To ask is this a normal feeling?

[Carlie97]

Sometimes I get up and feel I'm in a cloud all day. A bit of a walking zombie feel. My brain won't switch on and sometimes, but not always, I can feel a little bit low. I don't always feel 'in the moment', like I could be at a beautiful beach but I don't feel like im really there. This can last for entire holidays sometimes. Is this normal?

How old are you? Menopause symptom?

I'm 42 and it's been happening about three years now.

Disassociation. Are you depressed? Xxx

Sometimes I am to the point of suicidal ideation. Sometimes I'm ok. Sometimes I'm very elated. It swings between all of them.

Holiday's are often a bit surreal, one day your in grey Britain and the next on a foreign beach in brilliant sunshine, it can take a while to feel you are really there. I also get the feeling of not quite being with it some days, something important or serious happening knocks me back into sync.