My beautiful daughter has gone

[cathpip]

Pippa passed away in the early hours of this morning after a viral infection led to blood poisoning, she was 3 years old. Her and her big brother were so excited as 10 days ago I had a baby. I am so utterly lost and heartbroken.

Mouseface - we're here for you too

Cath, thinking of you x

I'm so sorry

Northern - you know me far too well. Thank you lovely friend xxx

Another one sending much love to you today. x

Cath - I am so very, very sorry for you all, and sending much love to you xx

How utterly heartbreaking

So very sorry. Your beautiful girl. x

Cathpip, I keep getting drawn back to the beautiful photo of Pippa.
What a smile!
You are all constantly in my thoughts. X

So very sorry for your loss x

I'm so, so sorry. What a beautiful girl.

So sorry to hear your heartbreaking news cathpip.

There are no words that feel right, but I want you to know that people here care.

I saw your picture, what a beautiful little girl. So very very sorry. My heart goes out to you. x

There are no words, I'm sorry for the loss of your adorable, cheeky, beautiful little girl xx

Beautiful name, beautiful girl.
So sorry for your loss.
xx

For all the triteness of the words I am so very sorry.

I just could not imagine your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss

That is heartbreaking. I am so so sorry.

I am so sorry. Pippa looks beautiful in her photo. She will always be your little girl; you will always be her mummy.

Take care x

Hi Cathpip.

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It is a rare experience, but you are not alone. Perhaps hearing from some who are surviving despite the horror may help you now or one day soon.

We are almost six years on from the sudden death of our previously healthy four year old dd1. She had tummy bug symptoms and died in the middle of the night. We later knew that it was inflammation around her heart caused by a virus.

When she died I was seven months pregnant. Her little sister was born some weeks later. Neither my husband nor I can properly remember the first six months or so, but we did survive, and have learned to live again.

Phone lines that helped in the early months were Samaritans, the child death helpline (best one for talking to someone who has been there) and Winston's wish. In the longer term Winston's wish have been great for helping us with supporting siblings.

I'm so very sorry this has happened. It's ghastly and cruel and obscene. If you would like to chat off the forum, please feel free to pm me, now or in the future.

Sending solidarity and strength.

What a beautiful little girl, I am so very sorry to hear your sad news.

I can't imagine the difficulty in losing one child and bringing another into the world at the same time. Keep your two little boys close, they are a guiding light through these terrible times. Xxxxx

Oh my goodness, came across this thread by accident, saw the picture of your beautiful little spark..am in floods on the keyboard. I am so sorry, can do nothing but offer my sincerest condolences and thank God that my grumbles are nothing in comparison. Restful peace for your little one...words fail me xx

It has been a very busy day, the coroner has ordered a post mortum, this will be carried out on Monday in Newcastle. The police have visited, due to Pippas sudden death they have to act as coroners assistants and get as much information on her life and esp her last 72 hours. Having to relive her last moments were awful, but if lessons can be learned in order that another family do not go through what we are then so be it.
The tears and the anger have flowed today as I learnt from my dh that the medical staff took 7/8 minutes to locate the key to the adrenaline cupboard, and a consultant peadeatrician answered his phone with "I am not the on call dr" when they requested his help. How can a dr say that when other staff are trying their hardest to resuscitate my baby girl.
I have pretty much gone into survival mode, I am currently sat in bed feeding Elliott whilst Aubrey is snuggled up next to me snoring, the entire village have gone on a cooking frenzy for me, I don't think my dh realised how well known and liked Pippa was in the village.
My heart is heavy and the ache is permanent and I know it will never go away, tomorrow will bring itself more memories and tears, just watching Aubrey play in the garden alone is heartbreaking.
Yet again thank you for all the messages of support, they mean the world to my family and we take great comfort in reading them.

Sending strength and love to you all, you are amazingly brave xxx

cathpip that all sounds so awful and scary and sad.

My little girl is the same age as your lovely Pippa and I just can't imagine having to do what you are doing.

Just, I don't know. Nothing I can say will help. So sorry.