Can I just show my beautiful boy off please

[23yearsagotoday]

I want to show him off, if that's ok.

Its been a long time since anyone but me has acknowledged him. Sorry the photos aren't too great, there were no camera phones in the 90s so I had to take a picture of a photo.

He would be 23 now, and as handsome as his little brother no doubt.

He was so beautiful, he was a skinny wee tall boy, all eyes and feet 😂 he was tiny but his eyes were huge and he had ginormous feet.

Everyone always said he has wise eyes, and an old soul. I really felt he was an old soul too.

He fought so hard through his illness, but he was taken from me anyway.

He was cremated in his green top and green socks, that was my favourite outfit on him.

He is still so loved and missed every day. I adored him, my first born, my precious baby boy, he changed my life, he made me a mum, he taught me what love is, and now that love has no place to go so it has turned to grief.

Forever my baby ❤

What a beautiful boy, the cutest nose in the profile picture. Keep sharing and talking as much as you like about your lovely boy. He sounds fabulous.

He is & will always be your gorgeous first born, he was put on this earth to teach you how to be a mum ready for your next dc, he will always be there to watch over you & keep you & your family safe. Happy Dotty Scott day xx

I may be extremely bias but he was a very, very beautiful baby. When I look at the wonderful man my ds has become it makes me so proud and happy, but there's always a pang of wishing I could celebrate these things with his big brother too. I was very lucky to have had my beautiful boy even for such a short time. In those few months he had 20 lifetimes worth of love.

Thank you so much to those of you lighting a candle for him. I lit about 100 on the day he died so he could find his way to wherever he was going to next so it has a very special meaning to me

What a beautiful darling baby boy. You never forget the feel or smell of your first child and your first was certainly special. Very sorry for your loss and do please keep posting pictures if you would like to. It’s a privilege to see them xx

Oh OP, he is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing these gorgeous photos and your memories. I'm thinking of you on this difficult day; what an unimaginable thing to go through.

His face is just perfect, and I love that he visited you that night to tell you it wasn't your time. You will get that cuddle one day when it's meant to be

Bless your heart ❤️.I really hope you can sleep well tonight in the knowledge that so many of us have heard what a fabulous beautiful boy Scott was . Please always pop on here anytime if you want to share your thoughts and feelings with us .Xx

Beautiful

Thank you for sharing. Such lovely photos of your beautiful baby. You can really feel the love towards your boys in your posts- they are lucky boys to have you as their mum xx

Thank you for sharing these photos of your little son. OP. Wishing you lots of love x

Just perfect. What a beautiful boy. Your vision of him when poorly was him 💙

What a dear little boy! Much love you you. Xxx

Oh what a beautiful baby boy! What a lovely name too. Thank you for sharing him with us, he's scrumptious ❤️

@23yearsagotoday

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Lovely photos, thank you for sharing Scott with us 🐻 🍰

I'm not at all religious, but I believe there's 'something' after this life, where we'll get to be with those we've loved & lost. I'm a little sketchy on the details... but it comforts me.

I also believe he came to you to tell you it wasn't your time ❤️

I love Billy Joel. I just played lullaby and now I will always think of You & Scott when I hear it.

Much love

PS: I don't know your family & friends, but I don't think everyone expects you to be over it, so much as they just don't know what to say, especially with a baby as there's a limit to the shared memories to recall. It's difficult to feel you can't talk about them though, but we are always here x

He is beautiful. Sorry for your loss OP

he’s beautiful, as are you ❤️

What a lovely wee boy.
I'll think of him and light a candle this evening.

Thank you so much for playing his final song. I do usually try to play it, but some years I just don't feel strong enough.

You would think after all this time I could, but even all these years later it's still so raw some days.

I am reading all your messages and appreciate each and every one. I wasn't able to be one of these super mums who sets up a charity and dedicates her life to helping others, I wish I was, but for many years after he died it felt like a fight to just open my eyes or put one foot in front of the other each day.

I hope wherever he is he finds some small way to bless each and every one of you the way that you have all blessed me with a few moments of your time today.

Its really warmed my heart that nobody thinks I'm daft for thinking he visited me, I've never admitted it to anyone and kept it as a special memory just for me because I didn't want it taken away by anyone calling me foolish.

Thank you so much for sharing Scott with us.

Beautiful💜I'll light an extra incense for him when I say my prayers⛩xx

I am sure he is proud of you and you are a fantastic Mum. You gave him a brother to love too xxx

What a beautiful boy op!
I just love his little face peeping through the teddies, such a sweet little face

He's such a beautiful baby, I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your beautiful photos of him with us and I'm glad it has helped you.

Thank you for sharing your amazing photos and memories of your beautiful baby boy. I'm so sorry for your loss. Your love for him really shines through in each of your comments and my heart is breaking for you

What a beautiful child. I'm sure he felt all of your love. He made an impact on those around him, no doubt. Thank you for sharing him with us.