Morning :)
I think that's a lovely idea that the ashes are split. He had so many people in his life who loved him and who he loved back, it doesn't matter 'how much' everyone gets does it?
I know that wherever you decide to lay his ashes will be the right place for you and the girls, it will be the perfect place in fact.
How are the girls?
And, actually, how are you? Has everyone gone home now? CDD1 etc?
It's strange that even though a huge part of your life has been changed forever, the world around you keeps turning, the sun still rises (and hides behinds clouds!) it still sets, the washing still needs doing, the house tidying, Lolly still needs a walk, you still breathe in and you still breathe out, just.......
And yet there's a hole, a void, something's out of place, missing, not quite right and there's nothing that you can do about that, it's out of your control darling lady and that, that is the hardest thing ever.
I think what I'm trying to say and to echo what other lovely posters have said, is that just because the funeral is over, the people have left, the paperwork is in order etc........ we're all still here, holding your hand, sitting by you, I'm on your shoulder..........
We're all still thinking about you, as if it were the first day, we all still care as much as we did then, we all still need to know you will say if there's something, anything that we can do to help.
We're all still holding your heart and helping to mend it, bit by bit, day by day, one day at a time.
Promise you'll say if you need anything at all. YOU ALL STILL MATTER.
Mouse xxx