To wish the next 11 months away?

[CinnabarRed]

DS2 is 4 weeks old; DS1 is 2.6 years.

I hate the newborn phase. The broken nights, the constant feeding, getting not even a smile back from DS2, neglecting DS1 because DS2 screams anytime I put him down, the anxiety and constant worry that I'm not doing if Right (especially re not being able to get DS2 to settle himself to sleep or even put him down).

I felt just the same with DS1, only really lifting at around 6 months when he became a little person in his own right.

I long for the next year to pass. DP tells me I'm wrong to wish DS2's life away. But each day passes so slowly, even with DP giving DS2's late feed as a bottle of EBM so I can get some sleep.

I just hate this phase.... Sigh.

So glad you are all slinged up and happier today cinnabar

It looks like a lovely day, too.

Very glad to hear the sling is back. Hope you're happier too and know you're doing the right thing.

I quite enjoyed having small babies but have found that my kids have got more and more enjoyable as they've got older(now 5 and 7). If I suddenly found myself pregnant now, I'd be seeing the time that the child was a baby as a time to get through on the way to an even more fabulous time, but I'd still enjoy it IYSWIM. I didn't hate it at the time but found it really challenging, hard work and sometimes (whispers) a bit dull. I also found the first few months with DD (2nd born) far more stressful and wearing than with DS (1st born), the gap between my two is similar to yours and no, I dont think you're being unreasonable, just struggling to see the positive side of a situation that is not 'you at your best'. At least you can see that this too will pass and you'll love it when baby is bigger.It would be More sad to not be able to see an end and think you'll hate it forever. Not sure that's really helpful to be honest but just my feelings and experience.