My beautiful daughter has gone

[cathpip]

Pippa passed away in the early hours of this morning after a viral infection led to blood poisoning, she was 3 years old. Her and her big brother were so excited as 10 days ago I had a baby. I am so utterly lost and heartbroken.

just seen this thread ,what a beautifull little girl sending love and hugs cathpip

What an absolutely beautiful child. How horrifically tragic that she is gone. I am desperately sorry. Sending you all love. XXXX

Just seen this, my heart goes out to you and your family xxx

Im so sorry for your loss xxxx

Shit day, it's two years today since my mum died. Dh has been so swept up with his grief over Pippa that he has forgotten, I'm working tonight and then dh is in Glasgow for the rest of the week, hopefully the lovely card my friend sent me will get noticed.

Cathpip I have absolutely no words for what you've gone through and how you must be feeling. I'm so sorry about your beautiful girl, and I hope today is getting better for you. It must be so hard not to have your mum with you to talk to and remember Pippa.

I admire your strength, I'll be thinking about Pippa tonight

No words, sending a hug your way.

It's been a hideous 2 weeks, It started with the second anniversary of my mums death, my dh forgot..... he is very sorry about it, but bit to late really, it's not a difficult date she died on the bank holiday weekend. This was followed by my twin sister having her twins, both girls, understandably it's all my dd's this, my dd's that with me, I'm just agreeing, I can't handle it, I can't even look at a photo, I'm so upset that she gets two and completes her family (3dc now) and I had my perfect family for 10 days only and then lost my little girl. My eldest also went back to school, the house (it's not a home anymore) is so quiet, I hate being in it and it looks like our move has been delayed as the mortgage people are being difficult ; " you would like to borrow less, well the computer says no!" The only positive that has come from the last two weeks is that I started my counselling today, hey even made her cry when she asked me to go through everything that happened. I am so tired, physically and emotionally, and I still have the joy of going south to visit my new nieces next weekend, dh and dc1 are not coming, I would rather jump of a cliff, but needs must....happy thoughts, now where's my mask.

Cathpip. I'm so sorry. I posted when the thread began and have often thought of you and your beautiful girl since then. I have no wise words for how to deal with your grief but hope that you find the strength to go I and one day to feel like you are more than existing. Be kind to yourself.

I am so so sorry for your loss. Thinking if you and your family and hope the next 2 weeks are a tiny but more bearable than these 2 weeks. Much love xx

Hey Cathpip. How are you today?

Thankfully my twins visit has been cancelled, my sister and her dh have a sickness bug, am rather pleased as was not looking forward to it! My counselling has also started, I made the counsellor cry.....but left feeling lighter and positive, then the physical and emotional tiredness just hit me and I ended up in bed asleep by 7.30. Sunday was supposed to be a positive day as Pips bench was being installed around the cricket pitch, however one of the households which overlooks the pitch behind where the bench was going complained that it would ruin the view and have people congregating around it, oh and have people sit on it!! Whilst in tears and trying to be diplomatic (incidentally they do not own the land the bench was going on) said man from house answered a perfectly reasonable "where else do you think the bench should be put" with a very aggressive "I don't give a toss where the bench goes, but it's not going outside the front of my house" (it was never going in front of his house to start with!). Well bench has been moved and after a bollocking from the builder and two neighbours for being an aggressive insensitive bully I did receive an apology. Here's hoping next week is a little brighter.......

What a selfish idiot that man is! Really sorry to hear that.
Glad the counselling is helping a little. Just do what you can one minute at a time.

It's nearly 6 months since our lives changed forever. We have sold our house and move in two weeks, the task of sorting out Pippas clothes and possessions is filling me with dread.
Elliott continues to grow and is the image of his sister, Aubrey is doing well but does come out with some phrases that a 5 year old should never say, such as him wanting a bunk bed for his birthday because "then Elliott can sleep in my room and I can look after him overnight so that he doesn't die". The tiredness is so consuming, the falling asleep at night is not a problem, the staying asleep however is. The happy face to leave the house everyday takes such effort, and on the occasion that we do have a good day, we then feel guilty about having a good day, we can't win......

Cathpip I've just seen and read your thread from the start. What an unbearable awful tragedy to lose your most precious girl like that, I'm so sorry. Your story has brought tears to my eyes. I hope you continue to find strength in your boys and that you still have lots of support around you in RL.

cathpip, be gentle on yourself. Moving house is difficult, but having to pack up Pippa's things as well… it took me over a year to move Mia's things away, and even then, her clothes are in a wardrobe where I can see them. It is all still so raw, so confusing. So damn unfair. xx

Well we are in and unpacked, I feel settled already even though Pippa no longer has a room, I think it helps that I decorated the hall in her bedroom colour and put her mirror and collage picture up so she's there welcoming us in. The decorating has taken over all my spare time, my dh is making himself busy sorting out the garden. November brings mine and Aubrey's birthdays and our wedding anniversary, clearly Aubrey is super excited about his birthday, the rest though just pales into insignificance and trying to summon up some excitement isn't working.
Oh yes I forgot I am also headed down south on Wednesday to visit my sisters twin girls, I am feeling a bit better about meeting them but still not looking forward to it, roll on Sunday when I get to come home........

Cathpip - your love for Pippa shines through this thread, she was a beautiful little girl. I'm glad you've managed to get Pippa's place in your new house (as you'll always have her in your heart) with the collage and colour. I find it so important to be surrounded by things that give me strength.

I really hope the visit to your sister and her twins go well. Hopefully as well as sadness you will find happiness in the cuddles with them.

Crikey, everything I say sounds clunky and crass but I just want you to know I am thinking of you and wishing you strength and hopefully some peace in the times to come.

Your daughter was absolutely beautiful, you can see the happiness, playfulness, love and kindness in her eyes in that photo. It's so cruel that she's gone, I can't get my head around this world sometimes. How can it be? I know I can't say anything that can help you.

I hope you can feel at home in your new place, and that you continue to find a way to carry on each day for your boys.

It's our 7th wedding anniversary today, the sentiments that my dh put in my card are lovely, we will get through this our marriage is strong. We spent the day having lunch in Hawes and then on a walk with dc and dogs, a nice day but Pippa has been deeply, deeply missed.....

So sorry for your loss x

Thinking of you all x

Thinking of you all and your lovely Pippa. Glad you've had a good day.

Thinking if you all x