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Is it happening again?

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tex111 · 10/09/2004 17:58

I had a missed m/c in June and just discovered that I'm pregnant again. It's very early days (AF was due yesterday) but I've had 6 clear ++ on home pregnancy tests since last Sunday and have felt pregnant all week.

Today I've been having a lot of period-like pains and when I took another HPT (I'm a total obsessive) it was ++ but lighter than the previous tests. Are these all signs of an impending m/c or am I just overreacting? I really don't know what to think and hate feeling so nuts about this. I don't even see my GP until Mon to report the pregnancy and I think I would feel silly calling the EPU when I'm so barely pregnant. Horrible feeling, not knowing what's going on in my body.

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Brighteyes · 13/09/2004 19:23

Tex my thoughts are with you.

Hope everything works out ok.

Hopefully whatever happens you will get the support you need from the medical profession. Must be so upsetting when no one can give you the answers you need at the moment.

Big Hugs and best wishes

krocket · 13/09/2004 19:43

oh tex, only just seen this, poor you, that's so horrible. {{{hugs}}}

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tex111 · 13/09/2004 22:00

Well, started bleeding a couple of hours ago. To be honest, it's a relief. At least now we can start again and I don't have to worry about another D&C.

DH came home early and we went out for a coffee and I bought myself a few treats. Some new clothes and a lovely diamante pin for my coat. We're also planning a spa/golf weekend to get away and just relax.

I've decided to make a list of the tests in Lesley Regan's book and go in to the docs again this week and ask for some of them to be done. I don't want to wait for a third m/c before I get some answers. Especially if it could be as simple as taking a mini-aspirin every day (which I've read is sometimes the case).

Feeling a bit stronger than I did this morning and feel like I've got a plan of action now.

You guys have been so absolutely brilliant. I can't thank you enough just for listening and being so helpful and positive. It's meant the world to me. Thank you.

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cab · 13/09/2004 22:09

Tex thankyou for letting us know. Have kept popping on to see how you're doing. Don't forget we're all here for you if you want to rant and rave.

muddaofsuburbia · 13/09/2004 22:11

Tex - so sorry. Thinking of you - take it easy.

pollyanna · 13/09/2004 22:14

Tex, I'm so sorry this is happening to you - thinking of you xx

tashy · 13/09/2004 22:15

Tex - I've not really sent many messages on MN before, just started following a few threads. But when I read about your possible m/c my heart has been going out to you. I just don't know what to say except I'm thinking of you, please take care of yourself. Things will work out, I really do believe that.

hewlettsdaughter · 13/09/2004 22:30

Big hugs from me, tex111

sweetheart · 14/09/2004 09:28

Tex,

I'm so sorry to hear things haven't worked out for you.

This may not be a comfort to you but I believe everything happens for a reason.

There is tons of support for you around here so please, whenever you need it, just ask.

We'll be waiting to see you again over on ttc, in the meantime take the very best care of yourself and your dh.

(((((HUGS)))))

tassis · 14/09/2004 13:21

so sorry tex, take care.

ebbie22 · 14/09/2004 13:26

hey tex,my heart is going out to you...There isnt antthing that I can say to make your pain go away,Although if there was i would say it over and over again...
If you need to talk you can cat me but i will leave it up to you...
THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS XXXX

MINNIE1 · 14/09/2004 14:19

Tex111, thinking of you..

NomDePlume · 14/09/2004 14:29

Been following this thread silently for a while now, Tex. I so wanted you have a happy outcome this time around, I'm so unspeakably sorry that it isn't the case.

The break sounds like a good idea, a chance to gather your thoughts and have some 'you' time.

Enormous hugs xxx

MrsWednesday · 14/09/2004 15:04

Tex,

I am a lurker coming out of the closet. I just wanted to say I'm so sorry to read about what has happened to you, and to send you a big hug (if you don't mind them from a stranger).

The exact same thing happened to me recently - I had a missed miscarriage (13 wks) and a D&C in April. I had one AF then got pregnant again, but started bleeding a week after my positive test, so did another test and it was negative. I then went on to have a heavier than normal period. So I can completely understand what you are going through - it's miserable, upsetting and frustrating, especially as most people I know are getting pregnant so easily and sailing through the 9 months without a problem.

