting to know me, shall we say...
The thought of stopping bfeeding fills me with despair. So I shan't. Until DS2 wants to stop, obv. When I shall roam the streets looking for babies to nurse so that their mothers can come on here and start threads about me 
It's just the unspeakable rage I can't manage. That and the sleeplessness even when DS2 is asleep. And the tears that drip off my chin at inappropriate moments. And I still can't get my head around it being an illness and not a weakness. I can for other people. But not for me. Weirdy, aren't I?! 
I'm not even sure that ADs will do me much good - I've taken amitryptiline and paroxetine for very short periods in the past (paroxetine was only one tablet), although not for depression and had very odd side effects from them, so it could be that this is all academic!