October 2013: Newborn snuggles and waddles to the finish line

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Stats sheet here

New arrivals here

Key:
SC - still cooking (pre EDD)
SFW - still f*ing waiting (post EDD)
OWT - on way to theatre (CS)
IP - induction in progress
SWIL - somewhere in labour
LIT - lost in transition

Good luck tucking just remember each pain and your one step closer. Thank you for being so kind I feel like such a useless sh*t but I'm aware it a cruel trick my brains playing with me.

mrsh I am going to get an appointment with the gp tomorrow see if he will up my message and refer me for help. Plus I'm still getting bloody mucous after 4 weeks so need to see about that too funtimes

Meds even ^^

you're absolutely not a useless shit. You had a horrible time in pregnancy,you've had a dreadful "recovery" since birth & many women who don't face what you've gone through also suffer PND - it's hormones & chemicals as you know,there's nothing you could do to change this. Some of us are prone & some of us are not. I often wonder how much of my misery after DS's birth was "normal" & how much could have been PND. Everyone on this thread appears to be coping astonishingly well in comparison to how I was with DS. It took literally weeks before I was refularly online afterwards,I barely functioned other than as his mum for months & I just hope this time is better...

But i really meant what I said - you have dealt with this head on & you'll get there,just hope dr can up your meds & get you more support locally.xx

Thanks tucking really thank you xxxx

for you falcon so glad you are recognising the signs and seeking help. Agree with tucking totally.
I can't sleep. Really painful contractions but only 10 mins apart they don't seem to ever get closer together. I can feel them very strongly in my back so think baby is still back to back. I think I'd cope better with them if the back pain wasn't so bad as well or maybe I'm kissing myself there! Really hope I am a bit dilated in the morning when I see the obstetrician. Also really hope I can then get some pain relief as paracetamol just isn't working!!

If paracetamol is not working I would suggest established labour and popping to the hospital shooting or are you homebirth? Xx

Do you think? They said wait until 5 mins apart?
Don't want to go too early and be sent home. The hospital is only 5 mins away.

shooting mine were also in my back and baby wasn't back to back

Falcon sorry you're feeling blue. I think you're doing a great job. This pregnancy/newborn baby thing is hard work, even if your not prone to PND. My DS was really fractious tonight with me and then settled with my DH - sometimes I think it helps that he doesn't smell of milk! Remember you will come out of this low mood and start to feel more like yourself again. Good idea about going to see your GP about increasing your meds and getting more support.

Shooting hope you manage to get some sleep. Would a warm bath help with the back pain?

I was told when the pain is not copeable with at home go in not everyone has very regular contractions I never even monitored mine this time mw took my established labour when I asked for gas and air. I would not stay in pain at home, good luck xxx

I'll give them a ring.
I'd love a warm bath but I'm at my parents house so they can look after ds and the only bath here is an ensuite one in my 94 year old grandpa's room, not sure he'd appreciate my wandering in!!

Hmm. Perhaps not. Maybe best to give the midwives a ring then - you don't want your 94 year old grandpa helping to deliver the baby in his ensuite!

Good idea I think shooting

Thank you moonblues xxx

Doing a mad dash to hosp. Contractions went from every 5 mins when I went to bed to every 7 ish when I was laying down. Until I went to the toilet & they were every 2.5 mins. As we are an hour from the goal I am shitting myself she will be born in a layby.

Hosp not goal!

Falcon, I am so sorry you are feeling so down but it is good that you recognise that it is not you, just the rubbish brain chemicals. I hope the doc helps you tomorrow and until then I think MrsHN and Tucking said it all - you have done a amazing thing by growing and nurturing your little girl.
Shooting - I hope you have a speedy and easy time of it from now on. How exciting!
I am having the worst night do far. Been in tears a lot. A just Kees being sick. She has projectile vomited 5 times since feeding at 7pm, is now wearing the last newborn baby grow, and how ever much I try to burp her and sit her up after feeding she just pukes as soon as she is laid in her Moses basket. She is feeding about once an hour but I don't know how much is staying in her stomach. Have read Kellymom and think my letdown is quick and boobs are producing too much milk! Have also tried feeding in a more upright position but then she seems to struggle with the latch. I feel so bad for her but don't know how to make it better.

Have everything crossed for you tucking will be thinking of you xxxx

What about proping her moses basket at one end I have heard that can help with reflux ruby xx

Ooh, just read back - good luck Tucking! Looks like a 2 baby morning! Maybe more, didn't Oranges waters go yesterday? And was there someone else? I feel bad for not keeping up but brain not functioning very well due to baby sick fumes radiating from me, A and most of the soft furnishings.

Thanks Falcoln, I'll try that.

Bloody typos! Falcon, not Falcoln, obviously!

They said to wait until 5 mins apart. At least I'm comfy at home.
Good luck tucking! Hope you get to hospital in time.
Sorry to hear of these refluxy babies keeping their mummies up at night but I'm selfishly glad not to be alone in these small hours

Falcon I agree with everything that's already been said- I think you're amazing for dealing with things and being honest about how you're feeling when it must be so hard. PND (and depression in general) is so cruel in the way it makes you think things that you know aren't true. You've been through a lot, I hope DH is still being supportive, I remember you saying he was xx

Good luck Tucking and Shooting, hopefully more baby news in the morning. Hope you get to the hospital in good time Tucking it is indeed the goal!!

Ruby I have no first hand experience BF yet but DM had oversupply with both me and my brother. She said she always had to time us (10 mins a feed) otherwise we would drink way too much at a time and throw up. I know it's definitely not what's advised but may be worth researching oversupply issues as it's something that isn't often talked about but can be just as difficult to manage if baby can't cope with the amount! DM said she could tell it was an issue because she could hear us gulping struggling to keep up with the flow. As I said in my earlier disclaimer, no first hand experience just throwing my 2 pence in

Can't sleep. Think I'm anxious about sweep. Really want it to work, so much pressure down there but worried they're gonna say cervix still closed can't do it and I'm gonna be pg forever. Silly. Need strength for labour everyone says. Must sleep.

Hope it goes okay for you shooting
Hope the sweep goes well feminist

Thankyou Feminist. Yes - A seems to gulp too although as this is 1st baby, I have nothing to compare it to - might just be swallowing. Good luck for the sweep. I will be thinking soft, short and dilated thoughts for you!