My son is dying

[blindspots]

This is fucking cancer. He is 2. We are only 3 months from diagnosis and we are out of active treatment options.

I hate cancer, I hate the pandemic disrupting our world and keeping us from people we love.

He has been so tough she and strong and there is nothing more they can do, the cancer just keeps coming back.

I would give everything to keep him

I am so sorry. There really are no words.

The only thing I can say is that Mumsnet is an incredible place for support at any time of the day or night. There will always be someone here for you. Always.

@blindspots

I’m so so sorry you are going through this,

I lost my GoJetterBoy to cancer in feb last year,

Life is so cruel, the MNers gave me wonderful support, so please, use us, talk to us, and we will hand hold/cry with/ support and help any way we can..

I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful, perfect boy.

@blindspots I'm so very sorry. There are no words that can make it better. Your darling boy sounds absolutely wonderful.

I am so so sorry. Wish I had more words. Thoughts are with you and your family.

OP I have cried my way through your posts, your beautiful boy, there are no words adequate for this.
I am so sorry.

I'm so, so sorry.

This is every parent's worst nightmare and I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. I can't offer you anything offer than the fact that you are in my thoughts. Much love.

Oh my goodness, just read your post about his big sisters. They must adore him, it’s awful xxx

I will light a candle in NZ for your wee man. Are you able to tell us his first name?

Love to you blindspots and GoJetterGirl - I remember your threads and have often thought of you and your boy. I can’t help welling up, sending love from a stranger 🌸🌸🌸

I hate cancer.

I cannot believe this is happening to my beautiful boy who lights up my world

It should not be happening. I hate cancer too.

We have already given instructions we don't want him in Intensive Care should he deteriorate.

I am grate for the palliative care team though I resented their presence earlier in our journey. I couldn't stand to let them into his room before, but now I wonder how on earth they do what they do

I know they do a hell of a job, don’t they. I asked one of them how they did it when my friend was dying. She said it’s very rewarding and also totally heart breaking.

I really hope he names the chicken. What a lovely gesture 🐓

My eldest asked a bit later on after we'd told her "Do people disappear when they die?".

Yes my darling yes they do. But you will be able to talk to him in the stars and you will see him in all the beautiful things in nature I said.

What is knowing someone they love is going to die soon to a child? To me it is my heart ripped into a million pieces but having to pick myself up and carry on, waiting for the inevitable but still trying to hold onto hope that I will get through it somehow

Oh blindspots this is heartbreaking. Sending so much love to you and your beautiful boy

I have no idea what to say, other than that this bastard thing has touched my family too, my mother having lost a beloved 3-year-old to AML when I was just one. It has changed my family, that's for sure, and my mother didn't ever 'get over it'. But she did know joy again (grandchildren, etc) and sometimes, at least, it wasn't the first and last and only thing she thought of in a day.

I wish so much for you this wasn't happening.

We're still in hospital, trying to get on top of everything for Monday. But he has slept most of the day (we're in Australia) and I think we have days not weeks

Bless your little boy. Your children sound like little sweethearts. Big hugs to you all.

Thinking of you and your boy x

How can life be so cruel? I'm so deeply sorry that you have to go through this op

Oh God, this is so heartbreaking. There is something utterly wrong about little children dying of cancer. I cannot imagine what your family is going through. Lots of strength to you all.