Sibling Squabbling - not being able to let it go

[Smeldra]

I'm not sure exactly where to post this as it's really more to do with my behaviour!!

We have 3 DC - 10 yrs, 8 1/2 yrs & 4 1/2 yrs.

There is all the usual (at least I think it's usual ? ) squabbling, antagonising, screaming blah blah blah. But the bit I really struggle with is letting go of my feelings afterwards. For example, I wake determined that I shall remain zen and deal with anything calmly and often do the first, second and third time but then it just puts me in a bad mood/makes me upset and I really struggle to shake that even though I know I need to.

So my question is how do you do it? Am I normal???

I do sing Let It Go rather a lot to myself

Perfectly normal. I have 4 aged 21, 15, 13, and 5. I am chilled and calm at first and then lose it. Every day, especially during half term etc, I. Am going to.get on top of this and they will be so busy there will be no time to argue. It doesn't work. I find sending them to their rooms to calm down gives me a break to calm down too. Cup of coffee and a concious decision to not be in bad mood. The last bit takes a lot of practice 😊. Then we start afresh x