Hey thanks nutty I am fine now, just think I had one of those moments where you can't express your frustration and it comes out at the most inappropriate times - think to be fair I got so embarrassed, it made me worse!
I know it will be fine and me and DH were talking about it and at the end of the day I am not going to care how or where this LO arrives once it is here - as long as it is safe and sound. I just have absolutely no positive memories of hospitals whatsoever, just negative associations with losing people so maybe I need this to start the happy link!
Boffin, i'm not sure - I might ask though - although I never really was that fussed about the pool, (although having spoken to lots of people about it, it seems to be a bit of a bonus!) it was more that it was this little house on site but away from the hospital and had nothing clinical about it at all, literally just like a lovely B&B but run my midwives (although obviously not but just painting a picture here!), for a more natural birth (no epidural etc) but close enough to hospital in case anything happened and while the hospital is nice it is a hospital and so naturally more clinical with wards and rooms and equipment everywhere. As they were talking it through it, they were like labour is here, then three hours later you are moved to here and it just felt really impersonal!
Anyway, sure it will be fine, will chat with MW on Monday about my concerns and hopefully will feel better about it then.
Just off the subject has anyone just watched that Demons programme on ITV? Was really looking forward to it (had sky+'d it an everything) and it was AWFUL - so disappointed. Still at least Dancing on Ice is back next week to save Saturday night TV!