Good evening everyone. I apologise now for being really out of date with how everyone is getting on but I really need to post and get this off my chest. The last 24 hours have been bloody awful.
Last night DH and I went to a private clinic for a reassurance scan. I have had no bleeding and minimum pain (just the stretchy/twingy stuff that I know is normal). I was convinced that I was 8+3 and didn't want to wait another month for a scan. I have a friend who had a MMC which was at the back of my mind and I had also read that a health scan with a heartbeat at 8 weeks reduces the miscarriage risk dramatically. I just wanted to be able to relax a bit more.
Anyway, the lady who scanned me took measurements and agreed that they were consistent with my dates but could not find a heartbeat. I was given lots of sympathetic treatment and sent away with a referral letter expressing concern that there was an 8 week and 2 day foetus but no foetal heartbeat. She didn't perform a transvaginal scan as she needed another person to do it and they weren't there so it was an abdominal scan only. As you can imagine we didn't sleep much last night.
I was supposed to be having a booking in appointment with the midwife this morning and when she arrived I showed her the letter and explained what had happened. She was very sympathetic and on the basis of the letter advised me that she was sending me for a rescan but that she doubted it would be any different. She said that I wouldn't have to make any decisions today regarding management but suggested that I may want to take a bag with me just in case - I wasn't keen on the idea of going back to work next week and waiting to miscarry naturally.
Here comes the hero of the hour......
The EPAU nurse was lovely, no nonsense and really efficient. She initially scanned my abdominally and even to me the scan looked different, she said she wanted to perform a transvaginal scan with a second nurse present and I could tell that there was something going on although she did say it was standard practice for them to have two nurses to confirm a MMC.
However it turns out that I am actually 5 1/2 weeks pregnant and she showed us a heartbeat. Thats 3 weeks less than I though but the fact that there is a heartbeat is very promising. I am being rescanned a week today to look for growth and confirm that I am progressing.
Apart from DH and I being very upset the nurse was livid. She has phoned this clinic to ask for copies of the scan pictures to try and work out what was actually measured as there is a huge discrepancy between the 2 scans. They have promised to send the scans and are conducting an investigation. Had she not rescanned me and taken the clinic at their word I may have terminated a healthy pregnancy.
Interestingly she hates Clearblue Digital tests and told me not to ever use them again - I explained about my very faint positives using the cheapy tests and she said that fitted perfectly with me being 5 1/2 weeks but the digitals which I'd assumed were the best are actually misleading.
So yeah, am knackered and emotional right now. I'm also way behind you ladies and now a June baby. I feel too behind to join the June thread but I'm going to post in there to try and catch up as I don't really know where I fit in now!!