I have thought about all of this a great deal, and have come to the conclusion that it happened because my body simply wasn't ready to cope to another pregnancy so soon after the D&C. I have no medical reason to back me up by the way as I didn't see a doctor about the second miscarriage.

Sorry, I'm going on about me - all I wanted to do is to let you know that you aren't alone in what you are going through. I hope you get some answers from your doctor very soon.

Take care of yourself, take things easy and treat yourself to some nice things. There are no consolations but hopefully you can find something to take the edge off the hurt.

(((hugs))))

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tex111 · 14/09/2004 16:05

MrsWednesday, that's very interesting. Your experience is almost exactly the same as mine. We've wondered if perhaps I just needed a bit more time to heal. Thank you so much for sharing you story. It does help enormously to hear about the experiences of others though I'm always sorry to hear of anyone going through such diappointment and sadness. Best of luck to you.

Sweetheart, I'll definitely be back over on TTC soon.

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sweetheart · 14/09/2004 16:07

Glad to hear it tex - am I'm so glad your OK - have been quite worried about you today.

Please CAT any time if you need to.

Big hugs to you

gothicmama · 14/09/2004 16:07

tex111 just to sy sorry I had multiple mc but fell prg adn stayed that way after avoiding anything with vitamin a in even skin care products - just an idea that might help I hope you find an answer

MrsWednesday · 14/09/2004 16:27

Tex,

Strangely, one of my close friends also had exactly the same experience last year and it did help me to know I wasn't the only one it had happened to. Doesn't make it hurt any less though does it?

If you do go and see your doctor I would love to hear what advice they give to you.

I won't witter on any more, but I will keep popping in to see how you are doing. I am thinking of you. I hope you and your DH go away together for the weekend and manage to relax - sometimes a change of scenery can at least take your mind off things for a bit.

Twiga · 14/09/2004 16:27

Hi Tex111, sorry I've not posted sooner but am away from home and have only just got to a computer. I'm so very sorry about your mc, absolutly gutted for you and wish I could give you a big hug. Will be around again from late tomorrow/thurs morning so will be in touch again then. God bless you, your in my thoughts and prayers,
Twiga x x x

bluestar · 14/09/2004 21:25

Tex, so sorry that you had your worse fears confirmed. This ttc/pg business doesn't get any easier does it. Big hugs x

MINNIE1 · 15/09/2004 09:07

tex,
How are you felling?

hewlettsdaughter · 15/09/2004 09:30

FWIW, tex - last year I miscarried in March and in May (both times I was only 4 or 5 weeks pregnant), then I conceived again in July - I now have a 5 month old dd.
I'm telling you this not for my sake but because you have said it helps to hear about the experiences of others. If you want to talk more, feel free to contact me.

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tex111 · 15/09/2004 09:31

Not having a great day today. The cramping and bleeding have been a bit shocking and exhausting. I didn't think it would be this heavy when it's still so early. I've been trying to carry on as normal as much as possible but today I realised that I really do need to rest more. Rang DH at work with me in tears and he's going to take tomorrow off work so that I can just stay in bed if I want to.

I've been reading Lesley Regan's book and it had given me some comfort. It seems that it could just be bloody bad luck having the two m/c in a row. As I understand it, because this one is so early there was most likely a severe abnormality that didn't allow for it to develop. The previous m/c developed past the point when the embryo would have had a heartbeat and that makes a big difference. In that case it's more likely that something ended the pregnancy from 'outside' and I was quite ill with a throat and chest infection at the time the embryo stopped growing. I was having high fevers and it all could've caused the m/c.

All very sad, but it is a comfort to know that perhaps I don't have some problem that will cause it to happen again. Going to see the doc on Friday but I feel more at ease with the situation now. I'm going to discuss the various tests but, after reading Regan's book, I'm not so sure that they're necessary yet.

Sorry to ramble on. As you can tell, I'm right in the middle of it all now. Hopefully my rest tomorrow will help clear my head and get things back on a more even keel.

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smellymelly · 15/09/2004 09:35

Hi Tex111 - just wanted to send you a big hug...

strawberry · 15/09/2004 09:37

Big Hugs Tex.