my 14 month old has had a rough few nights not feeling well and we’ve been hosting my parents in our small flat - LO has been up upset every night and we’re all feeling knackered. Today my DH wanted to watch the football from 2pm so I cooked dinner for us then occupied our son / played with him / took him out food shopping. My DH went out after the football finished around 4.30pm to go sort out car tyres out and fix something on the car - I asked if he could come back to do LO bedtime. He was late and I ended up doing bathtime / bedtime and he asked me why I was ‘glaring’ at him when he came back in. I often feel like I have to manage who does what instead of him just taking charge and doing these parenting roles with baby so I was annoyed and tired.
he then said under his breath could I not just do bathtime alone for once and all I have had to do this afternoon is ‘heat up babies dinner’ and I completely exploded. I yelled so loud and said how dare he speak to me like that and he has no idea how much I actually do whilst he just creates solo tasks to go do alone. I kept yelling I felt like I’m just at the end of my tether and really lost it. He shouted back that I shouldn’t speak to him like that but I just got louder and then had to go to the bathroom and cried whilst he put him to bed. I just felt like I always have to ask him to do something and he answers me back all the time putting things back on me. Its exhausting.
we also fell out on a rare evening out on Friday night when I brought up the subject of moving up north nearer family whilst he wants to stay in London - the mood turned frosty and he sat in silence in a sulk all evening. I just feel very lonely at frustrated at the moment with him whilst we raise our first baby together.
AIBU to have totally lost my shit? I do feel quite guilty now about it but also I felt like he was waving a rag to a bull with me earlier