My mum has been ill for a while. I have been living abroad in a country which is not issuing entry visas to foreigners due to covid, so I was delaying coming home to England because once I leave here I can't come back. As she got more ill I booked a flight for next Monday, but she has had a cardiac arrest and died today. She has never met my 2 year old, her granddaughter, only seen her on video. Numb.