Thanks for sympathy everyone... very relieved that the awful beetroot colour looks like it might be fading a little bit. Sickness was weird, just a one-off.
I'm definitely getting uncomfortable kicks and prods in all directions, a bit apprehensive how it's going to feel by the end, going on last time!
Apple, about homebirth... I'm embarrassed to admit that I have done a 180 since having first baby. I used to be very anti-hospital and interventions, and was adamant I'd homebirth if no nice maternity unit was available. But when we can here for my job, and I got pregnant, neither cushy maternity units or homebirth were options. So I had to get used to the idea of a hospital, albeit one with private rooms. I had to go on two visits, as after the first one I just cried loads. They were lovely and gave me a special tour of the labour room by myself, to ask about all the equipment, as I was so terrified.
As it turned out, my birth was very fast and straightforward; while I didn't have all the things I would've requested in UK (e.g. there was no anaesthetic for episiotomy
, and they wanted me to push on my back on the bed), it was really a positive experience overall. Somehow having the baby however has made me very sensitive to all risks, and I think even if homebirth was an option this time, I wouldn't do it, even living less than 10 mins drive from hospital. But that's just me, and maybe if I'd had a bad time in hospital I might feel differently.
Pandora I think I would leave buying a pump for expressing until you're a few weeks in. I understand that it's best not to introduce bottles in the first 4-6 weeks, in case baby gets confused and rejects your boobs, as not only does the teat feel different, but the milk flow is too. Unless you're planning on expressing because you're going back to work, it might not be worth it. You have to express between normal feeds, and these can be very frequent for the first few months (like, every 2 hours or less...). So adding in expressing might be an extra stress you don't need, especially as pumping is not always easy (neither is BF of course!), and it can look like a tiny amount, even if baby is actually getting much more direct from your breasts.
Your partner can be totally involved and supportive in many other ways- mine did ALL the night-time nappy changes, which was very much appreciated, given I might have been up 4 times in a night feeding. He only fed her once or twice I think before I went back to work, but that was around 6 weeks, we were getting him used to it (he was stay-at-home dad from then onwards).
If you're certain you want to try it, I would recommend renting a hospital grade one initially- it's cheaper, they're good quality, and if it doesn't work out, you've not shelled out loads of money.