Namechanged, for obvious reasons.
My usually lovely DH can be somewhat depressive, and the onset of winter generally sets off a fairly major bout. He traditionally deals with depression by getting mildly stoned (cannabis) and staying that way pretty much day and night until he feels better. He is never what I would call out of it, just a bit mood altered.
I have a really weird set of reactions to him when he does this. On one hand, I appreciate the fact that it makes him feel better, and this does have a knock on effect to the rest of us (he's pretty damn moody when depressed). I don't have a problem with the illegality of the drug.
On the other hand, I absolutely and utterly cannot stand the smell of it, it grosses me out, plus gives me (psychosomatically?) a headache. And I can always smell it on him, even though he smokes at the bottom of the garden. On top of that, I grew up with an alcoholic mother, and find the fact of him being "altered" all the time really difficult.
Usually we get through it okay, I ignore it and after a few weeks or so he gives up and we go back to normal.
However before he started this time we'd been trying to get our sex lives back on track, ie more regular than a couple of times a month. He wants to carry on down this path, as it was all going pretty well. In fact he's probably hornier than usual now he's started smoking again. I however just don't want to shag him, he stinks of dope but also he's somehow not quite my much loved DH.
AIBU?