I panicked and got my thread deleted because it contained every detail but also information that would make it very obvious it is me if anyone I do know comes across it, and that’s too much of a risk in a situation where no one in my “real life” knows all of it.
And then I cried, because my thread and the people who replied has been incredibly supportive over the last 20 weeks. It was somewhere to process everything that happened in the worst times by writing it down and the replies often really helped me get my head it. So, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for being there and being so helpful.