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Trinityrhinos Unspeakably Shit Stuff part two

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TrinityRhino · 14/05/2013 20:39

Hi everyone
Thank you for so much help and such kind words x

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BewitchedBotheredandBewildered · 31/05/2013 15:55

You did it, you did it, he would be very justifiably proud of you.
You're a wonderful woman.
Hope DD is OK now.

Thank you so much for telling us.
((((biggest hugs))))

IwishIwasmoreorganised · 31/05/2013 15:59

Well done Trinity.

I'm so pleased that you knew that we were all there with you.

Deep breaths of sea air now, and some time just to reflect quietly on the enormity and courageous ness of what you've just done.

You're doing great.

Xxx

WandaDoff · 31/05/2013 16:14

You did it. You got through it. It's done. Thanks xxxxx

It took more balls than a big brass monkey to get through it & you did it.
He gave you the strength to do that.

He'll give you the strength to get through the next few days & weeks & years as well.

Well done Trin xxx

AgathaF · 31/05/2013 16:55

Well done. You did him proud, yourself and your family too.

LulaPalooza · 31/05/2013 17:34

Well done, Trinity. You got through it.

And we are all still standing beside you and behind you in case you fall

xxxx

Fairenuff · 31/05/2013 17:55

A favourite poem by Mary Elizabeth Frye comes to mind, Trinity, as you look out to sea.

Take a moment to just let anything and everything wash over you. Let your thoughts go, just for a bit and find a little peace if you can after all that you've been through in the past and today, right now. Take that moment and make a special, safe place to go in your mind when you need calm and solace.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

Everything that he was to you, he still is to you. And always will be x

ClaraOswald · 31/05/2013 18:28

Have had you all in my thoughts all day.

xx

AuldAlliance · 31/05/2013 18:51

You did it, Trinity.
Always knew you could.

Another step on this unjust path you have to tread.
I'm glad our thoughts and posts help, because we all want to help, to ease your pain and your burden, to lighten your load.
And all I can do is post on here - it's so slight, so feeble compared to what you are doing.

Mouse says it so much better...

greenhill · 31/05/2013 18:55

You did it, we knew you could x

TrinityRhino · 31/05/2013 19:16

the poem we had at the funeral was called gone fishing if anyone can find it

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Almostfifty · 31/05/2013 19:21

Gone Fishin'

I've finished life's chores assigned to me,
So put me on a boat headed out to sea.
Please send along my fishing pole
For I've been invited to the fishin' hole.

Where every day is a day to fish,
To fill your heart with every wish.
Don't worry, or feel sad for me,
I'm fishin' with the Master of the sea.

We will miss each other for awhile,
But you will come and bring your smile.
That won't be long you will see,
Till we're together you and me.

To all of those that think of me,
Be happy as I go out to sea.
If others wonder why I'm missin'
Just tell 'em I've gone fishin'
Delmar Pepper

Almostfifty · 31/05/2013 19:21

That one Trin?

TreeLuLa · 31/05/2013 19:26

Well done Trin. Huge hugs from all of us here xxxx

TrinityRhino · 31/05/2013 19:42

nope not that one sorrySmile

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TrinityRhino · 31/05/2013 20:00

Gone Fishing

By now you have discovered I am a bit of a ‘no show’and the reason I’ve gone missing...well may I just let you know.I’m where there’s thousands of wonderful fish.Yes! you’ve guessed it once again...that’s correct,I’ve just gone fishing!A man named Peter at some gates,asked if I’d had permission.My anglers license got me in....and now I’m happily fishing.The waters here are crystal clear even clearer than our Pacific ocean; You get a bite at every cast,and everything seems to be in multi-mega slow motion.My dad’s here casting by my sideAnd my dear Mum, I’m happily hugging So please, don’t worry dearest family,I’m truly happy here.Keep me in your memory,be relaxed, raise a glass and join me in a beer,and just be sure to let everyone know,I’ve simply just gone fishing.

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WandaDoff · 31/05/2013 20:05

Oh that's lovely.

Almostfifty · 31/05/2013 20:44

It is, lovely.

mummylin2495 · 31/05/2013 20:45

Oh that poem is just lovely

venusandmars · 31/05/2013 22:21

Trinity with mouse on your shoulder you can't go wrong! And well done you for doing what you felt was right today.

Now sleep a little x

PacificDogwood · 31/05/2013 22:32

Trinity, you've done it, done Cliff proud and here you are.
I am glad today has passed and all has gone as well as these things can go Sad.

I love the poem - I am sure that is how Cliff would like all who loved him to think of him: gone fishin'.

I hope you get some sleep tonight.
Hugs to you and yours x.

ExitPursuedByABear · 31/05/2013 22:35

Well done Trin. It will get easier

Hugs

50ShadesofXmas · 31/05/2013 22:38

Oh bless you love, you did an amazingly brave thing today.

People say that after a funeral is when everyone else stops contacting you, stops being there for you because you are "moving on" and "getting over it" - we will not leave you.

Please know you are in a lot of people's thoughts, a lot of the time xx

Thumbwitch · 31/05/2013 22:43

That's a wonderful poem, Trin!

NorksAreMessy · 31/05/2013 22:43

Good night kiss and hair stroke xxx

Mouseface · 31/05/2013 22:48

Hello lovely :)

I adore that poem, 'Gone Fishing', so apt. xx

I read wrote that out for my Grandad's funeral and it was put in his coffin before his cremation. He wasn't a fisher, he used to play football, in his day, for his local club. I wasn't strong enough to read it out but I wanted it to be with him that day, and a copy was put up in a frame, on the wall at the venue afterwards, my Grandma has the copy on her lounge wall, above a picture of him, smiling away, looking as fabulous as he ever did in his football kit, long shorts, ,ong socks, just like it used to be!

It was the rythem of the poem that he loved, so I changed the words a bit so that they fit into it for him...... it went like this. I hope you don't mind me posting it Trin, I hope that you are as okay as you can be sweetheart :) xx

"By now you have discovered I am a bit of a ?no show? and the reason I've gone missing? Well may I just let you know.

I'm where there's thousands of wonderful fans. All yelling, waiting, at the pie hatch....... Yes! you've guessed it once again, that?s correct my lovely family, I've gone back to the match!

A man named Peter at some gates, asked if I'd had permission. My season ticket got me in....and now I'm happily singing.

The pitch here is the lushest green, even greener than our Wembley; you get a cheer at every kick, and everything it rings so true with me.

My dad?s here casting by my side. And my dear Mum, I'm happily hugging too. So please, don?t worry dearest family, I'm truly happy here, even though it's not with you.

Keep me in your memory, be relaxed, raise a glass and join me in a beer, and just be sure to let everyone know, I've simply just gone to the match my dear"

I hope that it's okay to share this to here, today.

TrinityRhino - you have had the most wonderful support, the most wonderful friends and family around you today.

I am off to bed lovely lady, I will be back tomorrow and on the phone all night if you need anything.

You did great today. And, guess what? You didn't get shit faced and stick two fingers up to the world. YOU ROCK!

Night lovely, I hope you get some sleep tonight at some point. You will, I know when your mind lets you tone it down for a moment or two............

Take good care of you, I hope you don't mind me dozing off on your shoulder now, I'm just a wee bit shattered. Nothing compared to you darling, I'm sure. xxx

Love you all. Be back tomorrow sweetheart, Huggles? from Nemo too. xxx