Afternoon everyone!
Sorry to hear so many of you are close by the rioting, its scary stuff. I used to live in Belfast, and have seen such things first hand, and its surreal - I remember going up into the attic bedroom in the house I shared with friends, and us just looking out and it looked like the whole world was on fire, it was like something out of a film. I found it quite exciting at the time, but that was because I was young, and immature and probably stupid too. Its funny how when you are a proper grown up you realise how serious these things actually are.
So, to childbirth and the like.......although I am already a mother, I had an emcs last time, so I have no idea what an actual birth involves, apart from what I've read. So....by way of educating myself, I hit you-tube. Now, I must admit, I do sort of wonder who videos their wife giving birth in close up detail and then posts it on you-tube, but thats a whole other story. Anyway......I'm ashamed to say, I felt sick, like properly queasy, it all seems so.....messy. I know its natural, and its not dirty or anything, but at heart I am a bit squeamish.
On the other hand, I was really impressed by how calm the women were. There was a bit of moaning and groaning, but they seemed to be so in control - when I had been in labour for 18 hours, I was drifting in and out of conciousness, I vaguely remember DH and the midwife shaking me, and slapping my cheek (not hard, I hasten to add!! just to try to focus my attention!) and telling me I had to stay with them, otherwise the baby would never be born. (Although I never screamed or moaned, because frankly I couldn't be bothered, it seemed like a waste of precious energy.) Anyway, its the staying focussed that I would like to master, these women on the videos just seemed so calm.....