need a un mumsnet hug!!!!

[dustycups]

cant stop crying tonight!!

9 years since i lost my baby boy and girl!!!!

still feel so empty!!!

((((big hug)))

Do you have someone there to give you a real hug?

Do you want to talk about your DS and DD?

Nothing to say apart from you are not alone. ..

A huge hug for you

We're here if you want to talk.

[[hug] so sorry x

Sending you a ((((huge hug))). It engulfs you sometimes. My mum lost my sister over 30 years ago. Very occasionally it just floors her still.

thankyou everyone!

noone around for real hugs tonight!

they were born at 23 weeks and only survived one day! i remeber that day like it was yesterday!
i hold on to the fact i was only 15 and proberly couldnt of looked after them proberly anyway!

I'm positive you would have done a wonderful job of looking after them, but I know what you mean about holding onto something to make it easier to cope with. I lost my DS2 at 36 weeks but tell myself that if he had lived then my beautiful DS3 wouldn't be here.

i have 3 beautiful children now and it does make a little easier, cos i believe too that i wouldnt of had them if they had survived!

thankyou all so much for your support!

dusty here is one from me ((((dusty))))
I dont give them out often but you deserve one. What a terrible thing to happen to anyone, let alone a 15 year old.

Its been 4 years for me. Sometimes it seems like yesterday.

i often wonder if the pain does get any easier!!!

I don't think it will do. But then again do you want it to? I can't imagine feeling like this for the next 50 years (or however long I have left) but the only thing worse than feeling like this is NOT feeling like this, iykwim. I think I'd feel worse if I felt better.

And that came out as utter gibberish but I hope you can untangle what I meant!

i get excactly what you are saying!! i need to learn to cope with the pain better i guess!

just found this in my 'im on' list! i dont even remember writing it last night (i was very drunk and emotional and last night is all abit of a blur)

just want to say a big big thankyou for all your support!!!