Hi All,
I posted the other day under the Infant Feeding group. I gave birth 3 weeks ago to my the most beautiful baby boy. He's my second son and so so wanted after 7 years of trying. DS was born with TT which was luckily divided at day 2...but by then my nipples were damaged and I had to have a little break. Baby was not satisfied with the many colostrum syringes I had and at day 4/5 I had to give him formula to feed him as my milk wasnt coming in fast enough despite my nipples being on fire. Roll on to now, 3 weeks later... I have been triple feeding round the clock. Baby will be on breast for hours, but still hungry as soon as hes unlatched...then I give him a top up of expressed milk...if hes still hungry then some formula. I am in this vicious cycle of feeling like shi* -when baby latches on and drinks (i can see him swallowing and hear drinking) then I think ok great hes getting milk...but then an hour later hes still rooting....so then I feel so guilty because im giving him the bottle. So far, yes its clear he's got a preference for the bottle but hes still latching on (i hope this continues!). I am feeling so low right now because I feel like im sitting on the sofa all day every day with a determination to get him to EBF or at least 90% of the time ...then baby gets frustrated with extreme hunger and then I feel guilty that I have just "undone" the past hour(s) work by giving him a bottle. I really wanted to BF at least for 3M as I was not able to with my DS1. I really regret giving him the bottle so early on. I am pumping all the time to keep my supply up. Has anyone been able to get their baby back to BF... and how can I shift my mindset to ignore the "breast is best" so that I can feel like myself again. I don't even know what I'm asking here...my mind is scrambled. I just want my baby to drink from me and feel satisfied. How do all these mums of newborns make BF look so easy. Its the hardest thing I've EVER done.