i feel terrible left 10 week old baby to cry

[ekkiethump]

i feel terrible that i left 10 week old baby to cry. she has been having a growth spurt today (I assume) as she has been feeding constantly all afternoon. however, i just had to leave her as my 2 year old just needed some attention tonight.
i knew she was probably still hungery but i just had to leave her as my ds gets no attention anymore (husband works away so have to do bedtime by myself). when i eventually managed to pick her up she was so upset and really hot from crying so much. my health visitor said that i will need to leave her to cry from time to time if i am on my own with a toddler but it is so difficult to leave her.
now i feel awful and my stomach is churning. i really need a glass of wine but have none in the house.

It is hard, but you shouldn't beat yourself up. Both of your children need you. When she next wakes up you'll have a fabulous snuggle and all will be well with the world.

Just think, if you'd not left her, you'd be posting about how terrible you felt that you'd not given DS any one-to-one attention and how worried you were about him not getting any time. This parenting lark's bloody hard.