Hello beautiful lady. :)
You won't read this now until after you have said your last 'official' goodbye to your darling, wonderful Cliff but I'm there, on your shoulder as you wanted, I'm just sat, quietly, feeling you gently shaking. That will ease........
It's there, it's still there Trin, that strength that Cliff helped you to find, uncover, the shine too, the smile that you'd hidden, the love...... love will never leave you, his love is there and you'll carry it with you every single day, until you meet again.
Sweetheart you knew you'd go today. It's not that you didn't want to go to the funeral, it's that you didn't and want to say goodbye.
You don't want to see the curtain close at the end of the service, you don't want to be the one who people feel sorry for, they mean it ever so kindly though, we all do, we feel your sorrow, not sorry for you, we feel sorrow for your situation, you being in pain, we feel sorrow for the girls, we feel sorrow because of what you have had to endure already.
Does that make sense?
You don't want it to be now, today, it's too soon. You didn't want to ever be in this position, not ever again. Not in a year, not in four, not in forty. No-one does. 
We are all holding a piece of your heart still, we're working on mending it, holding it safe, holding you, each of us have a part of you in our hearts right now.
I don't know what else to say other that I am honoured to know you and have you as a friend. You have shown such courage, such determination, such spirit and such fight to carry on, even when you thought that you couldn't, you did, you have and you are doing.....
Thank you for having me on your shoulder lovely.
Sending all the love in the world, to you, and to you all,
Mouse xxx