As much as I love my children to bits. Having a asd child. Staying postive all the time is hard, I have bioplar. I try not to let it effect my children. But some days I just feel low in myself. It makes it 10x harder on thoses days. I focus so much on being a postive parent and role model. I don't get much break for myself. Me sons dad isn't much help,it's just all become too much