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"You Light The Skies Up Above Me, A Star So Bright You Blind Me" Remembering all our precious children.

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fioled · 25/08/2012 11:45

For my beautiful baby Anabelle Violet, loved and missed to the moon and back, always xxx How hard we wish that you were here baby girl.

Twinkle twinkle little star,
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.

For all our babies and children, big and small xx

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My5boysandme · 14/10/2012 21:28

Happy bïrthday for tomorrow helyantha.
It was my birthday today 20 days since Dexter died. My dh gave me a card from Dexter, it had me welled up, but I loved it and glad he did it.

This is the poem we had at Dexters funeral

I am here in baby heaven. God took me by the hand, Wrapped me in his love, Gently led me to
His land.
I will always be your baby, Our hearts joined by love, Now a perfect little angel, I?m watching from above. I?m part of you.
Though brief the time we shared, Take comfort, be healed, I?m safe in loving care. Remember me with joy,
Lift a smile to the skies,
Say a prayer for me,
Let there be no sad goodbyes. One day we?ll meet again,
A lifetime I will wait,
You will know the little angel With outstretched arms
At heaven?s gate.

MrsY · 14/10/2012 22:18

Oh, my5, you poor love. J had his birthday ten days after we lost B. I didn't know what to do about signing the card, but I did include him and it was the right decision. I'm glad your DH was brave enough to do that. x I hope the day was gentle to you. Happy Birthday.

Anyone watched Downton? Phew, that was tough. I had pre-eclampsia with my daughter. Was very 'there but for the grace of God...'.

expatinscotland · 14/10/2012 22:20

Happy Birthday, Helyantha!

Tomorrow is 100 days since Aillidh died.

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 14/10/2012 22:20

Oh ladies, you are all so lovely. Having a little cry at your kindness. xx

expatinscotland · 14/10/2012 22:25

whiteandyellow, I really like the 20:55:28 poem!

chipmonkey · 15/10/2012 00:32

Mias, I will be thinking of you all day tomorrow. I am at home tomorrow, so is dh, we will keep a candle burning for you all.

expat, 100 days!
100 days closer, my love xx

Helyantha · 15/10/2012 07:30

Thank you for the birthday wishes :) Bittersweet as always. DS4 (3) is so excited - he's so much like F!

You are in my thoughts & prayers today Mias

Firsttobed · 15/10/2012 11:00

I Feel As Though My Heart Must Stop With Pain - Nicholas Gordon

I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
I miss you so, the darkness will not pale.
My darling child, come to me again.
I know you cannot come, and still I strain
To put my arms around you through the veil.

I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
Other lives and loves call me in vain.
I try to turn away from you and fail.
My darling child, come to me again.

You are my unendurable refrain.
Back and back I hurry to impale
My heart on you, to stop my heart with pain.
Yet nothing that I do undoes the plain
Brutal fact which always must prevail.

Ah, my darling, come to me again!
You are both my sunshine and my rain,
My dearest joy, my anguish, and my grail.
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
My darling child, come to me again.

I miss you so very very much my beautiful boy. Six whole months. All consuming today.

expatinscotland · 15/10/2012 11:15

MiaAlexandrasMummy, thinking of you and your DH all day! With you in spirit.

Happy Birthday, Hely! Hope it's as beautiful there as here.

100 days gone, our Aillidh is today.

She was last at home nearly 6 months ago. Next month will be 1 year since she was diagnosed.

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 12:20

hel, hope your having a good or at least ok day, sometimes these days when you feel your supposed to be happy hurt the most, be i really hope your ok today

miasmummy, beent htinking about you all am, hope things are going as ok as possible for you

yeah expat i like that poem to, esp the part about if love alone could have saved you, you never would have died
so so true
i guess you find yourself thinking this time last year all was well etc.
(((())))

MrsY · 15/10/2012 18:39

Thinking of you all, mias, hope the day went as well as it could. x

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 19:17

just lit three candles, one for baby orchid, one for his twin, and one for the baby i misscarried in aug.

why oh why, it doesnt make sense

life seriously sucks, its like being trappped in a nightmare you cannot wake up from, where everything and everyone is differnet now
Sad

chipmonkey · 15/10/2012 19:27

Hugs white. Life is just too cruel sometimes.

Mias I'm sure today was a tough, tough day and you are probably exhausted. Just wanted you to know that the angel candle on my FB picture was kept lit all day for you and Mia xx

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 19:31

thanks chip xx

expatinscotland · 15/10/2012 21:05

'life seriously sucks, its like being trappped in a nightmare you cannot wake up from, where everything and everyone is differnet now'

You're not alone, white.

Lit two candles tonight. One for Aillidh, on her 100th day in the spirit life, and one for those children who are with her now.

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 15/10/2012 21:59

All the love being sent our way today has been so appreciated. Thanks It was hard, but about what I expected... what I didn't expect was that I felt weirdly happy having a whole room of people concentrating on my beautiful daughter, talking about Mia, saying her name. (Not sure I could share this thought anywhere else.) I could almost feel her sitting on my lap, as I stared at her lovely photo when it was becoming too fraught.

The inquest on both local tv stations tonight, and I'm guessing that it will be on as part of the 10pm news too. So glad we chose such lovely photos of Mia.

shabbatheGreek · 15/10/2012 22:02

I totally agree with your words MiasM - really do.

I just remember the opening words of the police coroner....(talking about Matt) 'I was looking at the body of a well nourished, well cared for little boy.'

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 22:05

baby orchids twin candle went out first, then baby orchids, then the candle for the baby is micarried in august, sounds mad but when i went to light the candles, i had all three set up, and was going to use a fourth to light from the gas hob, then light the others, yet i was scared stiff if i lit another candle, the fourth one, someone else would die.
so i lit baby orchids from the hob then lit the others from baby orchids.

expat thanks for the understanding

matildawormwood · 15/10/2012 22:06

Well done Mias. I completely understand why having your daughter acknowledged and talked about would give you some comfort, even in such testing circumstances. I'm sure she was with you today and would be very proud xxx

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 22:09

mias mummy im convinced mias spirit is right there with you, helping you through this, seeing whats going on
i think shes very close to you right now
(()))

shabba what lovely opening words.

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 15/10/2012 22:10

Candles lit here too. Three more days to go...

ILikeToMoveItMoveIt · 15/10/2012 22:10

Love to everyone here, you have all been in my thoughts xx

whiteandyelloworchid · 15/10/2012 22:12

wishing you strength for the days ahead mias mummy

expatinscotland · 15/10/2012 22:33

Oh, Mia's mum, we have so been thinking of you for today! So hard, so very very hard!

I hope you got some answers or at least the ball rolling to more answers and that she was there, too.

And you, too, shabba, I know Matt was there with Mia's mum as you must have told him.

MrsY · 15/10/2012 23:02

I can totally appreciate your words mias, having people talking about and thinkning about Mia must have been very reassuring. x