just wanted to talk!!!

[mumtosomeone]

Sorry you guys are getting this...you dont have to read on!!!! I had a scan yesterday and found I am no longer pregnant! I was only 7 weeks but i am so upset. I didnt expect to feel like this! Dh is trying to be supportive and I understand he has lost a baby too! I am still bleeding and it is getting heavier. Each time I go to the loo I am saying goodbye again to my poor little baby! I want toscream at him!! I am up now with the little ones whilst he snores in bed!! I want to thump him and scream and shout!!! Am I being awful! We told no one i was pregnant so no one knows I have lost it!(told ds(14) and DD(12)) Dh keeps asking if I am ok! I want to shout of course Iam not ok you stupid man!!! But instead i smile and say yes! When I cry he say 'oh whats the matter?' I want to say are you fing stupid or what!!!
I love this man so much but right now he is driving me mad!! i think he is mean and selfish and unsupportive,but I know he is doing his best!!
Sorry I will shut up now!

you still there baggy?

baggy?

Sorry M2S1. Went away for a bit. Sorting kids out. Oh and DH.

How are you?

I'm so sorry to drag you down again. I am just so low today. Trying to put a brave face on for everybody here, but its getting too much. Getting ready for our hol, packing and stuff, and the kids are getting excited. I'm trying to be excited with them but just can't. I tell everyone that I'm okay but I'm not really sure I am.

Baggy, dont worry thats how it is for me too!!!

Just to let you know I'm off on my hols today so will make this my last post for a week. I'm back next Saturday so will log on then. Take care everyone. Lots of {{{{{HUGS}}}} xxxxx

baggy..missed you again! have a good holiday..its just what you need!

Baggybear, in case you catch this before you go I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear your sad news. I just logged into the 'due april' thread and found out; really shocked and hope you are okay. Have a relaxing holiday. xxx

Thanks Spots. I didn't catch your post before I went away - sorry. I got back today and had a nice time. It was hard coming home again especially when I found my mum-to-be Bounty voucher on the mat and an ansaphone message from the miscarriage councellor I'm due to see. Bit much too soon. I don't feel too down though, but I do feel like I've taken 2 steps forward and 1 step back. I found it very difficult seeing pregnant women and tiny babies on holiday, but I turned to my 3 DS's at those moments.

Anyway, all in all I had a good time. I ate far too many pasties and cream teas (went to Cornwall) and have probably piled on the weight, but who cares?!? The healthy eating starts tomorrow to get in shape for TTC.

M2S - will email you xx

mumtosomeone

So sorry to hear of your loss, it is horrid and upsetting and does take time to get over it, I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks also, went to scan and then blood tests, 2 months later it is still hard, i had told my parents and mumsnet and sort of thought i tempted fate by doing so. We have continued to try and just started period again today and feel very depressed about it all, i so want another baby to complete our family. I am thankful though that i have a healthy 3 year old