I think actually on reflection smug is the wrong word. Proud. Delighted.
to gain weight and not be able to lose it is awful when you start to get unwell due to it, and you still can’t do it. Then something works. It makes you so happy.
when you develop high cortisol due to peri,which leads to insulin resistance, weight gain, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, and it’s a vicious circle you can’t get out of, because you’re exhausted, you don’t sleep. Your mental health is in the toilet.
You can’t fix it because doctors have nothing to help you. When you have to take such brutal high blood pressure tablets they have to keep checking your kidneys for damage, and you can’t fix this, the doctors can’t fix this, because the high cortisol, the insulin resistance, the sleep apnea, your mental health, all together fight you an you feel so so tired, so unwell. You can’t remember the last time you slept solidly.
snd then a drug comes to market. And it works. You feel immediatly better. From day 1, your stomach starts shrinking back, your sore ankles relieve, you eat healthy, you sleep a solid 8 hours at night. You go to the gym 6 days a week. Your gp monitors you, your blood pressure starts dropping. They reduce the meds, every month, till you come off them completely.
you eat your protein, you work out most days, you protect your muscle at all costs. You lose over 6 stone and go from a bmi 32 to a 20. Your blood test results, the whole suite, show a healthy woman. All smack bang in the middle of optimal.
so yeah I feel proud. I feel proud I took the decision for my health. I feel proud I did the work and I feel proud that even though the nhs couldn’t help Me, I was intelligent enough to research the drugs and ensure I knew what I was doing, proud I discussed with my gp and family before embarking on it. Proud I earn enough that I can pay for it myself.
so yeah, you call it smug. I call it proud. Relieved. Delighted. And you and your mates can go on with silly snippy little comments. But I’d recommend them to anyone. I’m on long term, I maintain on a low dose. I’m very healthy, I look healthy, you can see it in me, my hair, my skin, my face, my body, a very different woman to I was a couple of years ago.
and if some one doesn’t like it, can’t understand the risks of obesity, then that’s their problem. It isn’t mine.